Serenity...!!!!

Being a mother....!!!!

2011-12-30T18:29:00.003+05:30

2011 indeed was one memorable year.. unique in a million ways…a year when I was welcomed into the world of motherhood… a year that saw many people walking in and out of life… a year of some realizations.. some good..some bad…some bitter… a year when I actually saw my soul icon of music ARR… a year which changed the impulsive scorpion in me to a subtle accommodating soul… zillion thanks the wonderful days and hours spent in my make believe world…thanks to my shooting star who fell in to my life as a blessing…you are indeed God sent!

As days pass by we all have this realisation of who is with us and who is not.. who means what they say and who doesn’t … but when you are a mother you never cant have the word ‘hate’ in your world…Like they say… “I have found the paradox…when you love until it hurts..there can’t be more hurt..but only more love…”It is true that once you become a mother ..your judgement slowly turns into compassion and understanding…it relaxes you and you eventually learn to deal with crisis situations that might come along the course of life…Osho once said “The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new..”cant be more true.

When I first watched this amazing movie from 80’s my understanding of the central character played brilliantly by this amazing actor was not so deep… but now.. as years have passed by and when life has given me a part of my soul in the shape of my lil one… I know I understand her a lot better… I can relate and empathize with what she feels… and what she yearns for in life… this fabulous Malayalam movie from the golden era..”Onnu muthal poojyam vare” was just amazingly brilliant not just because of its unbelievale script and screenpaly..but also because of this evergreen lullaby rendered mesmerisingly by K S Chithra and G Venugopal… am so glad Chithra chechi is back… back to the world of music after a hiatus… missed her terribly and it feels fabulous to see her fight back to the hard knocks of life…“Raari raareeram” indeed played a pivotal rold in establishing Mohan Sithara’s career as a musician and it did take him to those unknown heights of glory where everyone just admired the talent in him…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNgl7aakwQU

Sometimes being alone gets you to a point where you are no fun anymore… when you keep trying too hard to be all that your child wants you to be… It is true that at times we truly realise we are all so alone.. its just that the love we carry in our soul creates an illusion of not being alone for few moments..when you start yearning for that gentle breeze to touch your soul..that belongs only to you.. when you start looking for your safest corner in this otherwise insensitive world…it's often just enough to be with someone. You don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone anymore… this song and movie has so well captured these emotions where the absence of someone in life keeps coming back to your thoughts no matter how much hard you try… “Loneliness indeed is never more cruel than when it is felt in close propinquity with someone who has ceased to communicate”…Germain Greer is right…

Sometimes starting over becomes far more difficult than starting from scratch…a happy ending not always means ending up with the one you love..may be its just you..you on your own…picking up those bits and pieces..and starting over once again…. As another year fades away… I just wish that everyone out there get what they genuinely wish for..and what they truly deserve… let your serene divine love create that magical illusion of not being alone in your lives for now and for all the years to come….

“'You'll get over it...' It's the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life for ever. You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not erased by anyone but death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit. Why would I want them to?”

Desert rain...!!!!!

2011-12-07T17:27:00.003+05:30

Winter in this desert city is definitely having its effect on me… right now …looking outside my window pane , watching the dark clouds ready to pour out those life giving drops of rain any second… got reminded of this unbelievable composition by ARR, rendered brilliantly by Sadhana Sargam… ‘Naina neer bahaye’ … from the well acclaimed movie.. ‘Water’ . Can relate completely to Tagore’s mood when he penned “Clouds come floating into my life…no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky…”

Love! That beautiful magnificient emotion that we can try to define time and again… and every time come up with a whole new perspective…the sense of belonging…the undenyable sense of longing that comes along with it….there is never a state like..I have enough of love in my life…we always long for a little more of it…perhaps the only thing in this world everyone would be greedy of…I feel we all learn to love not when you find out what makes the other person laugh.. but when you find out what makes the one you love shed a tear…

The sight of rain… always makes me experience a whole lot of emotions.. helps me cleanse out a lot of stain and scars that I carry along most often…when mind and soul undergoes ‘C’atharsis…emotional cleansing like they say… love is one such divine emotion that oozes out life into the earlier drained out lifeless soul…that one emotion which has you and me mystified forever…

This track amazingly captures the intensity of pain that love quite often brings along..Like the poet who said “Let your tears come..let them water your soul…”Life throws in a lot of surprises .. it is when you feel that now on..am going to be in a particular way that a sudden change of season happens..making you fall in and out of love every now and then..when you cling on to that one ray of hope and breathe life..Many a time it happens that your tears fall endlessly for a person who never really was yours.. when you miss someone whom you were never really with..still you love..hopelessly..unconditionally…with all your heart..and let your silence do all the talking…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwU0PuFIUP8

‘Naina neer bahaye’ is one haunting melody which will make you experience the pain of seperation.. this mighty impressive track will make you yearn for that bit more of love.. make you long for someone… and live on..

“When love beckons to you, follow him,Though his ways are hard and steep…And when his wings enfold you yield to him..Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you…And when he speaks to you believe in him.. To know the pain of too much tenderness…To be wounded by your own understanding of love;And to bleed willingly and joyfully…To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving”

PS : This post goes out for the one who poured that divine love into my life…

Life....a different take!!!!

2011-10-18T22:14:00.011+05:30

Happened to watch this amazing movie ' Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara' and had quite a few moments of realisation as the movie was progressing. It was one such experience where you experience change as the situations in the movie change...Had to write about it... just could not stop myself from this post...like how one character in the movie says.. 'I hate regrets' too :)

I have often felt that life as it is the most taken for granted thing in this world... we always tend to take this beautiful irreplaceable gift that we have totally for granted..trying to chase a lot of things that are actually just not worth it...life indeed is what happens to you when you are trying to figure out ways of pulling through it..

Totally fell in love with this track..the very first time I heard it... its sad that I did miss out on a lot of songs like this in the break that I had in life.. a while ago... but again..like the good old saying goes... better late than never... :) 'Der lagi lekin' is a soothing melody which will hit your senses hard and make you experience a wide range of emotions as you listen to it..Shankar Mahadevan has made use of his magical voice to its best... this one song will definitely make you pause for a while and think ...about life as such..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=jDZR-UcQXmQ#!

There comes a point in life when you learn to go with the flow...without getting lost... without falling down... when you start viewing things through a totally new perspective..it happens with you..it happens with me...when you know what 'living' actually means... when you stop complaining about those things which you don't have.. when you stop shedding tears that will never give you any answers...when you realise why some things are the way they are...when you know where you are going wrong...when you just embrace life just the way it is.. and accept everything in it gracefully... both the chaff and grain...life in its totality...

Its so true that many of us keep recycling our past and refuse to move on..we all need that one push to get going... to stop worrying about what is going to happen tomorrow and instead..take some time out to live our 'today' to its fullest potential..let's not rush through those moments to which we need to pay a lot of attention to..coz like they say..'in just two days..the tomorrow you are worried about..will be your yesterday'.. so..its time to let go... and make each day count...because we deserve a lot better :) some sadness..some sunshine..its all part of the game..treat every second like a new season..and let life go on with its tides...

"Dilon me tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho..to zinda ho tum..

Nazar me khwabon ki bijliyaan leke chal rahe ho..to zinda ho tum..

Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise aazaad rehna seekho..

Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron me behna seekho..

Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahen..

Har ek pal ek naya sama dekhe ye nigahen..

Jo apne aankhon me hairaniyaan leke chal rahe ho..to zinda ho tum..

Dilon me tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho..to zinda ho tum.. "

"It is my life..it is my one time to be me...I want to experience every single thing in it..give it all I have got...love it with a passion.. because life truly does give back..many times over... what you put into it..."

Serene shades of love..!!!!!

2011-08-12T14:22:00.002+05:30

I have always been fond of writing letters… long and small..letters of all kinds used to amuse me.. brighten up my days… used to insist to my people that they write to me… even if a small post card. I feel a handwritten note makes a lot of difference…its much more personal…direct.. and so close to life.. Someone so well said it “What a lot we lost when we stopped writing letters. You can't reread a phone call.”

Watched this movie ‘Welcome to Sajjanpur’ just for my love of letters… to see the protagonist who writes letters and lives his dreams through them… The magical track’ Ek meetha marz dene’ caught my attention the very first time I listened to it. Its been a while and I had almost forgotten about it…(Thanks to my red bull for the timely reminder about this and a lot of other things )

The song magically captures the purest form of love… love that is so divine..serene…and magical… where you love unconditionally… where you have the willingness to lose yourself in love expecting nothing in return..… you just let your mind wander in the lows and highs of the fabulous emotion with no tags attached… when you know it is not always ‘and they lived happily ever after’ and yet let love make its way into your soul..this track reminds me time and again… simple things are most often the most beautiful things…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRG1lQFKahc

Sometimes you love a person not only for what they are..but also for what you become loving them.. when you discover the best part of you in the other..Like the saying goes "Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again." I admire the serene assurance love brings along with it always..

Can’t agree more to the poet who said“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day…”

“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality…and groundless hope ..like unconditional love..is the only thing worth having…”

Sometimes you wish..you could...!!!!!

2011-06-23T19:02:00.005+05:30

Sometimes in life you just start wishing ‘if at all I could…’be it be going back and correcting few mess ups… or bringing back the ones whom inevitable took away from us… or changing few things you had decided earlier..or just be with someone whom you were always longing to be with for the rest of your life…I hate mush..but yes life takes its twists and turns making you fall in and out of love…of all kinds…

Have been hooked on to this one song from the movie’Lamhaa’ like crazy. One amazing composition with fabulous lyrics so close to life… intense… soulful..and deep…. That’s the song ‘Madhno’ for you!it penetrates straight through your heart and touches your soul like a gentle breeze .. a careless whisper…Kshitij and Chinmayi have rendered the song so beautifully..it is one fab experience you would not want to miss out on…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tauxc47--Xo&feature=player_embedded#at=337

It happens quite often that you believe something to be ‘love’ and then feel lost one day.. when love actually makes its entry..it is true that only when you are lost can love find itself in you without losing its way..someone so well said it. It happens many a time that life showers you with all the things that you have always longed for… and you are not in a state to accept it with arms wide open… some things and people happen to you late..its when you let go…. Again I believe we can’t lose anything that we never can have….yet again..its a beautiful feeling to love unconditionally without having any expectations..you just love..and don’t care about the rest…when u let love have no fixed returns…

That’s when in the middle of an ordinary life… love starts giving you a fairy tale..like someone once told me… you can go on wishing…anything that you long for… but at the end of it all get back to reality and start living it for others…sometimes we refuse to accept that things would have been better otherwise… but we can be either happy that it happened or upset that why it happened so late… but being in love itself is utmost fulfillment..you feel complete..just the way you have always wanted to be..The song beautifully captures these emotions…

We are all prisoners in the glass house of dreams… of time.. of the moments that passed by..where you cannot travel back and change a few things..may be its not meant to be..but the very thought that it could have happened makes you content.. just knowing that you have something and someone to look forward to..whenever life gives you hard knocks… when ever reality bites..literally..its ok to believe when someone tells you that ‘I can bring the horizon for you..’..its totally fine to start believing in rebirths.. its ok to wish to be a shadow that never leaves..coz its all about love..and for those who believe no proof is needed… How I wish I could… ?!

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone..but I can tell you what it is for me..just so you know..there is a space in my soul only you can fill..just so you know.. I loved you then.. I guess I always will…”

Shooting stars…!!!!

2011-05-13T22:24:00.003+05:30

As a child I have always believed in the magic of shooting stars… that if you make a wish when it falls it will come true… through out my growing up years and even today I secretly believe in that …and sometimes wish to be like a shooting star.. Like the poet who said.. “I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps "Oh look at that!" Then- whoosh, and I'm gone...and they'll never see anything like it ever again... and they won't be able to forget me ever.”

It happens some times that you feel deserted of all your hopes and dreams… you feel deprived of a gentle touch.. a soothing word that will set things alright…!!Loneliness then starts to cast a shadow in your life like an empty sky at night.. Sometimes things change and they are never the same again…all of a sudden you feel like a kid who has lost its way…that is the way with life..life moves on..change indeed is the only thing that is constant…

That is when you begin to long for that one star of hope somewhere in the corner… that one ray of hope which will make you start believing in your dreams once again..Where you start collecting those bits and pieces of your dreams and start living yet again…. Life then looks like a fairy tale…no matter how gloomy the day might be..you still find fresh blossoms all around..no matter how lost you feel..you still feel secure that someone is going to show you the way…no matter how low you feel..you just know that someone is going to life up your spirits…by just being there…

‘Iktara’ from the movie’ Wake up Sid’ has been a favourite like forever… the song beautifully captures the emotion where you realize the presence of that one star of hope in your life… which makes you move on.. and achieve that what you dream of..Kavitha Seth’s voice is magical…Amit Trivedi is a fabulous musician who has always brought along with him tons of surprises..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyauNfiMh7E

Jim Morrison, an American poet once said“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act-” “People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. Pain is meant to wake us up. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting the world destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to be yourself.” The song makes you realize this fact..Let’s all long for that one star of hope in our lives..let’s not stop believing in ourselves…let’s not give up..

PS: This post is dedicated to my shooting star who fell in my life as a surprise..the one who has promised to be my red bull for life :)

“For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.”

Life..love...and such ...!!!!

2011-03-29T22:01:00.009+05:30

Some genres of music straight away penetrate your heart and touch your soul... Sufi is one such amazing genre that will make you wander in the highs and lows of the tunes and haunt you through days and nights...Rekha Bhardwaj, the stunningly brilliant singer with an unique voice has so well captured the haunting melancholy of Sufi music in her song 'Tere Ishq mein'

This one song has been there for years now and still feels so fresh and alive..I feel it is mainly coz of the beautiful emotion that it has captured so fabulously ...!The entire listening experience is so mesmerizing..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vh79HzXqplo

'Love' is that one thing which we can try to define forever and find a new meaning every time you try.. the shades of emotions that it is comprised of are much more than words can ever say...there is always a touch of yearning..you feel incomplete in the absence of the other..Someone once beautifully coined.."Fence me in...the world is too big out there and I don't like it without you.."'Tere Ishq mein' will make you experience love of all kinds... love where you want to lose yourself coz of separation.. the kind of separation the 'inevitable' brings in... the loneliness that gulps you down slowly in someone's absence.... the longing..the sense of belonging and such!!

I have always believed that 'You never leave someone behind...you always take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind..'To long for something..it is an amazing feeling..you can never get enough of it... He who said it was so right..."I didn't ask for it to be over..for again I never asked for it to begin..and yes that is way it is with life...as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance and even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets..."

Watching someone walk out of life should never make us cynical..."If the people we love are stolen from us , the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them.."

"You can shed tears that someone is gone..

or you can smile because they lived..

Your heart can be empty coz you can't see that someone..

or you can be full of the love you shared..

You can cry and close your mind..

be empty and turn your back..

or you can do what they would want..

smile..open your eyes..love..and go on..!!!!

Some New Year thoughts..!!!!!

2010-12-31T13:05:00.002+05:30

New year always makes me feel so positive.. so much alive and kicking….it makes me believe that there is a new day awaiting me… a new year of hope… another year to live…to love ..laugh and give…to live each day with zest and try to be the best I can be..

Sometimes we all need that push to get it all right.. and to start it all over again… I feel we get to view things differently when we look into our own ways of dealing with things… the letter not written…those words not said…those few steps not taken … I always feel this is the time to right some wrongs…

Its never too late to say the magic word that sets things right instantly… specially to the ones whom we know we can’t do without.. the ones who are the reason for our existence… its never too late to say ‘ am sorry’…

This one song from the amazing Tamil movie ‘ Vinnai Thaandi Varuvaaya’ captures the emotion in an amazing way of its own.. it portrays those shades of love where you give in totally into each other without any inhibitions.. where there is no hesitance to say that I was wrong….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKcIuofZ3dU&feature

I have always continued to do what I have learned years ago..to forgive myself too and not just forgive others… for I feel its important for every human being should forgive one self as we live..coz we are bound to make mistakes at some stage… but once we realize that we have wronged… just forgive and say “if I had known better…I would have done better…”

There is no better time to make things better..to know better …to love a little more and to hate a little less… Wishing you all a very happy and prosperous new year… Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it all right...

“You may be sorry that you spoke, sorry you stayed or went, sorry you won or lost, sorry so much was spent. But as you go through life, you'll find - you're never sorry you were kind…”

An ode to a divine voice!!!!!!

2010-09-30T17:35:00.006+05:30

Sometimes you realize how much a person meant to you or has influenced you after they leave… one such thing happened when I heard about the sad demise of Swarnalatha.. one unique singer with divine magic in her voice…one amazingly brilliant singer who made every song of hers unforgettable with her golden touch.. undoubtedly an irreplaceable loss to the world of music!

Have been reading a lot of write ups about her life that was spent in silence.. giving herself totally into music..staying away from all the glitz and glamour…could not help but write about that one song which has been a favourite ever since I heard it first… one song which got her many accolades ..

