Old wine, but a much more perfect bottle!!

No intentions to confuse with that ‘off the track’ title… am just talking about the new version of ‘Khamaj’ by Shafqat I happened to hear recently.. was breathing ‘Fuzon’ all this while ever since I heard them first.. my kid bro.. ‘Vaava’ sent me this link recently saying “I know its your fav and I knew you would love this. My wedding gift for u…” I loved the new version then and there…just hopelessly fell in love with the song and my life all over again… and am feeling fab.. (Thanks a zillion vaave…you are the best brother anyone can ever have.. thanks for being there through ways big and small..stay blessed )



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jLoPvdYV4E&feature

‘Mora Saiyyan’ is an unbelievably soul stirring fab composition and Shafqat is a divine talent.. I so wish once before I get done with my time here.. once to hear him live.. I deeply miss him being a part of ‘Fuzon’ but yes change is the only thing that is constant as they say. But as we go on with the change… we still perceive the same old things differently.. the same old magnifying lens that views other people’s perspectives.. the very soulful song minus the equally intense BGM..this was such a fantabulous surprise…could not help but write about it… it was just too good to be taken lightly : ) It is true that ‘Music and silence combine so well.. coz music is done with silence and silence is so full of music..’

I am in love with this brand new version..this new version of love.. this new version of life..this new version that amazingly depicts the pain of longing.. Sometimes it is good to fit yourself into the much needed ‘you’ as I have always felt ‘ I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but I almost always end up where I need to be.. ”But at the end of it all I too have realized that “Now I know exactly where I am going and I just don’t want to go anywhere else.” this certainty of life is something everyone long for.. once you attain that you get to understand the trivialities of many other things which you once felt were the end of the world.. nothing in life happens by chance.. you reach where you are meant to be.. and again..it will all be worth the wait : )

Music gives you that high at times.. When we long for a million things.. long to be with someone..long to make our dreams real.. long to love..live..and be content.. this one song for sure will take you places..pull you out of the insensitivities of the ‘practical’ world and make you dive deep into the sea of emotions.. that is ‘Khamaj’ for you.. stunningly brilliant…soothing and soul stirring as ever.. Life emerges yet again..how much ever frozen your soul might get at times :)

"Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence.. and I learn, whatever state I may be in, there in to be content.."

Back to where you belong... !!!!

Life teaches you some fabulous lessons at times... those moments which will help you view things and people with a fresh perspective a brand new outlook..all those same old things and people seem very different to you then..helps you mould a new outlook about things in general and bring back that zest to live ...love...let love be...Life actually then goes in circles..and starts again from where you thought was the end.. that fab journey through the once trodden path...

Those moments when you start yearning for that safety blanket...the security of a relationship..when you want to view things differently and come out as a new individual altogether after the catharsis... this particular song from the Tamil movie "Paarthale Paravasam" conveys this looking back and rectification amazingly well.."Azhage sukhama" is an unbelievably soulful song..Srinivas Sir and Sadhana Sargham have just done 110% justice to this marvellous composition by ARR.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebLeDwkwAhw&feature

Sometimes it so happens that you realise what you thought was the right choice you made..the right decision you took...needs to be relooked into..but you hesitate to accept it and withdraw into the shell of indifference... but a moment comes when you crave to come out of it to the world of emotions..the much beautiful world which will make you laugh..cry..love..and live..that moment when you start 'living' and not 'existing'... 'Azhage sukhama' tells you about that much needed push which we all must have in life... to refine the person in you ..into a much more accommodating..and understanding individual..

One song which will let you go back to where you belong.. and realise the worth of the ones you left somewhere in your journey of life… that ‘U’ turn to the right destination.. when you find your safest corner in this unforgiving world..when you start living your life afresh, safe in the shadow of your loved ones..and feel secured… It is never too late to correct things.. to say that you care..to show that you love..every moment is an opportunity..make the most of it…never keep it till tomorrow to convey what you feel… a feeling when eyes will be yours and dreams will that be of your loved ones’…

“Fence me in..the world is too big out here…and I don’t like it without you.. and when it gets cold in the winters of my grief..I will surrender and listen to the heat of my heart..”

For a better tomorrow..!!!!!!!!!

This one song had taken back seat for a long time. Thanks to Prashanth,my very good friend for reminding me of this one yet again..and for telling me to look beyond the reasons attached to the temporary detachment I had..:) thanks a ton! One song which makes me experience a lot of beautiful emotions every time I listen to it..one song which made me a much more intense worshipper of the legend ARR ..one song which is synonymous to peace...that is 'Vellai pookkal' from the Tamil movie 'Kannathil Muthamittal'. Maniratnam sir's stunningly brilliant movie which will make you experience love..pain..the joy or parenting..the bliss of motherhood..a million such fab emotions. Music that was made so haunting and divine..music that is so close to reality..music that is a journey between reality and dreams..

The album had one amazing bunch of singers rendering their voices to it making it one stupendous piece of art..It is one song you can listen to through out the day and night..one song you will wish never ended..one song which never left me..no matter how many other songs I heard after it was composed..specially the lyrics of the song so apt and so intense..it rightly captured all the emotions the song wanted to convey..Vairamuthu is one fantabulous lyricist who gave soul to this amazing composition.. a magical tune from the magical composer..one song where all the barriers of language and culture will vanish and where just music will reign..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knubvDUdurM

One song that is so full of hope..positive vibes..a song that will give new life to your dream of a new sunrise amidst all the engulfing darkness..It is true that "Music creates order out of chaos..for melody imposes continuity upon the disjointed.. and rhythm imposes unanimity upon the divergent.."It is absolutely true that we cannot appreciate the miracle of a sunrise unless we have waited in darkness..'Rahman's haunting voice will bind you to the soul of the song and will take you to the unknown heights and depths of music..where you just let yourself free of all worries and heartaches.

