Lets
talk about life. Yes, something as simple yet as deep as the term ‘life’. Not
the kind of conversations that feel superficial and shallow, but the kind which
will make you feel a little less lonely, heard and understood. Sudden changes
in the usual, unexpected losses and untimely deaths always bring along with
them a whole set of revelations and realizations.
There
are these sinking moments…moments of fear, uncertainty and self pity which
follows. Those dreadful moments, which suck you into the depths of some strange
dark corners that you possibly didn’t know existed. You possibly feel like
being swept off the ground by this quicksand effect, which totally shakes you
up, and you feel your world crumbling down all around you. Ever felt this
despair and helplessness of not knowing where, why, when and how?!
Us
humans, we always long for that something in our lives to fill the emptiness in
our soul created by that aww so overwhelming unacknowledged loneliness. It
could be a person, a thing, or just something that we do, to keep ourselves moving
ahead despite of all the odds. I have learned that the little secret is to
accept the fact that sometimes its not about figuring it all out at once, but
to live through each day gracefully and repeat it every single day until you
find that stability. True that sometimes its no mountain we conquer but
ourselves. I have also started to believe that it is really important for us to
accept the fact that every one else has a life beyond their understanding of
our suffering and pain that we have to sometimes find solace, peace and answers
within ourselves.So tread lightly on those difficult roads and don't be too harsh on yourself. Yes, the world might try to break you down, but wear your truth like your shield... and tread lightly!
Just
few days back, I lost a dear friend to cardiac arrest and quite a few people to reality! Losses no matter in what form, create a void that only can be
filled with hope, patience and a whole lot of love. There are these days when
you miss that feeling of being held. If you ask me, the safest I have always
felt is inside a hug. Hugs make you feel so safe, protected and taken care of.
Something as simple as a hug can breathe life into a person I have known when I
hugged my darling friend who eventually lost her fight to cancer.
There
are few songs that kept me company through my dark days and nights. Music
indeed holds the power within to heal all kinds of wounds and make you whole
again. This also has been the phase where the mother in me has been suffocated
beyond measure with the distance that has come in between the little piece of
my soul and myself. Music has always been that loyal companion with me
throughout this journey as my no judgment zone and rock of a constant. Music
helps when your soul has aching voids and scars on it because we rubbed
ourselves against certain experiences and people. It helped me find my light
yet again. I really do hope, it will help you too no matter what you
are enduring right now!
There
was indeed never a night so dark or a heartache so deep that could defeat the
miracle of another sunrise or a ray of hope! Here is borrowing Jidnya Pandya’s
soulful ‘One less lonely night’ to wrap up my thoughts. “ Just wait back a little longer! The night is almost over; come, lets
watch the sunrise together!”