‘Poraale ponnuthaayi’ from the Tamil movie ‘Karuthamma’which got her the National award for the best playback singer and a lot of other recognitions..composed by the Mozart of South ARR himself.. she has remained a favourite of musicians like him… best of her songs were for ARR and Raja sir..though not a million songs… the handful of songs that she rendered her voice for are for sure going to make her soul alive for the years to come.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IH0UNGxLF88

People may fade away..but the way they made you feel stays forever ..Swarnalatha was an amazing find... she will live forever through her marvelous renditions....the reality of separation then starts fading away like the mist on the window pane..music is without a doubt what feelings sound like... like how someone once said.."Music speaks what cannot be expressed..it soothes the mind and gives it rest...heals the heart and makes it whole... music flows from heaven to the soul..."can't get more real than this...

"We are all broken and wounded in this world..some choose to grow strong at the broken places..eventually we will come to know that music heals everything..and music is all there is... "

One of its kind..!!!!

2010-06-24T20:41:00.002+05:30

Finally I am out of that 'hibernation' mode.. sometimes you just don't get into the right kind of mood to scribble your thoughts.. but this time around.. the hiatus was bit too long... I missed this space.. missed all those interactions too... my search for a song finally got me to one track from the movie ‘Supari’ the only place actually I actually liked Uday Chopra…

Some songs we get addicted to.. this one track I had in my i-pod for ages and finally had to delete it one day because the addiction was getting too much :) there is this peculiar kind of pain in this soulful track that will haunt you for a long time... "Tujhe chand chahiye" from the movie 'Supari' is one of the finest compositions by the fantabulous duo Vishal-Sekhar....the movie was dismissed badly by the audiences... but am sure even this track at least a few of you would have missed out on hearing too....here is it for those who have not..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQxLXcaIN2I&feature

Love ..!! that magical emotion which always has everyone mystified since ages…that beautiful bond that brings the world together..one amazing experience that will make us totally different people..when we start feeling that feel good pain.. the pain of all those unsaid words…when we find our soul in the other.. when we find the answers to all those million questions in the eyes of the one you love… when you feel there is nothing impossible..unachievable.. !! This passionate face of love is captured well in this track…where nothing else matters…

Like Gibran once said.. “To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night….To know the pain of too much tenderness…To be wounded by your own understanding of love..And to bleed willingly and joyfully…To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving…”this is what love does to you and me..so amazingly true…!!

When in love it always feels nothing is enough..there is this constant yearning which is like a flame that kindles the fire from within..where you let yourself melt in the sunshine of love..Sometimes I feel we are all prisoners in the crystal house of our dreams and hopes..The kind of love the song depicts conquers all the barriers in the world.. where you are all set to achieve the unachievable…Something in this song will ask you to live each day with zest and give yourself into love…and to keep the spark of longing within..

“I don’t want to live!I want to love first and live incidentally..and when we are living..right in the middle of an ordinary life..love gives us a fairy tale..”

Blissful whiff of breeze!!!!

2010-05-01T13:37:00.004+05:30

Some songs get into your mind and gently touch your soul for the very simplicity and the genuine nature of the tune. One such song that I have been waiting for is finally out… ‘Kannolam’ from the much awaited Malayalam movie ‘Plus 2’ carries that whiff of fresh air.. that gentle breeze that will sooth our mind… like how Da Vinci said once.. “ Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication” and I truly feel that simplest things are most often the truest. ‘Kannolam’ carries within that mesmerizing touch of a soulful melody which am sure will slowly but surely get into every music lover’s mind space.

At a time when movies are plentiful and songs are numerous its very tough to find your space in the magical world of silver screen and Manu Ramesan, the creator of this track is certainly going to make it big there.. this is just an indication for the fab journey awaiting him over the years..a day when I can take credit of being one of his early admirers.. Manu is a promising music composer and has done a fab job in his first movie in Malayalam.. creating an identity of his own.. growing beyond the level of being the talented son of an amazingly gifted lyricist Sri S Ramesan Nair..it must be in his genes I say : )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gTEWEo2IopY&NR=1

Each of us pass through that phase where you begin to understand the intensity the beautiful emotion called love.. those growing up years.. where you have not completely lost the child in you.. but you are on the verge of coming out of your cocoon… to be in a world of a whole new emotions and relationships.. ‘Plus 2’ is a movie that features a bunch of school students and the various shades of their lives..the ‘love’ here then of course is not the usual kind.. it is as pure as the dew drops.. something as serene as the buds of flowers yet to bloom.. gentle.. soft.. divine..this wonderful characteristics are brilliantly captured in the track which is so rejuvenating… “Simplicity is the final achievement. After one has played a vast quantity of notes and more notes, it is simplicity that emerges as the crowning reward of art.”I completely agree to this…

We all sometimes sit and look back to those years of innocence where we believed in that link between angels and men.. believed in being loved.. believed in belief itself …this one track will take you through the memory lane and make you experience all that you used to experience during those wonder years where the painful realities of this unforgiving world of ‘now’ was nowhere in your sight. Someone rightly coined this once “The magic of first love is our ignorance that it will never end..”that is the very beauty of this tender emotion. We all fall in and out of love many times during the course of a lifetime, but the first rush of love always holds a unique place . It’s novelty, like the first drops of dew on an untouched leaf just has some divinity attached to it…

Our mind is a place where we live our dreams.. it is fragile yet wonderfully resilient..love yet again is nothing but the discovery of our self in someone else..

“Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving…”

PS: Manu, you are an amazingly talented musician and a much more amazing friend.. someone who has a friend like you can never be alone.. stay blessed..keep composing..keep amazing us!!!!!

Colours of my sunset sky!!!

2010-04-29T02:26:00.004+05:30

Our mind is an enigma.. a mysterious nest of a whole sea of emotions. All those emotions which make us fall in love love…laugh.. shed tears..smile and live. Sometimes.. how much ever you try to resist the mesmerizing emotion called ‘love’ it just takes you in to its unknown depths and make you experience a zillion things…One song that stunningly captures this beautiful ‘helplessness’ of mind is ‘Sonnalum kelpathille’ from the Tamil movie, ‘Kadhal virus’. The movie sadly didn’t make it big.. but the amazing sound tracks still remain a favourite of many music lovers. None other than the musical maestro ARR can come up with spellbinding tunes like this every time he creates music..

This is one thing about the musical genius ARR.. he springs out fabulous surprises each time when you need them the most. Each track in the movie has its own uniqueness and the album was undoubtedly a trend setter in Tamil industry. In the classy ARR way.. he has brought together a talented bunch of singers to make the album as stunning as it can get. Unnikrishnan and Harini are at their best in the song which brilliantly captures the varying shades of love.. that yearning for a new sunrise every time the sun fades away in the darkness of each night…that very helplessness that makes you dream with your eyes wide open…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Pv1hNJoqus

Someone rightly said once… “Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings.. always darker.. emptier and simpler..” The sound track breaks all the conventions and introduces a contemporary rejuvenating feeling which comes as a relief every time you need that ‘come back’ to the amazing world. One track which talks about the amazing thing called hope… hope that tells you that..all that we are takes birth with our thoughts..with our thoughts.. we make our world..

A person in love is like a river flowing to merge into the sea.. in the end.. all things merge into one and it flows..In love, there are no distinctions..no differences.. when in love all we need that one star in our skies to dream our dream every day…resistance to obedience sometimes becomes the beauty of love..where you break through all barriers..and reach out for that horizon..

It is true that ‘ we cannot appreciate the beauty of sunrise unless we have waited in darkness.’…but again at sunrise some of us fight to stay awake.. just to pass through that magical journey of our dream yet again..there is always that longing to escape from the live we live while we are awake… to just lose ourselves in the blissful emotion..

“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now… and a river runs through it”

PS: Angel.. you are a stunningly brilliant photographer :) serenity will endorse your pics starting this post :) cudnt find a better pic :)

Beyond the horizon...!!!!

2010-03-28T00:03:00.009+05:30

Was watching this Malayalam movie 'Sukrutham' after long and it kinda shook my senses off very badly... sometimes hard realities of life uproot us totally and you try to find a base to your existence.. The movie talks about Ravi Shanker who miraculously escapes from the deadly arms of cancer with his dedication and perseverance .. gets back to life and realises that even though he has come back.. everyone else has moved on.. the movie ends on a negative note where he crushes his new life.. and puts an end to his terrifying loneliness... it really moved me..made me realise the shallowness of life without someone around you... the void which will form in the absence of a dream in our lives...

We all cherish and nurture some dream or the other at each phase of life. Some of us leave everything and everyone behind chasing that dream of ours.. and in the end get back to where we belong realising that what we were looking for all this while was actually within us... 'Sapnon se bhare naina' from the fab movie ' Luck by chance' amazingly captures this reality through its mesmerizing tune and the so close to life lyrics. This one song is one of the million reasons I have immense respect and admiration for Shanker Mahadevan, the musical maestro! Javed Akthar saab belongs to a divine league altogether..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njxeRQzPEOw

'Sapnon se bhare naina' depicts the chase in all of our lives.. the chase that at times leaves us in a huge void but some other time takes us beyond the horizon of our make believe world..Even though the movie didn't do that well as expected this one song am sure got all the desired and deserved attention..one toast to all the aspiring talents in the wonder industry of movies. Someone rightly said once..."Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not. We must remember that what you now have was once among the things that you only wished for.."The journey continues forever..we still go on thinking our destination has not been reached and forget to 'live' the life that we have been gifted with..it is by all means the journey that matters not the destination.

We have to always know that what is not started today is never finished tomorrow...Wordsworth once said "As high as we have mounted in delight..In our dejection do we sink as low.."Let's not let this happen... we should maintain the rhythm of life during highs and lows..and its true that what we dream of will be ours..Sometimes we know the path..but dont know where it will lead..not knowing where we will end up should inspire us to trod the less chosen path..There is no better time to be happy and content than now..so make happiness a journey life life and not a destination..Let our dream be like the sun..as we tred towards it... let it cast the shadow of our burden behind..

"Only as high as I can reach can I grow, only as far I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be..Now, bring me that horizon!!!"

PS: 'Serenity' , my mindchild completes 2 years today. Just wanted to say a note of heartfelt gratitude for all of you out there for watering the seeds of my thoughts through your constant feedback... Now on 'serenity' will also hold an 'anti music piracy' badge..stay blessed!

Till we meet again...!!!!!

2010-03-13T19:59:00.008+05:30

I have always felt that love is something which you can never define… love of all kinds… the whole sea of emotions that it brings along with it… is way beyond our understanding most of the time…specially the shadow of loneliness that it carries within…the kind of loneliness seperation brings into our lives…one amazing song that depicts this feel good pain of the most beautiful kind is ‘ Abhi na jao chod kar’’ , a brillaintly amazing track from the Dev Anand starrer movie which released in 1961….The song has been around for a long time… but the intensity of the kind of pain it depicts become clearer each time you listen to it… a must listen… one song you will wish never ended…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTum7gcQeoI

It goes through a lot of highs and lows and the very catchy composition adds to the mesmerizing listening experience.The soulful tone is very catchy and it leaves a mark in your mind for ages… Rafi Saab is one amazing singer.. who has been amazing me ever since I heard him first… one fab singer who gave us a whole lot of songs to cherish and admire… Happened to hear this version from a talented singer and loved it to the core…‘Abhi na jao chod kar’ captures the winter of love in a heart warming way… It is true that seperation for love is like wind for fire… it lights up the flames if the fire is intense… and just sweeps away the shallow sparks…

Sometimes in life everything seems like nothing…we always yearn for a little more time… some more attention.. a bit more of love… what ever we get seems just not enough…but that’s the way of love…where reason just can’t take a lead …where your emotions take the better of you and you just let yourself get lost in that sea of emotions…It usally happens in relationships… of all kinds…we always look for something more… that desire is always there unsettled..but if we look at it ina different perspective that is the very beauty of the beautiful emotion called love…

Time is never long when in love… there is always a touch of yearning…which is like a gentle breeze that revitalises your soul..but I feel that yearning should never lead to discontent.. you are warm enough but still you tend to freeze.. you are fed enough but still you let hunger haunt you…we should all be able to strike a fair balance and experience the blissful emotion…by not letting our yearning wander into new unknown fields where you get lost and deserted…Totally agree to the person who said.. “Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists... When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence….”

Incompleteness in absence is so beautifully captured in the song which will stay as a favourite for the years to come…

“ I have found the paradox..that if you love until it hurts…there can be no more hurt..but only more love…”

Faded colours!!!

2010-02-06T21:37:00.007+05:30

Memories of a very dear friend whom I lost couple of years back made me write this post. He was the darling of everyone.. quiet... softspoken and amazingly brilliant... Since there were so many students we had in our school with his name.. us friends used to always refer to him as 'paavam'Sandeep. Yes thats what he was... in every way... we never met for like years after school till we once bumped into each other at an inter college fest... We had a thousand things to talk about.. and yeah I was so very happy for having met him... Again life took us in different directions and we never actually met...but we had a common link who kept us updated...

One of those mornings at work.. I read this news about a bike accident... but least did I think that it could be someone whom I know who was swept away from this wonder world...one hard knock that was... one hard knock which kept reminding me never to take things or people for granted... sometimes when knowingly or unknowingly..you tend to take someone for granted... some kind of strange assurance that he/she is going to be there always with you.. so why make an extra effort..to stay in touch.. to call once in a while to ask how things are.. to share a smile..no.. instead we let things be.. then one day comes when reality bites and you know that you can never have them back in your life again...not even for a single moment.. they are gone once and for all.. and I have always felt that it is the most painful reality of life...that nothing is forever.. its what we want to be... 'forever'is just as long as you are there...

This one realisation I feel.. many of us need... which will hold us back before hurting someone else.. before saying things which you know you can never take back.. for not saying things which are meant to be said... again its about saying and doing things at the right time.. when its required...not when the moment has passed by... and your words and deeds just dont make a difference... Its true with every relationship.... relationship with family.. friends... colleagues... or even mere 'hi-bye' friends...

'Vida parayuka aano'' from the Malayalam movie Big B kind of absorbs the pain of seperation...from loved ones... a haunting track it has always been a favourite...This one post and the song specially I am dedicating to my dear friend... and his extremely sweet mom who made it to the biggest occasion of my life despite knowing that..coming there is just going to take her back to old days and make her miss him even more... But I know for a fact that.. I will be there in which ever way I can.. if that brings some smiles in their lives again...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-luwCHXknxw&feature

Life (as I have written a million times before this...)happens only once...so live each and every moment to the fullest... not just breathe and exist but live with zest and vigour...

"It's a weird feeling.. you know the end of something great is coming..but you want to hold on..just for one more second..so that it can hurt a little more...

Fleeting moments...!!!!!!

2010-01-23T16:45:00.006+05:30

Sometimes you get this sudden reality check ... about the very fleeting nature of the journey called life.. I had one such hard knock while flipping through the pages of a magazine... this city of dreams with its streets of gold..where I have moved into has transformed me a lot I think :) was reading this article written by Anoop Menon, an upcoming actor in Malayalam movies where he had written about a girl who came into his life like a flash of lightning and just vanished in the engulfing darkness of life... a girl who knew that her time here was limited... who knew that each second lost is never going to come back... but stood up bravely and decided not to give up.. and to live her life to the fullest...

I have always felt that Cancer is slow poison.. it grasps you when you least expect it and engulf you totally in it... takes away your dreams and the very right to live..where you loose yourself in the valley of its insensitivity... I so wish there was something divine and miraculous which could eradicate this and all other incurable diseases from the face of earth...I wish...

This one song somehow came into my mind when I was thinking about that girl and a million others like her.. who were nipped in bud...who never could live their life according to their terms..moments like this get you out of all the materialistc thoughts where you just want to live ...every single second as if there was no tomorrow..take some time out to be with the ones whom you care about... to tell them that you care... to feel the rain... just walk by the side of a lake.. sit by and relax... make life worthliving.. for as always we must realise that this moment is the only thing that we have which is certain.. there is nothing that can empower destiny..

'Kal rahe ya na rahe' is one fantabulous song which earned more brownie points for my favourite singer KK.. he has just done a fab job with the very distinct so close to life rendition that will get your eyes moist every time you listen to it.. I have been listening to this one track for like ages...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffDpXIa_RCA

Lets not wait for one more day to start it afresh.. for life happens only once.. lets not wait one more day to say and show that we care..coz we dont know what the next days sun rise will have for us in its golden rays..let us not do or say anything which will make us feel that ''Í should have done something about it then...''so go for it this moment...dont keep it for another day...if you feel you can make a difference in someone's life do something about it when you can... so that life becomes a beautiful experience...when today's sun is all set to sink into the silence of another night.. I have decided to make a diference.. and even if the night darkens with an upcoming strom..I would still stand..and keep my eyes wide open to see the wonders of sunrise.. of snow fall.. of the sea..of the rain.. and feel the breathtaking music of love...hoping and dreaming of another sunrise.. which will hold a whole lot of promises and dreams..

"I trust my soul..my goal is just to live and not just exist..there is only now..there is only here.so give into love...no other path..no other way...no day but today..."

Old wine, but a much more perfect bottle!!

2009-12-06T23:28:00.011+05:30

No intentions to confuse with that ‘off the track’ title… am just talking about the new version of ‘Khamaj’ by Shafqat I happened to hear recently.. was breathing ‘Fuzon’ all this while ever since I heard them first.. my kid bro.. ‘Vaava’ sent me this link recently saying “I know its your fav and I knew you would love this. My wedding gift for u…” I loved the new version then and there…just hopelessly fell in love with the song and my life all over again… and am feeling fab.. (Thanks a zillion vaave…you are the best brother anyone can ever have.. thanks for being there through ways big and small..stay blessed )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jLoPvdYV4E&feature

‘Mora Saiyyan’ is an unbelievably soul stirring fab composition and Shafqat is a divine talent.. I so wish once before I get done with my time here.. once to hear him live.. I deeply miss him being a part of ‘Fuzon’ but yes change is the only thing that is constant as they say. But as we go on with the change… we still perceive the same old things differently.. the same old magnifying lens that views other people’s perspectives.. the very soulful song minus the equally intense BGM..this was such a fantabulous surprise…could not help but write about it… it was just too good to be taken lightly : ) It is true that ‘Music and silence combine so well.. coz music is done with silence and silence is so full of music..’

I am in love with this brand new version..this new version of love.. this new version of life..this new version that amazingly depicts the pain of longing.. Sometimes it is good to fit yourself into the much needed ‘you’ as I have always felt ‘ I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but I almost always end up where I need to be.. ”But at the end of it all I too have realized that “Now I know exactly where I am going and I just don’t want to go anywhere else.” this certainty of life is something everyone long for.. once you attain that you get to understand the trivialities of many other things which you once felt were the end of the world.. nothing in life happens by chance.. you reach where you are meant to be.. and again..it will all be worth the wait : )

Music gives you that high at times.. When we long for a million things.. long to be with someone..long to make our dreams real.. long to love..live..and be content.. this one song for sure will take you places..pull you out of the insensitivities of the ‘practical’ world and make you dive deep into the sea of emotions.. that is ‘Khamaj’ for you.. stunningly brilliant…soothing and soul stirring as ever.. Life emerges yet again..how much ever frozen your soul might get at times :)

"Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence.. and I learn, whatever state I may be in, there in to be content.."

Back to where you belong... !!!!

2009-12-01T18:50:00.004+05:30

Life teaches you some fabulous lessons at times... those moments which will help you view things and people with a fresh perspective a brand new outlook..all those same old things and people seem very different to you then..helps you mould a new outlook about things in general and bring back that zest to live ...love...let love be...Life actually then goes in circles..and starts again from where you thought was the end.. that fab journey through the once trodden path...

Those moments when you start yearning for that safety blanket...the security of a relationship..when you want to view things differently and come out as a new individual altogether after the catharsis... this particular song from the Tamil movie "Paarthale Paravasam" conveys this looking back and rectification amazingly well.."Azhage sukhama" is an unbelievably soulful song..Srinivas Sir and Sadhana Sargham have just done 110% justice to this marvellous composition by ARR.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebLeDwkwAhw&feature

Sometimes it so happens that you realise what you thought was the right choice you made..the right decision you took...needs to be relooked into..but you hesitate to accept it and withdraw into the shell of indifference... but a moment comes when you crave to come out of it to the world of emotions..the much beautiful world which will make you laugh..cry..love..and live..that moment when you start 'living' and not 'existing'... 'Azhage sukhama' tells you about that much needed push which we all must have in life... to refine the person in you ..into a much more accommodating..and understanding individual..

One song which will let you go back to where you belong.. and realise the worth of the ones you left somewhere in your journey of life… that ‘U’ turn to the right destination.. when you find your safest corner in this unforgiving world..when you start living your life afresh, safe in the shadow of your loved ones..and feel secured… It is never too late to correct things.. to say that you care..to show that you love..every moment is an opportunity..make the most of it…never keep it till tomorrow to convey what you feel… a feeling when eyes will be yours and dreams will that be of your loved ones’…

“Fence me in..the world is too big out here…and I don’t like it without you.. and when it gets cold in the winters of my grief..I will surrender and listen to the heat of my heart..”

For a better tomorrow..!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-24T21:29:00.011+05:30

This one song had taken back seat for a long time. Thanks to Prashanth,my very good friend for reminding me of this one yet again..and for telling me to look beyond the reasons attached to the temporary detachment I had..:) thanks a ton! One song which makes me experience a lot of beautiful emotions every time I listen to it..one song which made me a much more intense worshipper of the legend ARR ..one song which is synonymous to peace...that is 'Vellai pookkal' from the Tamil movie 'Kannathil Muthamittal'. Maniratnam sir's stunningly brilliant movie which will make you experience love..pain..the joy or parenting..the bliss of motherhood..a million such fab emotions. Music that was made so haunting and divine..music that is so close to reality..music that is a journey between reality and dreams..

The album had one amazing bunch of singers rendering their voices to it making it one stupendous piece of art..It is one song you can listen to through out the day and night..one song you will wish never ended..one song which never left me..no matter how many other songs I heard after it was composed..specially the lyrics of the song so apt and so intense..it rightly captured all the emotions the song wanted to convey..Vairamuthu is one fantabulous lyricist who gave soul to this amazing composition.. a magical tune from the magical composer..one song where all the barriers of language and culture will vanish and where just music will reign..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knubvDUdurM

One song that is so full of hope..positive vibes..a song that will give new life to your dream of a new sunrise amidst all the engulfing darkness..It is true that "Music creates order out of chaos..for melody imposes continuity upon the disjointed.. and rhythm imposes unanimity upon the divergent.."It is absolutely true that we cannot appreciate the miracle of a sunrise unless we have waited in darkness..'Rahman's haunting voice will bind you to the soul of the song and will take you to the unknown heights and depths of music..where you just let yourself free of all worries and heartaches.

Let's not give up on that hope of a better beautiful world to be in..where everyone will see the beauty of rain drops falling and feel the hustle of the gentle breeze passing through the fields cutting across all barriers..let's not stop dreaming about that much awaited tomorrow..where you will see white blossoms of that 'perfect someday'.. let's believe that this is what furthers and perseveres...

"Peace is not something you wish for..it is something you make...something you do..something you are and something you give away... there is no way to peace...peace is the way.."

Let there be light!!!!!

2009-10-16T22:36:00.011+05:30

Its diwali yet again...I love this festival of lights.. it makes me very positive...makes me believe in that much cliched saying " there is light at the end of the tunnel.." once read someone's status message on Facebook that "Due to recession the light at the end of the tunnel has been switched off... " lol! I refuse to agree :) there is always light...for the one with eyes to see it...For I totally agree with the mind which said " When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and you are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown...Faith is knowing that one of the two things will happen... There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly..."

This diwali..I just wish and hope everyone out there get the strength to persevere..be strong..and never give up..when people and situations let us down..and we are afraid of the dark..let us believe that there will always be light for to be a star we need to shine your own light...follow your own path and never be worried about the engulfing darkness...coz..it's true that darker the night..brighter the stars shine.." :) and like Paulo Coelho said.. " The darkest hour of the night came just before dawn... " so very true..

"Aashayein" from the movie 'Iqbal' is one mesmerizing ...positive song that spreads a lot of confidence around. The movie was so soul stirring and so was the music...that kept haunting me ever since I heard it first...it is all about hope.. all about keeping that light of hope alive in your mind and soul.. a song that tells you to persevere... a song that tells you to believe in yourself..let this festivities bring in a lot of cheer around.. for each one of us can stay the course...light a star.. and change the world... where ever we are... in what ever situations we are in... let there be light!!!! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOC1kBXPlCg

Something if you feel you need to achieve..something you feel you need to do..just go for it..for as I have always believed that life is what we are living this very moment..this moment is all that we have with us for sure is certain... so live in it..follow your dreams.. there is enough light in your dreams and hope which will show you the way through any darkness...

This post goes out to my personal angel :) with hallow and wings.. for making me believe that angels do exist and life aint that bad after all :) thanks for all that you have done :) through ways big and small.. and for that crash landing into my 'k' serialised life.. :) lol.. you are an amazing friend.. a wonderful human being..may your life be filled with life and happiness :) stay 'angelic' :) stay blessed

"Hope is not certainly the same thing as optimism..it is not the conviction that something will turn out well..but the certainty that something makes sense...no matter what the outcome may be..."

PS : Thanks for the pic and song 'angel'

Silence..the magic spell !!!

2009-10-09T16:06:00.008+05:30

Sometimes it feels that talking does not seem to solve much.. sometimes we speak volumes through silence.. I just had such an encounter with the eloquence of silence..and it has left my eyes moist.. we all demand some things to be said to us..most of the time.. things that 'I care'.. ' I luv'..but may be I never tried to understand the beauty of things someone can convey without uttering a word... now I know.. those gentle..subtle deeds and words..matter a lot..it is that which make life much more beautiful and worth living..

One song which comes to my mind now is 'Aahista' by Pankaj Udas...the wow song from the wow musician.. It has always remained in the list of favourites..a song so subtle and as gentle as the breeze that passes through the fields...without making the tiniest of noise.. a serene..soothing experience.. Pankaj Udas is a fab singer and a brillaint musician whom I look upto..A very old track..it still is as fresh as it can get..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qu6QVeRD5VU

The kind of love the song depicts conquers all barriers of culture and nationalities... where life is bliss.. I agree to the saying that "It is only when you have both divine grace and human endeavour that you can experience bliss.." life becomes blissful when you take that extra step to know.. to understand the language of silence..sometimes the most precious moments of your life is wrapped underneath the silence of those unsaid words.. let there be a fresh breeze of unsaid unborn words in our lives... let there be love..

Never miss that gentle wind that blows in to your life... never miss the depth of silence in others.. never let your mind get this feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention to..never let it feel that you did not experience it at all..for it is true that "it is better to know and then accept it rather than not to know and always wonder.." :) coz the most important things in life are not 'things'... so think of it..dream of it...live for it...As Gibran says.. "The reality of a person is not what he reveals to you..but what he cannot reveal..so if you would want to understand him listen not to what he says..but what he does not.. "

"Sometimes I wish that I was the weather...you would bring me up in conversation.. and when it rained.. I would be the talk of the day.."

PS: This song dedicated to the one who made me understand the magical eloquence of silence and the mesmerizing beauty of it.. :) thanks yet again.. I have found my dream!

Reason!

2009-09-24T13:42:00.005+05:30

Life gives you some reasons at times to refine yourself…change yourself a bit for the better… Life has given me one such reason to refine the person in me…to let go of all those excess baggage that I have been carrying all this while… It just is a wonderful feeling when you feel that you have lost all that you have one second and after a while you get it all back.. Whatever you have lost all this while.. it is just a fab feeling..

I listen to very few English songs. Can very well say that my knowledge about all those genres of Western music is close to zero.. but yes this one song by Hoobastank has always hit me hard.. ‘The Reason’ is an amazingly brilliant track.. and the the soul stirring lyrics just stands out. It rightly captures the ‘looking back’ that each one of us do at times..where we gauge ourselves and take those steps to bring in that much required change in us ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Q30-2QpZVc

We all wait for that one reason to start it all over again.. and when it comes along..you will just know it for yourself.. Sometimes you just feel like a stranger to your own mind. You fail to understand your own actions and words.. I have always felt that it the most saddest part of loneliness when you don’t understand yourself… but when the right time comes..you get that much needed push where you will be brought back on track and will start living your life with zest..when you start living that ‘someday’ you always have been waiting for..

Everyone has their own imperfections..but it is those small little things which make you what you are..we learn and unlearn a lot of things every day.. It is never too late to start afresh ..it is true that every new beginning starts from some other beginning’s end. But changes are always good..changes for betterment.. never say NO to them.. Never hesitate to say sorry and get it all sorted.. at the end of the day..we are all here for each other.. there is no existence all by oneself…not for long.. it is very true that we all need three things in life…something to do..something to look forward to and someone to love.. I agree totally.. If there is a reason to love..there is a reason for life beyond that as well..

Let’s make that difference today..don’t make thousand reasons to say why you cannot do something…try and get one reason why you can do something about it.. let’s not wait till tomorrow to say or show that you care..to say that ‘yes you have made a difference’ I just wish all the wonderful people out there find their ‘reason’ today… stay blessed!

PS: This post dedicated to my ‘Reason’..for bringing sunshine back into my life.. for being my safest corner in this unforgiving world.. thanks a zillion.. you are the BEST :)

“A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed...It feels an impulsion...this is the place to go now. But the sky knows the reasons and the patterns behind all clouds, and you will know it too, when you lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons.”

Ritu...change of seasons!!

2009-09-13T21:49:00.012+05:30

I was a little late in watching this brillaint piece of art by Shyamaprasad Sir.. What a miss it would have been if at all I didn't take time out to get into the change of seasons :)'Ritu' is a stunningly well made movie.. which will take you through a whole lot of emotions at one go... and take you through the intensity of relationships of all kinds...

Rahulraj has always been my favourite..but yes this one album from him has given me a million more reasons to look upto the musician in him...Never thought that one 'just another' saturday would be made something unforgettable coz of the movie and the song 'Pularumo'... Malayalam songs have not lost their charm yet... I won't agree with those who say that...recently could get my hands on the song 'Mizhithammil' from the movie 'Minnaminnikkottam' (thanks to Manu..my musician friend and an awesome human being)..Biji Bal is another wow musician.. Talking about 'Ritu'..it is all about the changing seasons of life. All those transitions captured in one frame.. subtle.. gentle.. and poetic... there is no jazz.. there is nothing loud about the movie..it is as gentle as the waves in a river... those ripples in water.. it is like holding a mirror against your life and watching it through the frame... the very reflection of the changes that every person goes through..

'Pularumo' is haunting... one song which will touch your soul and make you experience love...passion and compassion... the pain...the feeling of belonging... it is just an amazing composition..Rafeeq Ahmed is a discovery for me...he has done a fab job with lyrics.. just brilliant! Gayathri chechi and Sujith are just beyond comparison...just the right amount of emotions in the way they have rendered their voices to make the song a complete experience..soul stirring and mesmerizing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=My9R-UibZ4g&feature

Seasons do change... do we?? Well... such a loaded question to ask..I have always felt it is a wonderful transition..how we pass through each phase of life...just as the way seasons change...Sometimes...days and years passed by like a flash of lightening..yet they crawled along so slowly as I lived them..sometimes we wish somethings never changed...just to preserve them the way they are...the way they have always been..we just wish..but I feel change is always good... depending on which direction are you going..as you move on you discover your inner self... the real you...Life too follows seasonal rhythms..after every gray of winter there is a spring which showers life into the earlier frozen soul...

Like the boatman in the movie says..."This tree which came with the flow of the river from some unknown place...still sheds its leaves thinking its autumn always..." yes it is all about our perceptions... how we view things..I have always longed for a magnifying lens that can view other people's perspective :) life would have been much more simpler then :) we need to navigate the seasons of life and heart...and as Kahlil Gibran says " And you would accept the seasons of your heart just as you have always accepted that seasons pass over your fields and you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief..."

"Let seasons have no fixed returns..at noon our sudden summer burns..and sunset is all snow..."

Touch of dew!!!

2009-09-09T17:22:00.005+05:30

Some songs just make you fall in love with everything around you..you start feeling ‘well life aint bad after all’.. I am at that phase of life where I know… 'Future is not what it used to be…’ and it is a fabulous feeling..when life springs in some amazing surprises… and that all time low just gives way for some content smiles..

Some songs are like those dew drops you see in the morning..those drops that remind you of a fresh beginning… a new life… where you open your eyes to see a new sun rise..your revival.. This Malayalam song’ Pular manju pole’ from the album ‘En Jeevane’ is one such amazingly brilliant track. This particular song had caught my attention long long back.. and Sujatha’s stunning voice makes it as mesmerizing as it can get. Karthik has done 110% justice to the composition that is so very fresh and so full of life..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kuukl7r6YrU

Even though I always felt that the video could have made a little more better..the very soulful composition never let me judge the song as a whole. ‘Pular manju pole’ is a dew drop.. fresh.. lively... rejuvenating ..and reassuring…It takes you those unknown shores of life where you lose yourself to find love all over again..Like the famous Haley Bennett song..it’s your ‘way back into love..’it tells you that ‘unconditional’ love still exists and it is such a secure feeling..

The very beautiful feeling of loving someone.. feeling loved.. the feeling of longing… like Buddha once said “This life of separateness may be compared to a dream, a phantasm, a bubble, a shadow, a drop of dew, a flash of lightning.."It is an amazing feeling and this track will make you feel it all over again.. for in the dew of love..life finds its morning and is refreshed..you wake up to be in an unimagined world and its wonderful surprises..

“I must go seek some dew drops here.. And hang a pearl in every drop of tear shed..let there be love”

Rain yet again...!!!!

2009-08-20T15:56:00.008+05:30

I am smiling..refreshed.. content.. alive and kicking! Thanks to ‘ Eeram’ and the adorably brilliant songs by the stunningly talented Taman. Again thanks to my ‘Encyclopedia Musica’ for getting me to his music :) you remain my favourite of all times..

I had just known Taman as ‘Krishna’, that cuddly spoilt brat in the Tamil movie ‘Boys’ and thought that he would have given up as an actor and vanished from the scene. When his friends..’Munna, Bobgaly,and Juju made it big in movie industry. :) But here he is making his mark in the whole wide world of music. ‘Eeram’ is fresh,rejuvenating, has a tint of romance.. and will make you fall in love with life yet again..

Shankar as a film maker has always brought into limelight the best of talents and he does it again with ‘Eeram’. It will remind you of the rain. It will fall into your lives as those drops of rain.. making you let go off those sun dried days and memories.. will get you back on track where you forget that ‘wandering mode’ and get back :)Music does wonders always!And yes this album has given me two more favourites.. Ranjith and Suchitra ..they are brilliant! Viveka has done a fab job with his wow lyrics.

The 3 tracks are amazingly composed. ‘ Mazhaye Mazhaye’ …’Saaral En’ and ‘Tharai Erangiya’ make you feel like getting drenched in rain… the first rain…while you are on the move.. when the droplets of rain fall on your face and you are just stretching back and travelling down the memory lane..with a fleeting glance to the much awaited ‘tomorrow’..

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/tamil/s/movie_name.11966

One album for the keeps .. One you will never regret buying :) my guarantee!! Lol. The tracks will bring back ‘LIFE’ to your routine and let your mind feel refreshed.. I totally agree with the poet when he said “Into each life some rain must fall..”And when it is raining..just let it rain..

This desert town I live always craves for rain.. I am reminded of those summers spent in the anticipation of the rain..and in the end of the wait when I hear the rain drops fall..my heart beats faster and my breathing slows. I have always felt that the sound of rain drops is the most comforting sound ever…Rain..so beautiful and healing.. soothing and soul stirring.. so let it rain.

“I don't believe in pessimism. If something doesn't come up the way you want, forge ahead. If you think it's going to rain, it will. ..”

Children of Heaven!!!!!

2009-07-23T19:18:00.004+05:30

The title inspired from an Iranian movie which I heard is going to be made in Hindi soon by our very own Priyadarshan casting Darsheel Safari, the wonder kid from ‘Taare Zameen Par’. Was just trying to trace those faces down the memory lane. Kids have always amused me..kept my spirits alive..made me smile and made me believe that there is still some amount of goodness remaining in this unforgiving world.

I have always felt that they are God’s messengers from heaven and they try and spread his messages to all. I have been planning to adopt a lot many of them :) and the list seems to grow day by day. Children..they are divine..serene and heavenly. Some of them just get my eyes wet..every time I bump into one of those serene ones stretch their hands for those one rupee coins at traffic signals.. one of those days I decided to do my bit.. if at least one Kid could get something as precious as a safe future.. all it takes for us to compromise on some pizzas and burgers.. some cold coffees and some junk stuff.. it might really help them.

My association with CRY began then… I have never got an opportunity to see that kid who is my link with CRY.. one of those the society addresses with much insensitive terms.. I can never accommodate..The word ‘Mentally retarded’ or ‘Mentally Challenged’. It should be banned I feel..Someday I want to hold her close and tell her that she is not alone.. her dreams are dreams too..

‘Taare Zameen Par’ was one amazingly sensible and brilliant movie which dealt with a much more sensitive issue in an extremely sensible way. ‘Ishaan’ is there among us… there are a million other kids like him. Those ones who really don’t have the privilege of being born in a family that can afford to ladder them reach those stars. The shining stars of their dreams and aspirations… With an amazingly soul stirring rendition by my all time favourite Shanker Mahadevan, the title track stands out from the rest of the tracks in the album. One movie for the collection of sensible movies. Aamir. You are just brilliant and I have immense respect for your talent. This one song for all those divine ones out there.. and for all those yet to be born!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-XAVPqbrxWc

Those serene sweet little ones who are as pure as those dew drops..those adorable bundles of joy and our hope for a better tomorrow..Let’s not let their dreams perish.. let those buds bloom..let those little tiny feet pitter patter its ways into the world of dreams and promises. Let them have in them..the urge to dream..the will to succeed and unlock the door to the promised world of wonders. Like the American author Kate Douglas said once..” Every child born into the world is a new thought of God, an ever fresh and radiant possibility”… Join the journey..do your bit today.. you can give colours to some one’s sunset sky too..

“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.”

PS: Thanks 'achayaa' for that chit chat.. you gave me a thought :) stay blessed!!

Until..!!!

2009-07-01T16:56:00.001+05:30

You sometimes tend to take things totally for granted. Some things seem insignificant to you, but in real they actually turn your life around and make you realize that you should have taken a little more care… can remember a trillion such things that happened till date…Seems like today is that ‘someday’ when life till date start reflecting in front of eyes like a recap..

Never knew a cough that was bothering me for a long time would take the form of an interesting illness that will take my ‘breath’ away…literally…lol..never knew one such thing as ‘caste’ which I had only seen mentioned in my SSLC certificate will be a reason for letting go of the most priceless and precious thing of life..didn’t know that being too open and honest actually pays its price..small things do make a difference.. Sometimes one word that you really ‘care’ needs to be said at the right time. Never take that for granted...They say it’s a wonderful feeling when you lose all that you have this very moment and get them back..but to be brutally honest..it does not happen always..still you wish for it.. :) that’s the way of life

One song that reflects this emotion is ‘Kitni baatein’ from the stunningly brilliant movie ‘Lakshya’. One song that caught my attention the very first time I heard it as a caller tune in my kid bro’s phone … (Thanks Kanna for making me wait for you pick up the call…your proud sis :) lol )Still wondering how I missed it when I watched the movie!! Soothing.. soul stirring and touchy..that’s ‘Kitni baatein’ for you. The lyrics is just mesmerizing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NC8Oft5vfnw

No matter how careful you are .. at times you have this sense that you missed something ..there is this feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention . .. so listen to your mind..and just give voice to your thoughts.. don’t always hold back

I have always felt that “You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind….” Sometimes you need to learn what changes you need to make to turn your life around and then go for it.. rather than letting the life you dreamt of get washed away in the storm ..right in front of your eyes…!!!Indecision brings its own delays.. so just don’t keep it for another day… what you can do..or dream you can.. seize it this very moment..so that some days and years down the lane you don’t sit and take a sigh of regret for something you didn’t say or do..because not really all the treasures on earth can bring back one lost moment of your life.. so just go for it.. live in such a way that memories will be part of your happiness..

“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live….I find that the further I go back, the better things were, whether they happened or not..”

Longing…!!!!!

2009-06-26T20:28:00.005+05:30

To long for something… its an amazing feeling… you never get tired of doing that..I have loved this too.. have always been fond of the silence of night.. the longing it brings along.. the hopes and dreams of a new sunrise that is covered in its unknown depths…where you set your mind at ease and let it flow…

Sometimes I feel that we are all prisoners in the glass house of dreams.. from where can see sunrises and sunsets and you live in the hope of being able to get into the world outside where you have always wanted to be…I have always wished for hope to be like stars.. the darker the night..the brighter they shine..and that you should live your life to the fullest that in the end..when it’s the sunset of your life…there will be nothing left for the inevitable to steal from you..

We should keep this spark alive.. the longing to live.. to smile..to love..to be loved..One song that has been haunting me…and which is so profound in its lyrics is ‘Shauk he’ from the movie ‘Guru’. It was used as Meenu’s (Vidya Balan’s)theme music in the movie and undoubtedly remains my favourite track from the album. Kudos to Soumya Rao, the exceptionally talented singer for her exceptionally brilliant singing!!! You are just fabulous..stay blessed!Gulzar sahib’s lyrics is divine it has that heavenly touch as ever!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZeOTYd2mSaE&feature

We are all here to ‘live’..not just to ‘exist’..Like Ayn Rand once said.. “Do not let the spark in your soul perish..in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach..The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is possible, it is real..its yours….” Instead of thinking about what we are missing let’s think about what we have that others are missing...life becomes much more pleasant that way..you feel blessed

Let's long for that spark..the spark of a dream in our lives..a new hope and a new sunrise..and when todays’ sun has set to sleep in the silence of another night..let me long to keep that spark of my dream alive..and close my eyes listening to the soulful song of my hope.... I long for!!!!

“Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light, I have loved the stars too fondly ..to be fearful of the night…”

Some ‘rainy’ thoughts..!!!!

2009-06-17T19:12:00.007+05:30

Rain has always brought along with it some realizations and some memories.. It has been like that all these years. There is nothing fake about rain..it just shows things and people as they are..in their true natural self. This monsoon I got myself lucky enough to be staying at home… God’s and my own country ..lol : ) when I just looked outside my window and heard the rain my mind kept wandering looking for some answers which I know that I might never find…

As a kid I have always loved the rain…always wished that instead of raining cats and dogs..it rained pearls and crystals in everyone's lives..even now it doesn’t seem to have changed a bit. Hail stones is something which amuses me even now.. they just look amazing..from far though…still remember getting drenched in rain one day at Bangalore when I was getting back from a movie.. Hail stones were falling…and trust me it doesn’t feel so good when you are out in it.. some situations are such. You just feel that it might be so good to get there.. but yes when you actually get there…you realize that it was much better before.. things were fine as they were. This change was actually not required. But yes, another learning..another stepping stone for you…the only positive way of looking at it..

The rain, which had fallen quietly at first, is now pelting against the windowpanes, driven by a gentle wind..Sipping this piping hot tea and listening to the wonderful tunes rain is composing outside.. I am reminded of the fantabulous track by Ustad Sultan Khan..’ Kate nahin raat’. That was one ‘wow’ song which is soul stirring and will haunt you down the memory lane..Ustad has always amazed me with his unique voice and the way he creates magic with Sarangi..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7a7xrlu4kH8&feature

‘kate nahin raat’ is all about the pain of waiting.. the much clichéd..the much discussed..the much written about waiting..but there is something about the lyrics which is so close to your soul…the tune is simple yet serene..and the entire flow of the song will make you fall in love with it.. Someone said it right.. ““Waiting is a trap. There will always be reasons to wait. The truth is, there are only two things in life, reasons and results, and reasons simply don't count.”But yes feelings are not rational or logical..I love to wait : ) yet again rain just washes of my mask off ‘practicality’. The air is resonant with melody..love ..and pain....my words got their voice from the rain..

“There are stars who's light only reaches the earth long after they have fallen apart. There are people who's remembrance gives light in this world, long after they are gone..This light shines in our darkest nights on the road we must follow...and this rain keeps our soul alive..”

Conditions Apply!!!!!!

2009-06-04T22:22:00.007+05:30

Is there something called ‘Unconditional’ in reality? Quite a loaded question! Some say that groundless hope like unconditional love is the only thing worth having even when you feel the sand under your feet is getting washed away every second... May be I belong to this category.. Some times it feels like the journey through a desert where you get carried away by the non-existent notion of an oasis… the more you get close to it..the more far it seems…but still you walk..thinking..someday sooner or later you will get there… “Hope certainly is not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well..but the certainty that something makes sense..no matter what the outcome might be..” so very true…

These days everything and everyone comes with a tag attached.. most of the times is so.. The one good thing about such situations is that you then try to make the most of what you have with you..coz you know sooner or later..it is going to be your ‘then’..I feel what we all fail to realize is the fact that life in itself is temporary and uncertain..We are all visitors to this place..this time..we are just passing through..If we start viewing everything this way..life can be made a celebration .. something worth living..

It is very easy to say “I quit, I give up.. when am all alone nothing is good enough for anyone else.. it seems this is the best way to be..When am by myself no one else can say Good Bye..” what is more important is to be like Kahlil Gibran once proposed “But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love.. let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.”

‘Rehna Tu’ from the movie ‘Delhi 6’ has this magnificent lyrics that will haunt you day and night. Prasoon Joshi has done a fantabulous job as always and the music by ARR needs no introduction. This one song will remind you of the need to accept situations and people the way they are and about the magic of unconditional love. Like Tagore once said.. “If you want to enjoy the beauty of a flower..don’t pluck its petals..let it be..” ‘Rehna Tu’ is fabulous and will just ease your mind and let it float among the unknown skies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkbrQcjiy10&feature

Let there be no tags attached. Let love not come with a date of expiry.. It is a wonderful feeling..a weird one :) when you know that the end of something beautiful is coming but you still want to hold on.. for few more seconds so that it can hurt a little more..when you sit back and think after years.. when you are in the dawn of your journey called life..So let it rain love.. let this drizzle last in our dreams..as a soothing touch of relief in the wounds once made..

“You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday…or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday..for it was not into my ears you whispered but into my soul…I hold it true whatever befall”

What if????!!!!

2009-05-31T20:51:00.004+05:30

I am all of a sudden reminded of this Tamil movie 12B. It was actually speaking a movie with a different script but didn’t click well with the audience. It captures two ‘lives’ of the hero. One where he misses a bus and one where he actually gets into the bus. Yes the question there again is ‘what if?’ It is amusing to think how it would have been if things were otherwise.(Guess this surprise break from routine is really making me ‘Think’ lol)

Life does not always give you a choice. It seems at times that this life too short or rather too small for the word ‘hate’. I have discovered that when you are left with no choice you kind of disconnect yourself from what you truly want and all that is left is compromise. That is when you tend to pose this question to yourself. ‘What if things were otherwise?’ Like someone rightly said, “When you have to make a choice and you don’t make it, that is in itself a choice.” Some times you cant’ have what you are longing for even if you sacrifice everything else for it.

Some situations in life make you wish to go back to how it was before. To bring back those memories and moments. To walk through the same ways yet again and to dream those dreams once again. I am just wishing for something like the rewind button in a music player. Don’t feel the need of the ‘shift delete’ button anymore. If you could actually get there and change or correct things which led you to where you are this moment. Quite a realistic wish I see :)

Hariharan sir has always amazed me with his soul stirring voice. ‘kaash’ remains an all time favourite. This particular song did not get noticed when compared to the title track of the album. Mesmerizing is what I can call this track ‘Jhoom le’ from the album ‘Kaash”.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEKibg7nhi0

This one song for all those memories that I want to bring back ..those moments and those smiles…those smiles and tears..those hopes and dreams dreamt. Life indeed takes twists and turns. Sometimes you long to get back right there and might not really be able to do that. Doing so you kind of end up living these two rather strange ‘lives’ simultaneously and to end up in a state of bewilderment. But yes the truth is there is only this moment..there is only this..or else life is yours that you will miss..so make the most of it.. walk in the rain.. feel the breeze.. dream of dreaming yet again..

“Where ‘you’ used to be..there is a void in my world.. I see myself constantly walking around that during day time and falling in at night.. And I am glad then I didn’t know it all would end the way it all would go.. Am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. These words may stay forever in my heart locked inside..may be there are words locked inside you too.. May be I will never know.. what if???!!!”

Let go..!!!

2009-05-19T15:43:00.002+05:30

Sometimes it is always good to let go of certain things and certain people… But as some one rightly said once “ Letting go does not always mean giving up, but rather accepting the fact that there are things that cannot be…” You at times tend to ask the question ‘ Why not?’ but yes it doesn’t offer an answer always…This very moment is the only thing you have that is certain… so hold on to it.. rather than getting lost in the blurred picture of the thing called ‘ future’

The title track from ‘Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam’ was one such song. It has so beautifully captured the art of ‘letting go’. But still in the unknown corners of your mind, there are things that we never want to let go off, people we never want to leave behind and walk away…but at times..it stays locked in there…safe and sound.. Ismail Durbar has so stunningly composed the entire album that is so soulful and full of life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1YtQpePwUEg&feature

I have always felt that the logic to get to know people better is to trust them for who they are …but always we trust them for whom we want them to be and in the end we remain disheartened. It is when we let go.. We all are responsible..! Although we won’t be able to stop the worst from happening… we are all responsible for our attitude towards the misfortunes that darken our lives..We can choose to sit deserted or decide to rise from the loss and cherish the most precious gift we have …life itself!

“Here I stand.. seeing you walk away…Well..now on I will never have a place to call my very own.. That’s all right you..my ‘life’..you are my home…”

PS: Post dedicated specially to my priceless treasure..for always making me smile.. and for being there unconditionally! : )

To be..!!!

2009-05-11T23:54:00.005+05:30

Change..!!!…life is all about changes. There comes a point when you feel this is it and am gonna be living in this way. But not yet…there comes an unexpected change…and again the circle goes on.

It feels strange at times. When you are taken off from all your much used ways and habits. Just a strange new world...!!! Where you are just by yourself…. trying to see how life has changed and how things around you have changed. Slowly but certainly you start getting used to the changes.. and move on with the flow. Sometimes you yearn for it..most of the times it comes to you. That is the very unique thing about the concept of change..

Sudden diversions are sometimes really good. It gives you a lot of time to be with yourself and understand the person in you. But still you tend to cling on to those memories and start breathing life..all over again…Everything around you seems to have changed..but you!

Sometimes you yearn for a whiff of fresh air. ‘Akale’ was one such masterpiece from my all time favourite Shyamaprasad Sir. The title track will do wonders to you. With a touch of Beethoven’s Symphony, the entire album has that divinity attached to it which will help you let go off everything else haunting you..just let your mind wander into the unknown heights and depths..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQXciqVmjDg

“ I didn’t ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that’s the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets..”

Nouvelle Vie!!!

2009-04-22T18:40:00.005+05:30

The title is just a reflection of the new craze that I have developed…this love for French as a language : ) Life has given me this 'surprise' break from all the madness and from all the daily to do lists…so thought would make the most of it and do something off the track…

Have been diving deep in to songs..movies and a lot more of it.. and having some realizations that have helped me move on..and face everything with my much clichéd 70 mm smile..I have learned to hold fast on to my dreams and hopes ..as someone once said..if dreams die..life is life a broken winged bird that cannot fly! It just seems hard at times.. but for every dark night there is a bright sunrise awaiting you.. and the things that you fear are just undefeatable not by their nature but by the way you look at it. The same old logic of seeing half glass empty/full : )

“Nouvelle Vie” means “New Life” and this particular song from the wonderfully made movie ‘Phir Milenge’, which gave out a fantabulous message, reminds us of the fact that it is never too late to start living a new life. There is always a new way to look at things…if you don’t have all the things you want ..you need to be grateful for those things as you don’t want them in your life actually. You can still do without : ) “Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”I agree to this two hundred percent!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XD71iDZtT0

Conquering any obstacle has always given me a secret joy. It has always meant pushing back a boundary line and adding on to one’s liberty. It just meant not to be dragged into silence and never let anyone define life for you but yourself. Knowing this, still most of us live life without making a stand, contented to blend into the background of self-rendering nothingness, and when looking back feel contented at our mediocre accomplishments. No one remembers the drops but the ocean…

“When you have come to the edge Of all light that you know And are about to drop off into the darkness Of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or You will be taught to fly”

Ending notes!!!

2009-03-30T13:11:00.005+05:30

The title inspired from a show which used to appear in a Malayalam channel years back. The only serial I used to wait for just for the title track and then just get lost in the very feel of it. ‘Shamanathalam’ , directed by the much respected and talented one, Shyamaprasad Sir, was not just any other serial. It had this so close to life feel.. soul stirring music and BGM..

How I wish everyone could understand ‘Malayalam’ as a language just to understand the depth and intensity of this song and the out of the world lyrics. But music speaks this universal language which every soul can comprehend.. One song that captures the various seasons of your heart. Chithra chechi’s best non film song anytime. If not for Manu aka Chai D Celeb I would not have been reminded of this fantabulous song after so many years. Thanks a trillion Manu and thanks to those amazing memories.. Have been listening to this nonstop for almost four days now and still can't get enough of it...serene..divine..haunting..that is 'Manveenayil' for you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WM42tTVLciU

The whole flow of the song just makes it stand out from the rest of the many million songs that we hear and forget. There is not much jazz. Just the right amount of BGM that is required where the song and the lyrics are given priority and not the kind of magic ‘software’ plays these days.

One song which will bring you back to those memories which you would have believed that you have actually let go off.. but still are residing somewhere in the unknown depths of your soul..It actually feels like getting up from a long deep sleep and you still find yourself at a place from where you had once ‘moved on’..But when you try touching that reality once again you kind of realize that it was again nothing but just a dream..

“The tender word forgotten, The letter you did not write.. What moves me about? Perhaps this is our strange and haunting paradox..that we are fixed and certain only when we are in movement”

Celebration of motherhood!!!!

2009-03-28T03:31:00.004+05:30

It is perhaps one of the most beautiful feelings in the world. It is a feeling that can only truly be understood by those that experience it…Someone once said.. “When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child…”

Started getting this feeling exactly a year before when I first saw her pitter patter her ways into my life. I felt so content…felt that.. well..now there is something that I have to take care of..pamper..nurture and see growing up…It has been said that we need just three things in life.. Something to do, something to look forward to and someone to love

One year went like one second…and today when I look back I have a lot of memories associated with her…more memories than I was a thousand year old…some awesome ones..some good ones…some not so good ones…but I hold each and every one of those so close to my heart.

It was a fantabulous journey and I am looking forward to many more years of growing up with her…Happy Birthday to you!! Yes Serenity is an year old today (28th March) and I am just feeling time and again like a mixed fruit jam…lol. Just would want to say a BIG thanks to all of you out there who have been bearing with my loud thinking all this while.. Thanks a trillion…

Karthik- For inspiring me to start ‘Serenity’ you will be my Encyclopedia musica for all the years to come
Ettan- For being that gentle breeze of my life all these years..stay blessed
Mejoettan- For keeping the music in me alive..
Sandipettan and Mamtachechi- For making me believe that unconditional love exists even now
Praji aka Luttu- For being my pillar of strength..my best friend for life
Manu aka Chaai D Celeb aka the thoughtful one- For keeping my spirits alive calling my posts ‘K’ serial …lol..You are one amazing friend
Gulfu aka my web guru- For all those html edits..comments and pep talks…thanks pal
My favourite butterfly- For stopping me from deleting ‘Serenity’ one of those days .. Love you for this and for many other reasons
Gopi aka the sweetest one- I don't believe you actually edited your about me on orkut and put up a note about 'Serenity' am still smiling with my eyes filled

Vaava... Maash..Govind kuttan, Rachi,Sonia, Tintu,Ratheesh ettan,chakku, and a lot many out there who have been religiously sending me feedback and suggestions..for always being the wind beneath my wings..A simple ‘THANKS’ is too small a word to express what it means to me. I have known that words can never replace feelings….

These songs go out for all of you..my angelic parents and for all the wonderful people out there..just a few picks from my favourite lists..

'Etho vaarmukilin' from the Malayalam movie 'Pookkaalam varavaayi'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AY0ZBjBvKyg

'Sutrum vizhisudar thaan' from the Tamil movie 'Kandukonden Kandukonden'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_bVG1fluw8

'Luka chupi' from the Hindi movie 'Rang De Basanti'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iB-PMhP7NRk

'Thendrale' from the Tamil movie 'Kaadhal Desam'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyBmG9ZZnLM

'Kannukku mayyazhaku' from the Tamil movie 'Puthiyamukham'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO9AemTUNb0

“Since I grew tired of the chase…..And search, I learned to find….
And since the wind blows in my face…I sail with every wind….”

Let there be rain!!!!

2009-03-23T11:46:00.002+05:30

When you close your eyes and listen….drops of rain do speak volumes. I have always been madly in love with rain… It just feels awesome how it washes the dust of everyday life and how it breathes new life in to everything and everyone. It freshens up your spirit and the rain drops seem to play a sweet refrain. It paints a lot of amazing pictures in your mind…

It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. But there is an element of surprise to it…..like summer rains… It is a beautiful creation. Kind of brings out the mystery in you and me. Some songs and some people are like summer rain. They come into your life when you least expect them.

Like Tagore once said….“That I exist is a perpetual surprise which is life…”And I always have felt that the best things in life are always unexpected… for almost all the best things that came into my life were unexpected. And I believe that you will truly understand the essence of life when you allow the unexpected to happen…

This one song will fall into your life like those first few drops of rain.. The Tamil movie “May Maadham” was well made and all the songs were much talked about. But of all, “Yenmel Vizhunda” stands out just because of the very freshness it brings along with it and the very same volumes it speaks through the magnificent lyrics.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdFAbPbgHmY

“Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of the rocks are timeless raindrops… I am no Poet here; my pen's the spout where the rain water of my eyes run out.”

Off the track!!!!

2009-03-19T13:14:00.000+05:30

Have heard a lot of songs which didn’t get the attention they deserved, and were kind of disappointing because of the way they have been shot. It is really unfortunate that the wow music and lyrics is seen as just another song. But yes… it did hit my senses hard. I then learnt the art of listening to the song alone and seeing through the video (with the logic ‘Ignorance is bliss’)

How I wish these ‘off track’ ones were visual wise well done. This post is simply for picking and choosing a few such songs and a dedication for ones who went ‘off the track’ knowingly or unknowingly and ended up in a different destination. “When all's said and done, all roads lead to the same end. So it's not so much which road you take, as how you take it..” so very true!

‘Swasame’ from the Tamil movie ‘Thenali’

This amazing composition from none other than ARR got its soul in SPB’s and Sadhana Sargam’s divine voices. But, can kind of justify the picturization, taking into consideration the fact that, the movie was a Comedy and yes Vijay Pa’s lyrics stands out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4pNqGc9s8w

‘Ini naanum naanille’ from the Tamil movie ‘ Hey nee romba azhaga irukken’

Still can’t’ believe I actually watched this nonsensical movie over a dozen times just and just for the music. The album was remarkable in way that it had about five composers. Srinivas Sir and Sujatha are as astounding as always.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnB7dy7LLeg

‘Malargale’ from the Tamil movie ‘Love Birds’
Another magical track from ARR, this song has always been in the all time favourites chart. Chithra chechi is my nightingale, my God mother and all that. Hariharan sir’s voice compliments the entire feel of the song. Can’t begin to compliment the fantabulous lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5Eki8yqOTs

These are the ones that just came to mind first. The list goes on, but as long as it is music..we listen…. :) :) :) :)

“I seldom end up where I wanted to go.. but I almost always end up where I need to be..”

Touch of breeze!!!!!

2009-03-11T18:15:00.000+05:30

Some songs make you forget everything. It breathes new life into you. Some people have this magic in their voices. Hariharan ji has always amazed me with his soothing and charismatic voice. God has taken extra care while creating such souls. I would have missed this one royally till I got reminded of this song again by a thoughtful someone today.

1947 Earth was a much discussed well acclaimed movie. The songs I believe didn’t get the attention that they deserved. And am kind of feeling bad about the fact that despite of having almost all good collections of ARR .I just missed out on this one. But yes, atleast now. Lyrics is one thing which can’t be missed. Javed Akthar Sahab has always wowed us all with his just so close to life lyrics. Rejuvenating…so full of life…

Another remarkable musical score by ARR that has meaningful and powerful poetry, the nine astounding tracks in the album will just take you places and make you feel that Life aint all that bad at the end of it . It has that tint of vibrant notes which makes it soulful and reassuring. This one goes out to the thoughtful someone and the angel without wings but has a doubt of hallow..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwXdRxuOEQM&NR=1

Something in the song will just ask you to approach each day with zest…to love..to laugh and to live.. “No Winter lasts forever…no Spring skips its turn…And even Autumn is a second spring where every leaf is a flower” that just says it all. It is a gentle breeze which will keep up a kind of daylight in your mind, filling it with a steady and perpetual serenity.

“I seldom think about my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers...and with that breeze drying the tears in my cheeks I think about the gentle breeze in my life..”

One day for being ‘HER’!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-09T15:32:00.000+05:30

It was only when one of my friends messaged me HAPPY WOMEN’S DAY did I realize that one Sunday when I was practically doing nothing but just diving deep into songs and a lot more of it was actually ‘one’ day to celebrate womanhood. The realization sunk in with many more messages..newspapers writing about so many of them..famous..not so famous..and a whole bunch out there who suddenly are glorified Ok..let me not sound like a feminist and say why only one day and all that..lol

The intention behind this post is simple..It is very very personal and just could not help writing it. ..lol..Just wanted to tell three wonderful women I know that they are way too special in a million unique ways. Rachi aka my angel from heaven, Tintu aka my VH1 and F.R.I.E.N.D.S freak, Sonia aka my best bully, confidant and my confession box. So.. my Women’s day eve was with them and was just very special.. (and am still smiling…)

Angels do exist. My angel has no wings but yes I doubt there is a hallow somewhere. “When angels visit us, we do not hear the rustle of wings, nor feel the feathery touch of the breast of a dove; but we know their presence by the love they spread in our hearts…” someone coined it right. I can feel it too..Rachi.. you are a wonderful sis. an amazing daughter and just the BEST wifey… an all rounder.. I look up to you for all that you are (but I still envy your eyes…lol) “For there is no friend like a sister, in calm or stormy weather, to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen whilst one stands…” and this is just you… love you so very much

Sipping my boring cappuccino (thanks to my messed up throat..sighhhh) and talking about almost everything under the sun, time and again I get reminded of the fact that these guys are just amazing. The best roomies I have ever had. Tintu and Sonia. I still wonder with my eyes wide open..what do we talk so much every day till 1.. 2 in the morning as though there is no tomorrow??!!! Well not of course about Women empowerment, but ya about the small little things that make our rented house a home and have given it a soul. Wishing you both nothing but the BEST …in whatever you do..where ever you go. “Even though we're changing and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends..”

This one goes out for you three and for all the wonderful women in the world…for all those who can dream that there is no such place called as far away.. ( all men please excuse..let me be a little biased here..lol) Directed by my Idol Maniratnam, this Tamil movie “Kannathil Muthamittal” was unbelievably amazing with its amazing story line and the wonderful aspects of womanhood that it had touched. Again , none other than the legend with his ‘Rahmania’ amazed millions with the album that still remains a favourite. Chinmayi you are my adorable darling and will remain so no matter how many singers will come..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKh4lsR5vIo&feature

PS: My favourite butterfly..Indu…this one for you too…much love

"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I will look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and follow them where they lead."

Life’s virtuous circle!!!!!

2009-02-27T14:17:00.000+05:30

Some things are unreal to the core.. and some people too.. They are too good to believe that they actually exist. Was thinking about Paulo Coelho’s ‘Alchemist ‘ ..one of the very very very few books I have read. Certain situations are like what the author details in his Santiago’s journey(the protagonist). You go around looking for that fortune everywhere else but your home and come back to realize that you have the thing you were looking for right there …from where you started.. By the end of the novel, he discovers that "treasure lies where your heart belongs", and that the treasure was the journey itself, the discoveries he made, and the wisdom he acquired.

Life goes in circles at times, and the journey gets quite interesting. Second time when you cross the path already trodden you tend to notice more, pay more attention to detail and ask yourself ..”Why didn’t I realize this was there then??” But the truth is it has always been there, just that we didn’t notice..

Some things and people whom you never gave enough attention to.. whom you took for granted…such realities start flashing in front of your eyes..People whom you knew came with the package.. Some real close ones and some very special some ones whom you were not paying the attention they deserved. Again I would like those special ones to know that it was just because they have become a comfortable trusted element in life and you know they are there no matter what..in ways big and small!

This one song goes out for all those real thoughtful ones.. ‘Life in a metro’ was one movie that was amazing. Pritam as a composer reemphasized his presence in my favourites list with ‘In Dino’...one song that will stay for another hundred years with its, meaningful lyrics and soul stirring rhythm.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ52IJjbNg4

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for..” One of the wonderful lessons life teaches us. I have always felt that one of the best things about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between the stage of asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened. You wake up and realize it was just a dream. But I would say we need to follow our dreams. It is never too late to dream a new dream!

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about the beautiful thing called love.. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along. Then, I’ll do my dreaming with my eyes wide open, and I'll do my looking back with my eyes closed”

‘Rahmania’ beckons!!!!!!!!

2009-02-23T14:06:00.000+05:30

Was waiting for the moment… “and yes the Oscar goes to”… I was holding my breath.. was on my toes.. Screamed out of joy when I heard them take his name.. Was waiting for this day to write something about the much much much acclaimed..criticized…talked about movie and the legendary behind ‘Jai ho’. Many of us felt it is not his best composition…but for me it was the grand entry he had to the world of Oscars… making us all proud… yes he is priceless… not just a million or trillion… just priceless…blessed..and divine! Was fortunate enough to see him receive the award out there.. felt that I was right there…even though miles away.. felt like I won ..every music lover would have felt the same..

The movie was so well made.. again perceptions vary! For me if ARR is there…it just can’t go wrong. Kind of addiction I say..lol. Music that haunts you.. music that grows in you influencing and touching every bit of you..music that touches your soul..music that stands out ..that is ARR magic.

It is a dream…which I have been cherishing ever since I have heard his creations..to meet him once and then come what may… I will be fine. Those years of growing up listening to Roja..till present.. when I went and watched movies like ‘Yuvvraaj’ (sighhh) just for his music… no regrets but..A man who needs no introduction..a man of few words..but whose music speaks volumes.. have almost all his compositions which I keep listening to time and again..

"All my life I had a choice between hate and love. I chose love and I am here," said Rahman after receiving his second golden statuette…that’s the very unique thing about him.. ending his first acceptance speech in Tamil.. Saying that my mom is here I have her blessings.. this day and this award ceremony has given a million more reasons to look up to him..the astounding musician and the unbelievably amazing human being…

The world has known..India is not just about stinking slums and dark realities of life ..but yes we have people like you and we are priceless..There is a much brighter and better side to us..Yes..like the choice you made in life..of choosing love over hatred.. hope all the people out there follow suit.. Keep composing..keep amazing the world for another million years to come..stay blessed!!! Touch Gold :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Adm50X9ctF0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqD_1Z4qVlk&NR=1

“Whatever deceptions life may have in store for you, music itself is not going to let you down.. Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”

Elegy on existence!!!!!

2009-02-13T11:59:00.000+05:30

"Soul one: Hey.. what happened to the thing which I gave you?

Soul two: Which thing?? That bloody reddish thing? That looked really weird I say

Soul one: Yes!!!

Soul two: I just left it there outside the dustbin..guess by this time it would be in pieces. I could see ants all around that..yuck! why?? Was it something that you needed?

Soul one: Well..no..yes..actually…that was my heart.."

And then silence prevailed…!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1r8kRMW6ftk

“So in the dark I hide the heart that bleeds, And wait, and tend my agonizing seeds. In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart, bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees.”

Shift ..delete!!!!

2009-02-12T12:12:00.000+05:30

Like many of you out there even I am searching for the magic eraser which will forever erase those memories away. (Guess we have to wait much longer for such an invention)Those ones which we don’t need.. those memories which always make you feel like less of a person. ..We just don’t need them. And at times we get ruled over totally by our emotions and reason won’t be even near your vicinity. ..times when you see that willful slaughter of promises given and dreams dreamt of ..

I too ask this question many a time.. why do we punish ourselves for things which we have not done. But some people are moulded this way… you and me just forgive no matter what the damage has been.. forgetting never happens though.. Guess I am yet to master the art of ‘moving on’ be it be anything… manufacturing defect I say..lol

Wish things were that easy as it sounds like.. one click ..’shift’ and then the ‘delete’ button and you are fine. Guess it doesn’t happen like that always. ..but you know there is no harm in trying.. if at all now after all these years I am showing symptoms of improvement it is because of some real thoughtful some ones in my life.. those people who were always there no matter what.. can’t begin to thank them for all that they have done for me.. for listening without judging..for knowing without asking.. for accepting me just the way I am..

We all live out short little life in a trillion different ways.. why not make it worthwhile..rather than waiting for something in vain…a day lost is lost..it is never going to come back to you.. I am almost getting my PhD …have been researching in the literature of waiting for a long time now.. would not want anyone else to feel that way.. let that one doctorate be patented..all rights reserved..lol

Shaan is an amazingly talented singer.. this one song for all my people out there …seriously I am improving…and this is sign number one..lol.. and the biggest realisation of my life ' Some how a man's heart is either exceeding the speed limit, or getting parked in the wrong place..'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0zgpMxrMmM

“As the days seem to go on endlessly, I await the 'someday' I've always been promised. That 'someday' when things are supposed to be perfect... the 'someday' when I find my place in this unforgiving world…”

Colourless!!!!!

2009-02-06T14:58:00.000+05:30

What is the colour of darkness.. it aint black! It has those shades of insanity which can never be captured in any colour. I have no qualms in admitting that I was a scared child. Darkness always scared me. I loved colours.. and hated the darker side of this world.. tried seeing only the brighter side of darkness..those rays of light ..those rays of hope..that very thing called life beyond all these madness.

Many a time we shed tears for ones who are not worth it. …those people who never deserved even a second of your life.. whom you thought were the soul to your existence… Those people who take you to a different world where you have never been before and leave you all alone..stranded..lost..hurt…deserted.. And you fail to understand why??! But at last in the end reasons doesn’t not count at all.. Yes..it is true..if there is a reason to love.. there is a reason for life beyond that as well…

Those moments that took away the colours of life..One last drop of tear for all those moments.. But they will never get to see this one last drop I shed.. they don’t deserve to.. It belongs to me and to those memories tearing me apart every second..let it be with me..when I collect those shattered pieces of hope..and decide to look ahead..and still dream of a safe tomorrow..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBw17pNevdM&feature
Shafqat and Fuzon needs no introduction.. this one song is for all those moments and people..for painting me with the colour of darkness. He who said “I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry...” captures to an extend what it feels like..

“So hold her closer when she cries, hold her closer when she feels. She needs a hand to hold, someone who will never let her go again. And hold him closer when he tries to hold the tears back from his eyes. Don't say goodbye.”

Dafatan!!!!

2009-01-20T17:16:00.001+05:30

Things happen in life “all of a sudden”. I have fallen in love with the word ‘Dafatan’ so beautifully put in the lyrics of ‘ Dil gira dafatan’ from the stunningly inspiring album “Delhi 6”. The search for the meaning of some words will give you a different perspective of the songs which you have already heard. “Delhi 6” is a surprise package. An unbelievably brilliant album that captures almost all genres of music.. All moods and all emotions. Just a perfect blend any music lover would love to keep as a priceless possession.

“Dil Gira dafatan” and “Rehna Tu” have got the very ‘Rahmanish’ unconventional patterns and flow where you just fail to understand the structure unless you hook onto it for a million times. They are just fantabulous. Shreya will just amaze us with her magical “Bhor Bhaye” a pure classical rendition and 'Arziyan' has a great amount of divinity attached to it.

Mohit Chauhan’s versatility has been unveiled in “Masakali” and the song title is attributed to the white pigeon in the movie which symbolizes peace and freedom according to the Director of the movie. The title track is very attractive and no doubts that ARR magic will keep our flag flying high in the years to come. He is a blessed soul!! Handpicked and showered with talents by the Almighty!! Prasoon Joshi has raised the bar with his awesome lyrical talents and Urdu as a language is wowing me time and again.

Looks like the two years wait after “Rang De Basanti” was really worth it. Music does possess some magical powers. If you have music in your life you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have. Even when am jotting down these thoughts I have “Dil gira dafatan” playing into my ears and hitting my senses hard …giving me that solace and comfort that we all long for at times.

Always expect the unexpected in life…almost all the best things came to me at least happened when I was least expecting them. But can’t disagree with Mark Twain when he says “A thing long expected takes the form of the unexpected when at last it comes”. “Delhi 6” is a worth a trillion bucks and much more than words could ever say!!!

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/hindi_bollywood/s/movie_name.10512

“Music takes us out of the actual and whispers to us dim secrets that startle us, make us wonder as to who we are, and for what, whence, and where to.”

Solitude!!!

2009-01-12T19:29:00.000+05:30

Heard from an old school friend after a long time today and had this huge emotional turmoil .. all the events just flashed in front of my eyes.. and yes I had a total 360 degree review of my life. Those times when you are ruled over by your emotions and reason doesn’t appear anywhere close to you. 'Loneliness' expresses the pain of being alone.. but yes.. we do have the much glorified 'Solitude' that indeed is the GLORY of being alone. We all need this space at times. The time and space all of us need to go through a Catharsis- the cleansing process... We all need this solitude...in love..in friendship..in every relationship!!!

"You will get over it.. it is the clichés that cause the trouble" the saying is true by all means. Kahlil Gibran is one of the very few authors whom I have read.. He in his creation'Madman' once said..." I will have both freedom and safety in my madness..the freedom from being understood.. the safety of being alone..." this kinds of sums up all the much felt feelings reappearing every now and then... Some songs also kind of capture this much talked about Solitude. One which comes to my mind first if 'Tanhayee' from Dil Chahta He..one of my favourite movies of all times...

Just right kind of picturisation renders life and depth to the message the song is trying to convey..Sonu Nigam just amazes me every time with his soulful voice and unbelievable feel. The lyrics of this one just stands out with every single word complementing the other... and the end result was one fantabulous song..
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=l3gd4wuZ7uo

For all those relations that all of us lost at some juncture.. this one is for all of them…

"Loneliness is never more cruel than when it is felt in close propinquity of someone who has ceased to communicate.."

Shadows...!!!!!

2008-12-24T14:38:00.000+05:30

In life’s long journey you take different paths..some frequently trodden paths..some less trodden ones.. and often I have ended up taking the less trodden path…. But the journey till date has been quite eventful…a time comes when you pause your life for a while and rewind your journey..you see so many phases..but each phase you have encountered with someone.. thinking that you will be having them with you throughout your journey..but realize sooner or later that they are nothing but walking shadows.. they just come and go… leaving no foot prints..

You wait..till the right person comes along.. and when it happens you just know it… Ghulam Ali’s “Husn-e-ghazal” had such a song in it .. “Tamam Umr Bhar Tera Intezar humne Kiya” conveys a million messages that many of us fail to express.. all those words dying to come out.. all those emotions and feelings.. all captured into one single song. That is the song for you….

The best version of it apart from the original I heard in Najim’s voice (Asianet Idea Star Singer 2007 winner and my kid brother JK’s friend). He has done a marvelous job and the blessed voice has done total justice to the original…Its just FANTABULOUS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mynXILSblso

Hafeez Hoshiyaar’S lyrics gives life to the soul stirring rendition… a journey of a life time.. you love some ..you hate some..you win some..you lose some..but the one beautiful precious journey of life… I have read somewhere “Life doesn’t always give you the people you want; instead it gives you the people whom you need to teach you..to hurt you..to love you..to make you exactly the way you should be..”

I am glad I too encountered with some walking shadows..I will be grateful to them forever.. coz of them I know the worth of the precious ones I have… I have learnt to let go off them..and to dream of a new sunrise..

“In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and enough shadows to blind those who don't.”

When silence speaks!!!

2008-12-19T17:12:00.000+05:30

This empty feeling happens to me quite often. I am sure each one of us goes through this sometime at least. When you just fail to communicate..when you feel talking doesn’t really seem to help. A time when I usually cling on to my songs and start breathing fresh air; pull up my socks to get things back on track...I hate to sulk..I hate spreading lousiness around.. I realize my people (even though much clichéd) love my 70mm smile aka evil grin or whatever… lol. Music and silence go really well. Music is done with silence and silence is so full of music

Even though I never got an opportunity to watch this movie, one particular song caught my attention the very first time I listened to it. “ Kaatrin Mozhi” from the Tamil movie ‘Mozhi’..the very beauty of its lyrics. The subtle rendition with not much of jazz in the background…the attention given to every minute detail… it’s totally a ‘WOW’ song… even when I am writing this, my colleague/ guide/ personalized Google desktop/Rahul reminded me what a miss it was.. “You have not seen the movie??You must!!” So am going to...asap
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0u67iaEfllU

Silence has a divinity attached to it…. it does speak volumes. When words fail to express your deepest of thoughts. When you just feel you can be there just by being silent.. when you fail to be there no matter how much ever you try.. when you feel all this together.. This one song goes for all those people whom I might have hurt knowingly/unknowingly..by talking (most of the times) and by be being silent (at times) and yes I don’t want to ruin an apology with an explanation.

When I went for my long spell of solitude to different places away from home...shuttling hostels and emotions.. I had this silence within me which was kept safely locked. Even I wish to understand the language of the gentle breeze that is drying the tears on my cheeks.. the language of the wind.. of the sky..of the sea..the language of heart!!! Mark Twain put in right “The right word may be effective, but no word was ever as effective as a rightly timed pause.”

“Let us be silent, that we may hear the whispers of the soul.”

And then..silence prevailed!!!

2008-12-05T13:12:00.000+05:30

Like each one of you out there.. even I felt miserable.. felt lost and hassled.. things are such right now!! With all channels time and again glorifying the terror..piercing into the unknown depths of all those who lost their dear and near ones.. many others who got affected.. traumatized..scared and all that. Something unfortunate which spilt the suffocating truth.. Are we really safe at home??

I can’t exactly say “I know how it feels like” because I really don’t.. I can just feel how I would have felt if I were there in any one of their places instead. That very thought itself is disheartening. Some songs depict certain situations just right.. this particular song from the climax scene of the much liked movie “Bombay” by the legend Mani Ratnam is one such song. Someone rightly said “Music creates order out of chaos: for rhythm imposes unanimity upon the divergent, melody imposes continuity upon the disjointed, and harmony imposes compatibility upon the incongruous”

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=PBAglnjhs5c&feature

Again, I have no intentions of digging deep into the much more disturbing concerns… just a silent protest..a token of respect and tribute to all those ..I am trying to find peace within myself..so that I can be one such person who can live at peace with others.. "Hope".. I feel is the most exciting thing here. Never am I compromising on that. The much clichéd “Let’s hope for a better tomorrow” still makes a lot of sense to me. I still see that one day when all this will come together..what all of us have wished for has finally come to be..

“Live this day as if it will be your last. Forget yesterday's defeats and ignore the problems of tomorrow. This is it. All you have. Make it the best day of your year. The saddest words you can ever utter are, ''If I had my life to live over again. ''Take the baton, now. Run with it! This is your day! Beginning today, treat everyone you meet, friend or foe, loved one or stranger, as if they were going to be dead at midnight. Extend to each person, no matter how trivial the contact, all the care and kindness and understanding and love that you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again…. There is no way to peace, peace is the way.”

Memories!!!!

2008-11-19T18:35:00.000+05:30

One of those days when you sit back and think about your journey through life till date.. Sometimes you reach that turning point in your life when you realize there is going to be a major change that will change your course of living.. it is when you usually relive your memories..your journey... This one is for all those moments which have shaped up my life and moulded the person I am today.. sometimes you realize life Is going to change and there is going to be a new meaning attached to it sometime soon.. when you bring back all those years spent with and without your people.. holding all those memories so close to heart..you live your life

This particular song from the Malayalam movie “Kakkothikavile Appuppanthadikal” just will press your rewind button and you just wish to go back and live all those moments once again… well, there is no harm in wishing. Chithra chechi’s soul stirring rendition has always got my eyes wet…and the video is equally brilliant… we all grow up…and just don’t find time to look back..sometimes I wish how we can just freeze childhood and we will have bonsai models everywhere lol silly me!

The movie is also so close to my heart. It just brings along with it a wide array of emotions and a different meaning to relationships…someone once said..“I have more memories than if I were a thousand years old….” It is so true ..every day is an experience..Every day teaches you something..takes away something from your life..but springs in a lot of surprises. I am at such a stage where I’m thoroughly amused by the interesting encounters..I too live my memories which have become a part of my happiness.

Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people…we miss out on a lot of things.. But you never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the faith to move on…the strength to persevere.. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds for you and me, our todays make the memories of tomorrow…

The amazing song…
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=vRC81BIY0RU

“I've learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.”

The precious wake up call !!!

2008-11-14T17:39:00.000+05:30

It was my birthday..was having this argument of growing old or young going on in my mind for long.. managed getting some sleep at about four in the morning…after the cake cutting spree. it was then at around seven my phone rang and got up into my ‘special’ day with someone singing happy birthday to me sweetly.. the sleepy me didn’t even realize till the moment she said.. “Molee Chithra chechi this side…” and I jumped out of my bed the next second..lol :)

Surprises..who doesn’t like surprises. Even I do..I am sure all of you out there also love them..K S Chithra!!!She is one precious human being. The versatile one out here who I once wished that will adopt me sometime.. so gentle..polite and down to earth.. sweetest to the core that she bothered to introduce herself to me.. That was one wonderful call which will be cherished for the rest of my life. Time and again I am thanking Mejo ettan for bringing such surprises along .. :) :)

I have always adored her for whatever she is..have got inspired..have looked up to her and cherished every single word I heard from her. Can list a million songs by her here…but yeah the most favourite ones remain

“Paadariyen” from the Tamil movie “Sindhu Bhairavi”
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=CBagqESVCWU
“Raaree raareeram” from the Malayalam movie “ Onnu muthal Poojyam vare”
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=9lx6_vBfX60

"Etho Vaarmkulin" from the Malayalam movie "Pookkaalam Varavaayi"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nrphISK1mcs&feature=related

“Pularkaala Sundara swapnathil” from the Malayalam movie “ Oru May maasa pulariyil”
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=mI5RRDC4oMg&feature=related
“Kannalane” from the Tamil move “Bombay”
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=hZPibthSju4
“Manjal Prasaadavum” from the Malayalam movie “Nakhakshathangal”
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=zeYoJYQKrGE

“Piya basanti” a Hindi album along with Ustad Sultan Khan
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=JuHWT6Szfs0

That was one memorable day.. and yeah can’t begin to thank all the special people who made it that way..Mejo ettan, Vaava, Shinoy, Govind, Sujith, Manu, luttumon, gulfu, Indu and all the special calls I received just coz of Mejo ettan.. Chithra chechi, Srinivas sir etc etc.. sometimes life gives you enough reasons to look back and cherish every moment you have lived…some people teach you not to regret your yesterdays and not to fear your tomorrows..but to live your today and make the most of it.. This one is for one such person..someone so precious and unique....so special and thoughtful..caring and all that :):):) a total package!!!!

“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”

One for the "serene"one!!!

2008-11-08T02:35:00.000+05:30

It was one usual day for me…till I realized that it was his birthday... Mejo ettan did ask.. and yeah we were right…How could I forget even otherwise..Last year this time… How I heard him sing over the phone “ Azhage Sukhama” and how I was left speechless. Srinivas Sir is an amazing human being… an unbelievably talented singer..a blessed soul…. I was lucky enough to get a call from him again today…one year after I first spoke to him..I wish my service provider had some facility where I could save received calls just for the 7th of November 2008, for the rest of my life…lol…silly me again..but yeah quite lucky…

“Zindagi” has hit my senses already..and when I was listening to him speak… I was buffering all his songs..the mesmerizing melodies in his voice….have always left me wondering… whenever you listen to the songs like “ azhage sukhama” from the Tamil movie “ Paarthale paravasam”… “Zindagi” from “Yuvvraaj”… “Vasantham pole” from the Malayalam music album “Shalabham” ..you know what the word ‘BLESSED’ means… Happy Birthday Sir...you amaze me with every song of yours :) you are unbelievabel!!

Serenity is what is there in his voice.. and these songs top my chart by all means.. there might be better songs … best ones to come going forward… but there is some divinity tag attached to these…the very sacred ..divine.. emotion called love… mush suffocates me..guess today is an exception lol… Kahlil Gibran is one of those very very few authors whom I have read...am just reminded of these words.. ““But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.”

Some relations come without a tag attached to them.. this is for all those ..and it will stay safe with me forever…I don’t want to give a name or rather a definition and then ruin the divinity…let them be the way they are..’If it was possible to speak to the unborn..one could never explain to them how it feels to be alive..for life is washed away in the speechless real…’

The best 3…
“Vasantham pole”… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-mhntMt5x8&feature=related
“Azhage sukhama”… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPl82YtfgNo
“Zindagi”… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5nIRrh121u8

“'You'll get over it...' It's the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not erased by anyone but death. This void in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit. Why would I want them to?”

Blessed!!!

2008-11-01T18:50:00.000+05:30

Every one feels this at some point in life… wish I could have got a chance to spend more time with them..share many more smiles and tears..just be with them no matter what.. like the way they are always there for us no matter what !!! They teach you how to live your life and make the most of it before you get done with your time here.

I have always been amazed looking at them deal with life situations. Two amazing individuals.. very special and priceless in their own unique way. The reason for me having got a chance to see this beautiful world out here…. Life has given me one more reason to look up to them and learn another important lesson from them. ..Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence

This song is for you both and for the parents out there who missed out a lot till date and yet are not ready to give up.who always make their kids see a pleasant tomorrow in their dreams.... I too don’t regret those years spent in different hostels away from you both. I am looking forward to the many more years that we have in front of us..where we can be together ….

I will never be upset with life too… it is just that I miss you and I sometimes wish to rewind my life clock and get back all those years spent away from you… you both, through ways big and small, taught me to believe in myself.. smell the rain..feel the wind and fight for my dreams. .I am blessed to have you both as my parents.. you are amazing!!!!

I was just born when the movie “Masoom” released. The straight out of heart life lyrics by Gulzar saab and R D Burman’s brilliant composition just is soul stirring. The song “ tujhse naaraz nahin zindagi” will be heard a million more times and still stay close to my heart..

Here it is… http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=E_WV6HRq3SM

Much love now and always…
Me !!!

“For everything you have missed you have gained something else..and for everything you gain..you lose something else…”

Sunshine!!!!!!

2008-10-24T23:57:00.000+05:30

Well.. I know this is a little off the track :) But I had to write this for him..It was love at first sight :) He just was so adorable and I just felt like cuddling him the very next moment...Am talking about the divine one in my life..Shanku aka cuddly poo!!!!!

Have never seen any one of his age enjoy music like the way he does.. It was just sheer pleasure to watch him go off to sleep in my arms..and the few hours I spent with him was unbelievably amazing.. As always, I made him also listen to "Fuzon"..and when 'Neend na aaye' was being played in Govind's violin.. I could see that spark in his eyes and we just could connect really well!

Was speaking to his mom today morning and she said how he would not sleep with out music :) It gave me a good reason to smile :) and be happy about the fact that 'future as always is bright..' There is this unique thing about him...the too hard to beleive it's real kinda innocence.. the million watts smile...and his awesome tastes in music...

This song is for you.. May there be a lot of pleasant sunrises in your life.. Let there be hopes and dreams...smiles and happiness always..Here I baptise you as the sunshine of my life...just your thoughts make me believe that this world has not lost yet lost its innocence.. Hope you always see smiles among tears..may you always see all the goodness in this world... I adore you ..I so wish this innocence remains with you even when you grow up... May you only see clouds of dreams in your bright blue sky...

One amazing song for an adorable cute little cuddly poo... "Indira" (1995)was a brilliant movie and the songs were too good to be real... the ARR magic works wonders as always..Both the versions are equally beautiful..can't really say which one is better..

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=M6--E17NI6k

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=O_xsYnsNoIg&feature=related

"The few wonders of the world only exist while there are those with the sight to see them.."

Unwind!!!

2008-10-22T17:03:00.000+05:30

“Khabar Nahi” song from ‘Dostana’ will let your mind wander…where you just let yourself free and helps you unwind.. It is a beautiful composition by my favourite duo Vishal and Sekhar. I would not say that the entire album has the same mood. Again choices differ..But yes the marvellous “Khabar Nahi” and the peppy and cheerful “Jaane kyon” will leave a smile on your face :)

I have always loved Vishal- Shekhar’s compositions. They are very contemporary and rejuvenating. Something that is so unique about them! The song has been given life by Amanat Ali, Shreya Ghoshal, Vishal (the creator himself) and am wowed again. Anvita Dutt’s amazing lyrics actually oozes soul to the song. It is a lovely track and you can just go on listening to it for a long time...

It will just make you feel fresh where you let go off so many things.. almost all the excess emotional baggage that many of us carry along with us . The song is just about believing in your dreams and how life can be made simple. Once I had mentioned..simplest things are often the most beautiful things.. it is very true! Amanat has got an unbelievable voice and I have always followed all his shows.. Shreya as always is ‘Mishti doi’ for me..

‘Dostana’ will make you smile and believe in your dreams and just make the most of the time you have here.. I remember reading Chetan Bhagat’s lecture at Symbiosis where he said.. “One thing about nurturing the spark - don't take life seriously. Life is not to be taken seriously, as we are really temporary here. We are like a pre-paid card with limited validity. If we are lucky, we may last another 50 years. And 50 years is just 2,500 weekends. Do we really need to get so worked up? It's ok, bunk a few classes, goof up a few interviews, fall in love. We are people, not programmed devices…” I second this thought anytime…

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/hindi_bollywood/s/movie_name.10040/

“It's the circle of life, and it moves us all, through despair and hope, through faith and love, 'till we find our place, on the path unwinding”

PS : Govind kuttaaa..I love this pic of yours and love you even more for reasons unknown..nothing better I could find that would have completed this post :) Love you...chechi!

"Zindagi.."...!!!!!!

2008-10-21T18:23:00.000+05:30

I have read many a time that life is like a journey.. and have experienced it too. The song "Zindagi" from A R Rahman's latest wonder "Yuvvraaj" is one such song which will make you live through the journey of life... make you feel all the emotions possible under the sun.. at the end of it all you get a new birth.. you just start breathing a new LIFE...

Srinivas has this peculiarity to his voice. He has got this sacred voice..untouched and serene.. I still remember the day ..my birthday eve last year..when Mejo ettan gave me a surprise by making me speak to Srinivas. I just could not talk.. words that were struggling to come out of me :) yeah last year's bday was the bestest ever.. Well ..my journey at times get really interesting too... lots of encounters..some just stay in there for long..some I believe will for ever... People leaving has never made me feel that to stay detached is the best thing to do in life..Have always felt that it is kind of protecting yourself..from the insecurity of losing something priceless and irreplacable.. I would never do that.. One beautiful journey.. would not want to miss out or anything or anyone for insecurities :)

"Zindagi" is a lovely melody which will remind you of songs like "Nahin saamne" from 'Taal' and "Azhage sukhama" from the Tamil movie "Paarthale Paravasam". The very mood of the song is such.. Again the WAIT ..that never ends but each one of us love doing it.Lyrics by Gulzar saab has given a mesmerizing feel to the entire album. "Tu meri dost he" and "Tu muskura" and "Manmohini" are amazing tracks and 'Yuvvraaj' has given me one more favourite singer.. Benny!! I wish him all the very best and hope that he will make it big here :) :)

As always... Rahman's tracks will slowly but surely grow in us :) :) reaching the unknown depths and stay there forever in tact.. I honestly wish every one will go and pick up a CD with out a second thought :) It is worth it anytime :) Am amazed.. am touched.. am astonished..all that...

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/hindi_bollywood/s/movie_name.10067

"Don't ask what the world needs..Ask what makes you come alive and go for it. Because what the world needs is people who come alive... " :) :) :)

Convinced!!!!

2008-10-10T17:20:00.000+05:30

Sometimes you just refuse to give up.. no matter what ever happens.. that’s when songs like this help you a lot. Am talking about “Ye honsla” from “Dor” which I have been listening to time and again of late. The song has always been my favourite. But yes, life has given me more reasons to love it even more and listen to it a lot more…It will make you believe in that mirage in the desert :)

The movie was amazing too..but I still love the Malayalam version of it “ Perumazhakkalam” by Kamal sir and M Jayachandran’s music was serene and intense. “Ye honsla” apparently is inspired by the authentic music of Rajasthan and it has that rural folk feel to it. Shafqat’s voice will haunt you forever.. and you just will make up your mind.. I am not giving up!!! No matter what… and not regret it a bit …

Life gives you enough reasons to feel bogged down at times. But I feel it’s all up to you to take it in the right spirit. It’s easy to give up and sulk..but the very thing about life is to stand for yourself and believe in yourself and in what you feel… “Ye honsla” is poignant..it will just help you see the light at the end of the tunnel.. see a new sunrise every time you feel dejected with the sunsets in your life!

The wonderful blend of flute.. dhapli..ektara makes the song very intense and soothing. Salim Sulaiman have done a marvelous job and the so close to life lyrics by Mir Ali Husain makes the song unique. The whole album is amazing and “Ye honsla” remains my personal favourite because of the very positive message it conveys followed by “Kesariya balam” which is equally soulful…

Let’s not give up.. Let’s accept the fact that life would have been different if things were fine..but let’s just refuse to say that life could have been better…
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=D91yJVAJOGA&NR=1

“I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere to go. My own wisdom, and that of all about me, seemed insufficient for the day…”

Castle in the clouds!!!!!!

2008-10-01T17:52:00.000+05:30

This one song from Madhur Bhandarkar's "Fashion" with its soothing tune will make you just feel at peace with rest of the world. It feels like floating free among the clouds and yes I’m talking about “Mar Jaawa” the mesmerizing melody in Shruti Pathak’s husky voice. Have just been super impressed by her versatility and just have been wondering where was she all this while : )

I never paid too much attention to the movie as it is till I got to know the music is scored by one of my most favourite composers- Salim Sulaiman. Their “Dor” had left me speechless..and not to forget “Ye hosla”, one song which made Shafqat top my favourite singers list. The lyrics is simply awesome and the true lounge feel that will take you places....

I have always known that if there is a reason to love ...there is a reason for life beyond that too... "mar jaawan" is a different take where you just lose yourself in some one...in something...it explains the kind of things a person wishes for.. Shruti's low pitched rendition gives a depth to the entire feel of the song and the backing by Salim's awesome voice just makes the song reach another level altogether... Still wonder how people create music!!!!! It is divine and serene... soothing your mind..letting you come to terms with the facts of life.. it helps you get going..

I have lost count how many times I listened to this particular track in the last few days...can listen to it more than a million times and still feel am listening for the first time ever.. People around me...rather people in my world...have fallen in love with the song too :) and it gives me a lot of reasons to smile... that way we all will stay connected :) lol

"Mar jaawan" is a soulful song..a song full of life.. love...pain..hope...dreams and all that making me feel like a mixed fruit jam :) Kudos to the wonderful duo...Salim Sulaiman.. you guys are fantabulous!!!!!!!!
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=CslnrO2NBSY&feature=related

"I am not upset with the sunsets in my life.. I always dream of a new sunrise...and breath life..."

The vibrant colours of music!!!!!!!!

2008-09-30T16:20:00.000+05:30

Music has a rejuvenating effect most of the times... It just revitalizes your soul and makes you fall in love with everything around you. This is exactly what Harris Jeyaraj's songs from the Tamil movie "Vaaranam Aayiram" will do to you. I have always wondered how people create music. It’s such a divine thing …creating something out of the world.. It has always amazed me. Ever since I have known music….

The entire album has a whole lot of surprises in it. The seven songs in it, which has seven different shades and moods, just will make you feel “WOWED”. I am astonished by Naresh’s and Prashanthini’s “Mundhinam” and don’t get the right to words to explain the magic in Sudha ragunathan’s voice when she sings “Anul Mele”. I kinda missed Bombay Jayashri singing to Harris’ tune. But yes, Sudha will never let you down.. The added surprise element is Shruti Hassan rending her husky voice to “Adiye kolluthey” . Came across many reviews on the song which said it is a flick from “Alaipayuthe” song “Ententrum punnage”..but whatever little I have known of music I feel it is just the rhythm and the tune as it is very original. There is this gentle rock music touch to most of them and Harris has done a wonderful job of blending various genres…

“Vaaranam Aayiram” is an awesome come back of my favourite composer after some disappointments we all had of late. This is just him, the creator of original feel fresh music. With all his favourite instruments..Sax, Violin, Veena, Drums, Mouth organ and not to forget the guitar interludes… It has given me a million reasons to smile and just has changed the entire thought process where I started my day sulking and the moment the songs were on there was a drastic change of mood. Well.. that says it all. This is the “BEFORE” and “AFTER” effect and it’s a soothing feeling all of you out there will experience

“Vaaranam Aayiram” is so full of colours and life. Am all ears when I look forward to “Yodha-II”- sequel of the Malayalam film “Yodha” (1993) for which Rahman himself gave music for. Am sure you are just gonna create magic again in that… Keep composing…a million other songs from you we await… keep amazing us…

http://music.galatta.com/entertainment/music/songs/albumid/1503/movie/vaaranam_aayiram.html

“There are colours and feelings and emotional terrain that we occupy that is ours and ours alone.”

Encyclopedia "Musica" :)..!!!!!

2008-09-12T16:51:00.000+05:30

Yes..this one goes for him... my "Encyclopedia musica" aka Karthik; the amazing blogger..the amazing music freak and the even more amazing individual..

Karthik has always amazed me…there were times when I used to just sit and wonder with my eyes wide open..How does he manage doing all that he is doing… Innovating with his clients and positioning them 24*7.. 365 days....managing two wonderful blogs.. http://www.itwofs.com/ and http://www.milliblog.com/ .. being patient enough to listen to those never ending conversations about music..Fuzon..Mejo ettan ..Paru.. and be a great family person…etc etc. The list seems to grow every day …

Having done an MBA under a French university called ENPC.. he has a lot of stories of Cochin(where his college was located) to say..which am yet to hear… all the fond memories and some ‘deadly’ ones too ..lol..in his own language :) I used to kind of dread checking his blog ‘itwofs’- which is exclusively for plagiarism in Indian film music industry where many of my idols in music broke.. don’t know when I just got addicted to that… all those “downloading” our very own music directors have done and been praised for… just can’t take it off my mind..

All those wonderful things that happened after I have known you..the very reason behind me creating a blog.. after deleting a blog which I used to write many years before in one of my weird moods ..lol. The person behind me now reviving a long cherished dream..Thanks a million for all those songs :)

Someone who taught me how this life is too short for all the sulking..all the cribbing..all the tears and all the negativity… he has always said “ We have just one life…just make the most of it… you want to sing..go sing..you want to compeer…go compeer…” all that which injected a lot of positivity in me… will be forever grateful to him for all that he has said and done.. Thank you for all your inspiring and assuring words. It gave me the strength to persevere and I learnt that Life's not just about staying on your feet. It's about getting up when you fall..

Wishing you Ganga akka and Advay all the luck …happiness and peace in the world..you are my guide in music and I thank my stars for having led me to you…

“ Those who danced were thought quite insane by those who could not hear the music..."

Tabeer...Musically high!!!

2008-09-11T11:26:00.000+05:30

It will make you feel content..smile..laugh..cry.. fall in love..detach..attach..revive memories...all that... TABEER- Shafqat Amanat Ali's solo musical album has hit my senses hard.... where in I just refuse to stop playing them all... all the nine songs in the album :) Just could not wait for tomorrow to jot down my thoughts... Thanks again to Karthik, the amazing one :) and his equally amazing blog
http://itwofs.com/milliblog/2008/09/07/music-review-tabeer-shafqat-amanat-ali/
Time and again I thank my abundance for having led me to people like him :) whom I respect and adore like family

“Tabeer” as the meaning of the word suggests- is an interpretation of dreams….I believe it happens at times with all of us when the meaning of the dream suddenly becomes clear and you know what it was trying to convey…It happens to you…It happens to me.. A feeling that can’t be comprehended by words...

It is unbelievably brilliant!!! Where Shafqat takes music to a different level.. breath taking rendition of tunes.. taking care of the minute details..and the mesmerizing BGM... It's just astonishing a compilation.. :) just will make your mind wander through the unknown heights and depths.. where you don't have to weigh thoughts nor emotions...It takes you out of the actual.. makes you wonder who you are.. for what and where to..

"Tabeer" is musically high.. where all your senses will be tuned into the music and you get a feeling of " Deja vu " may be :) like what I am feeling this very moment.. so very real so very original..Shafqat's voice is all of that :) and he never ceases to amaze me.. every time he sings... Rohi...Naina and Khairheyan De Naal just will mesmerize you....

Somewhere inside I still miss him being a part of Fuzon.. but yes would wish him all the success in the world and a million more songs to come his way... Shafqat- the blessed one!!! Stay like this forever.... your music is soulful..it expresses those emotions that cannot be put into words..yet can't remain silent...

The best of all... http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=a1nCySUTZd4

“Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything... The heights charm us, but the steps do not; with the mountain in our view we love to walk the plains…”

MAGIK !!!!!!!

2008-08-29T09:39:00.000+05:30

I just could not help writing this… It is just that am way too carried away by my emotions after watching the musical extravaganza ROCK ON. I never knew I would be lucky enough to watch ROCK ON premiere…

I got back home late in the night humming “Ye tumhari meri baatein” taking along with me a positive message… one that will keep me going for long… may be forever…till I get done with my time here… Music has been something that has always helped me get going… and yes the simple yet amazing script just got my eyes wet every now and then throughout the movie.. It is something only music can do to you…

Joe, Aditya, Rob and KD and their MAGIK (the band) will take you through a lot of emotions where you just will be feeling nothing but music at the end of it all. Farhan’s magical voice has done wonders. But yes my personal favourite from the entire album is “Ye tumhari meri baatein” by Dominique Cerejo...she is just unbelievably talented I must say…. The trio… Shankar Ehsaan and Loy have proved once again that they are just THE BEST…..

The movie has made me do a thorough research on Rock music…a genre where am totally clueless about the technicalities involved.. hats off to all the Iron Maiden’s and Aerosmith’s of the world….Need to know a lot more… every single day is a learning here..In this world of music.... and I just love it!!!

MAGIK- creates magic around… when they perform.. and when they get on to the stage live after a hiatus of ten years… you just feel elated… on top of the world.. When all your senses are just tuned into them…when you know Music is what feelings sound like….

There are times in your life when you pause and think that…it would have been better to have met a person in your dreams; than to wake up and reach out for hands that are not there…The positivity ROCK ON brings on to the table is amazing… Life does give you a second chance… You are never too old to dream a new dream or set another goal..all you need to do is to believe in yourself and believe in what you feel… rest will be taken care of! And that is exactly what it says. It is never too late to follow your dreams….so…ROCK ON….

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/hindi_bollywood/s/movie_name.9824/

“You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, 'Why not?'”

Divine Intervention!!!!!

2008-08-05T18:21:00.000+05:30

Yes it was divine ... like a miracle... one flash of lightening... which came into life and went away before I could even feel it... my encounter with a guitar..... the songs that are coming to my mind when I think of it is "Neend na aye"... "aaj jane ki zid na karo".. and yes of course "abhi nahin aana"…

Time and again I get stuck with Fuzon in the first place :) then the rest…this time it is something like that which happened again. Where you just get hooked onto something.. you cling onto it and start breathing life… like my guitar and me…

Of late I spend my nights listening to “Neend na aye” a million times… I never liked the video in the beginning… felt that is not as impressive as the old ones.. “Khamaj” and “Saagar”…but yes it’s Fuzon and how can I not like it… and specially after interesting encounters in life.. I do believe that everything happens for a reason..if there is a reason to live… there is a reason for life beyond it as well…

But “Neend na aye” is just so mesmerizing and it will remind you time and again of those people who have couched the edges of your life and left impressions somewhere deep inside..People who might never come back.. those ones whom you will never see or get to be with even if you want that to happen so badly…. But there is some kind of a strange emotion involved.. you know they are not there… but still you have them.. it’s that very thing called hope.. which keeps you going… I completely agree to the saying “ hope is not the same thing as optimism..it is not the conviction that something will turn out well…but the belief that something makes sense ..no matter what the outcome will be…”

The song makes me go through this wide array of emotions every time I listen to this…but it is an amazing feeling….you feel so complete and content.. just right!!!! Between the wish and the thing life lies waiting…” Yes, even I love to wait…. Now and forever….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIzY7qhu7vg

“Some things in life never change...
Some moments in life aren't forgotten..
Sometimes as time rolls on you try to forget what holds you on...
Some people in life are a part of you...
And even if you let them go...
You never lose them...
Because you find them living in you ….
My guitar is not a thing..it is an extension of myself… It is who I am… “

An amazing surprise!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-27T10:09:00.000+05:30

Violin is something that has amused me through out..Ever since I have known music. . I feel violin is the most perfect of musical instruments and a person who plays it can be really really looked upon.... Music does bring people together. It allows us to experience the same emotions. That is what had happened to me of late when again I met Govind, Ratheesh ettan's favourite cousin and Mejo ettan's ever dearest violinist :)

Every time I meet Mejo ettan, there is a wonderful surprise for me. And this time the surprise walked in with a violin and that unbelievable innocence in his eyes. I could relate to him at the very first sight.... and so it happened. I love it when you call me " chechi amma"... I know you mean every word of what you say....

To be one among the eight students who got selected from SAE college to be with Rahman while he was recording for his new movie.. "Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na".. dear you are stunningly talented I must say... for many people out here like me...getting a chance to even see Rahman is a dream. I always used to tell Mejo ettan. In this life time I don't think I will ever meet Rahman. Show me some one who has seen him atleast :) silly me and my silly thoughts :) You are a dream come true :) The bit you played for Mejo ettan's song in "Cycle" I just loved it... short and sweet..I listen to it a million times every day..

Kuttaa, you are blessed with something which many millions don't have. You have a wonderful future waiting out there... And I am hundred and ten percent sure you will come out of all the testing times high time in life. The ups and downs that let you down... all those are just passing phases. You are meant for better things in life.. infact the BEST things ever.... !!! You are free to feel what you feel..feelings are not supposed to be logical :) you don't have to rationalize your emotions ever..

Here I am wishing you all the wellness...happiness...smiles and success...loads of love on your way.. And I thank my stars for bringing you into my life.. Thanks for playing Fuzon a million times without complaining :) always with a smile... thanks a million for those wonderful two days we spent just breathing music... I would have loved to have you for a kid brother... I know you are one always....

I look forward to the day when I will be sitting in the front row to listen to your concert... I know it is not too far...for I believe in you and in your talents... and the genuineness and dedication in you will take you places....

Love and prayers...

Now and always....

Chechiamma

"Life is like playing a violin solo in public and learning the instrument as one goes on... Happiness is a thing to be practiced....like the violin....."

One for you..!!!!!!!

2008-05-22T11:59:00.000+05:30

I always have felt that you should have been a poet.. a singer.. a writer..may be a lyricist even... looking at your tastes in music and the craziness in you which brought us together... I know that what I feel is absolutely right. Parvathy Menon, a stunningly talented actress in South.. my darling sisi...my "Vaava". One more reason why the Malayalam movie 'Notebook' is so close to my heart :)Thanks to Mejo ettan for bringing her into my life...!

Who said you should be born of the same parents to call some one your sister. I really don't think so. She is the child, the woman, the friend, one does not often meet ! God was kind enough to bless me with two younger ones..one our home production my Chandni :) [ I am sure she will hate me for this..but I love you loadsss Chandu].. and her my Paru... Yes he who said was right " A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost..."

I used to watch her show on TV, when she used to catch my attention at times with her unique way of presenting the show which was different from the rest of the 'many' on screen.. and hardly did I realise that down the lane we will be watching her movies together .. discussing all crazy things under the sun.. dreaming wierdest of weird dreams......I so want to adopt you vaave... :)

I was always just a spectator of the wolrd of stars. It used to amuse me at times. It is rare that in the world of stardom you find some one who is so far from all the 'expected' behaviour. some one who will find time to call you and sing for you a new song she has learnt.. some one with whom you can be at your very best.. some one when she calls you everytime brings a lot of happiness and cheer.. some one who calls you at odd hours of the night to tell you that you mean a lot to her...some one who will make you feel you are the best..its her..the whole complex package.. my adorable vaava!!!

I miss those nights when we used to stay up till late to discuss about numerous things when she was in Bangalore shooting for her Kannada movie 'Milana'.. That movie brought together two long lost friends from college :) My dad and her dad.... :) I miss those junk shopping with you.. miss those eat outs and walks...I miss putting you to sleep singing for you till late...I miss seeing you smile through your tears..Miss you...

While I await your call late in the night today after your hectic shoot for 'Poo' a new Tamil movie..I just want you to know that when all is said and done you are part of me...You are my best friend..the besteeest sister any one can ever ask for...Take care vaave...

Love ..now and always....

Chechi..!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_L24kxzgZs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTTQNtRtaRc&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TaOJpVIFCFQ&feature=related

"I shall go the way of the open sea, To the lands I knew before you came, And hope that the cool ocean breezes shall not blow from me, The memory of your name”

Sona! Yes we struck Gold...!!!!

2008-05-05T16:46:00.000+05:30

Sona Mohapatra is the one who has given LIFE to the song.. ' Abhi nahin aana Sajna' from the album ' Sona'...

Well, I have always felt that simplicity is the ultimate sophistication and the simplest things are often the truest... Some one has rightly said "Simplicity is the final achievement. After one has played a vast quantity of notes and more notes, it is simplicity that emerges as the crowning reward of art....” That is the reason why you just can't ignore this singer who made her mark through her husky and low pitched rendition making her different from the rest....

One of my very good friends.. an awesome photographer based out of Mumbai.. Girish Menon was lucky as usual (I envy you G :) for this and many other reasons) to be a part of 'JAMCAT', a programme organised by IIM where Sona performed. G's website is just amazing...http://www.girishmenon.com

'Abhi nahin aana ' is a soulful song.. a song for waiting.. !It reminds me always of this..There will always be reasons to wait...the truth is there are only two things in life.. reasons and results... and in the end reasons simply don't count! Even I love to wait...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BC2q9BJoO5A

Way to go Sona.. you are a genuine singer.. we did strike gold..... :)

' Between the wish and the thing life lies waiting...'

Kaash....!!!!!!!

2008-04-17T17:31:00.000+05:30

It feels like a journey through the greenest of the greens...where you can hear nothing but sounds just natural and serene... Hariharan.. that is him. All out there who heard him singing once 'Kaash eisa koi manzar hotha' from his album ' Kaash' will feel the same.

'Kaash' is a musical extravaganza. The entire album is so full of life.. so real and natural. There is no word play.. no extra musical instruments.. just simple soothing music..the perfect blend of everything... Each song so different from the other yet something common about them...the very originality of tunes...

It is characterized by this freedom of style and structure which makes it worth to be called an extravaganza!!! If you take ' Jhoom le' it is an elegy on life.. an elegy on existence..! But 'Kaash eisa koi manzar hotha' is a different take altogether....

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/ghazals/s/album.687/artist.404/

"Whenever I close my eyes, letting my mind wander to a red house set amidst the greenest green. My mind rocks to the gentle wind that makes the littlest noise passing through the yellow leaves that pave the path. My eyes will search for the ancient gramaphone, with enough youth still in it to turn me one more soulful ballad...."

'C'atharsis!!!!!!!!

2008-04-16T17:23:00.000+05:30

Music can just take you to places unknown and make you feel things you have never felt before. It feels like a sudden emotional cleansing or climax that constitutes overwhelming feelings of great sorrow, pity, laughter or any extreme change in emotion that results in the restoration, renewal and revitalization for living....as Wiki calls Catharsis.. It is something only music can do to a person....like what it does to you and me...

Yes it is the same thing which is happening... and specially when you listen to songs like 'Kate nahin raat' by Ustad Sultan Khan and' Aaj jaane ki zid na karo' from the album 'Asha' by Asha Bhosle ji :) just stunningly brilliant ones. They will help you just go through that cleansing process...smoothly that too... and keep what is worth keeping and drain out the rest...can name a lot more.. but these came to mind first...

Even though the original track by Farida Khanum is as soothing as Asha ji's verison of the song, I have this bias to Asha ji as always. ... :) cant blame me for that...:) evey time her magical voice gets my eyes filled.. every time I listen to this tune... it feels great.. it is out of this world...

Link to my most favourite one..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LnAVroHAwHE

Asha ji is a living legend.. music in its very sacred form.... would want to hear another million songs from her...Love you lots Asha ji... wishing you all the wellness... good health and happiness...now and for ever....

"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life...."

Fuzon....!!!!!

2008-03-31T17:47:00.000+05:30

Some times I feel they are possessed... otherwise how can some one make music so serene and magical. I remember my colleague and my soul icon in music, Karthik, telling me the same about Ilayaraja sir once when we were driving back from work :). I would have never created SERENITY with out getting kicked by his awesome blog http://www.itwofs.com/.. Thanks a million Karthik :) you are an amazing individual...

Don't remember clearly when I got addicted to Fuzon. I just used to listen to their 'Saagar' on and off.It was my trip to Mumbai this Jan and ya that lovely beach house in Dhanu when Kichu was playing Saagar from his cell that I was reminded of them again. Thanks to him and thanks to those wonderful memories....

Since then for the last three months there was not even a single day which faded... with out me listening to their tunes. There is something about them; something about the music and the raagas that will drag you towards it and make you cling on to it for the rest of your life. ...thats Fuzon for you..

http://www.fuzon.info/

Its true that I really really miss the intensity and depth of Shafqat's stunning voice.. but I honestly wish Rameez Mukhtar a sparkling stint with the band!!!! 'Neend na aaye' from 'Journey' is simply superb... though the greedy mind in me heard it on youtube much before the album released in India when Shafqat was performing it on stage:) some where in his country :) and just couldn't help comparing the two.. But at the end of it they are my favourites and I will always wish them loads of luck and many more successes... You guys are fantabulous....

'Ankhon ke saagar'- Saagar
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBw17pNevdM&NR=1

'Mora saiyyan '- Saagar
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s9_fji0XeUw

'Neend na aaye'- Journey
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DR-dtDS_sts

“Since I grew tired of the chase…..And search, I learned to find….
And since the wind blows in my face…I sail with every wind….
The return makes one love the farewell….”

His Journey...!!!!

2008-03-28T16:42:00.000+05:30

I still remember the day he called me and said "Vaave, tomorrow is my movie audio release, pray for me..you are the reason for my music ..wish you could come for the function.." that is him.. Mejo Joseph. .. now an upcoming Music Director in Malayalam movies. Well for me , the best music director ever :) Mejo ettan....

We always used to dream about that day when his album will release; while taking breaks from the long practice sessions for inter college fests.. while sipping our canteen tea... while taking walks by the auditorium in groups. Dont know when we lost touch..for almost two years.. then one day again I met him at a college fest when I had gone there taking a break from Bangalore. I saw him standing there in a small group selling his first music album " Manicheppu". There we met again.. my mirror image..my guide in music..Everything was like before.. the gap of two years never came in between us and music..

"Manicheppu", the Malayalam album was released by Roshan Anddrews, who in the long run became Mejo Ettan's bro-in-law:) sweet co-incidence. Notebook was another surprise for me. My excitement had no boundaries when he gave me an autographed Cd of his first movie in Malayalam.. "Notebook". The movie brought along with it a bunch of surprises for me. Got some wonderful friends.. Parvathy, Maria, Skanda and above everything my Paru kutty, my vaava. Even though I am the only one in the group not associated with movies.. I never feel out of place with them :)thanks to Mejo ettan...

"Cycle" is the latest one..in Malayalam again. I am praying that I can take another 10000 names of his movies before I get done with my time here.... Always wishing him all the very best in life... Cant begin to thank him for everything he has done till date... all those little little things he has done always taking out time to make sure I am not missing my music class every week :) making sure that I am happy and smiling...for all those days where he was on phone for hours singing late into the night till I fell asleep... I know you will forever remain the same.. My prayers are there for you always....

Loads and truck loads of love, prayers and luck.. now and alwaysssss
Vaava

Him..

http://video.webindia123.com/interviews/musician/mejojoseph/index.htm

All in one video :) all my favourites....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kl8DmQjHduY

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step..."

Revival....!!!!!!!

2008-03-28T16:09:00.000+05:30

Its a journey for me again .... far from everything.. Far from innovating with my clients and positioning them 24 *7....

Some things just don't cease to chase you. Like my all time passion for music....Thought would resume it after a long break... Started writing listening to my all time favourite FUZON's latest wonder Journey :)...

Here I am.. wanting to know more about music.. wanting to listen to a lot more of it....
Sangeetha
"Why waste money on psychotherapy when you can listen to the B Minor Mass? "

vallo