Let's not give up on that hope of a better beautiful world to be in..where everyone will see the beauty of rain drops falling and feel the hustle of the gentle breeze passing through the fields cutting across all barriers..let's not stop dreaming about that much awaited tomorrow..where you will see white blossoms of that 'perfect someday'.. let's believe that this is what furthers and perseveres...

"Peace is not something you wish for..it is something you make...something you do..something you are and something you give away... there is no way to peace...peace is the way.."

Let there be light!!!!!

Its diwali yet again...I love this festival of lights.. it makes me very positive...makes me believe in that much cliched saying " there is light at the end of the tunnel.." once read someone's status message on Facebook that "Due to recession the light at the end of the tunnel has been switched off... " lol! I refuse to agree :) there is always light...for the one with eyes to see it...For I totally agree with the mind which said " When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and you are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown...Faith is knowing that one of the two things will happen... There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly..."

This diwali..I just wish and hope everyone out there get the strength to persevere..be strong..and never give up..when people and situations let us down..and we are afraid of the dark..let us believe that there will always be light for to be a star we need to shine your own light...follow your own path and never be worried about the engulfing darkness...coz..it's true that darker the night..brighter the stars shine.." :) and like Paulo Coelho said.. " The darkest hour of the night came just before dawn... " so very true..

"Aashayein" from the movie 'Iqbal' is one mesmerizing ...positive song that spreads a lot of confidence around. The movie was so soul stirring and so was the music...that kept haunting me ever since I heard it first...it is all about hope.. all about keeping that light of hope alive in your mind and soul.. a song that tells you to persevere... a song that tells you to believe in yourself..let this festivities bring in a lot of cheer around.. for each one of us can stay the course...light a star.. and change the world... where ever we are... in what ever situations we are in... let there be light!!!! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOC1kBXPlCg

Something if you feel you need to achieve..something you feel you need to do..just go for it..for as I have always believed that life is what we are living this very moment..this moment is all that we have with us for sure is certain... so live in it..follow your dreams.. there is enough light in your dreams and hope which will show you the way through any darkness...

This post goes out to my personal angel :) with hallow and wings.. for making me believe that angels do exist and life aint that bad after all :) thanks for all that you have done :) through ways big and small.. and for that crash landing into my 'k' serialised life.. :) lol.. you are an amazing friend.. a wonderful human being..may your life be filled with life and happiness :) stay 'angelic' :) stay blessed

"Hope is not certainly the same thing as optimism..it is not the conviction that something will turn out well..but the certainty that something makes sense...no matter what the outcome may be..."

PS : Thanks for the pic and song 'angel'

Silence..the magic spell !!!

Sometimes it feels that talking does not seem to solve much.. sometimes we speak volumes through silence.. I just had such an encounter with the eloquence of silence..and it has left my eyes moist.. we all demand some things to be said to us..most of the time.. things that 'I care'.. ' I luv'..but may be I never tried to understand the beauty of things someone can convey without uttering a word... now I know.. those gentle..subtle deeds and words..matter a lot..it is that which make life much more beautiful and worth living..

One song which comes to my mind now is 'Aahista' by Pankaj Udas...the wow song from the wow musician.. It has always remained in the list of favourites..a song so subtle and as gentle as the breeze that passes through the fields...without making the tiniest of noise.. a serene..soothing experience.. Pankaj Udas is a fab singer and a brillaint musician whom I look upto..A very old track..it still is as fresh as it can get..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qu6QVeRD5VU

The kind of love the song depicts conquers all barriers of culture and nationalities... where life is bliss.. I agree to the saying that "It is only when you have both divine grace and human endeavour that you can experience bliss.." life becomes blissful when you take that extra step to know.. to understand the language of silence..sometimes the most precious moments of your life is wrapped underneath the silence of those unsaid words.. let there be a fresh breeze of unsaid unborn words in our lives... let there be love..

Never miss that gentle wind that blows in to your life... never miss the depth of silence in others.. never let your mind get this feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention to..never let it feel that you did not experience it at all..for it is true that "it is better to know and then accept it rather than not to know and always wonder.." :) coz the most important things in life are not 'things'... so think of it..dream of it...live for it...As Gibran says.. "The reality of a person is not what he reveals to you..but what he cannot reveal..so if you would want to understand him listen not to what he says..but what he does not.. "

"Sometimes I wish that I was the weather...you would bring me up in conversation.. and when it rained.. I would be the talk of the day.."

PS: This song dedicated to the one who made me understand the magical eloquence of silence and the mesmerizing beauty of it.. :) thanks yet again.. I have found my dream!

Reason!

Life gives you some reasons at times to refine yourself…change yourself a bit for the better… Life has given me one such reason to refine the person in me…to let go of all those excess baggage that I have been carrying all this while… It just is a wonderful feeling when you feel that you have lost all that you have one second and after a while you get it all back.. Whatever you have lost all this while.. it is just a fab feeling..

I listen to very few English songs. Can very well say that my knowledge about all those genres of Western music is close to zero.. but yes this one song by Hoobastank has always hit me hard.. ‘The Reason’ is an amazingly brilliant track.. and the the soul stirring lyrics just stands out. It rightly captures the ‘looking back’ that each one of us do at times..where we gauge ourselves and take those steps to bring in that much required change in us ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Q30-2QpZVc

We all wait for that one reason to start it all over again.. and when it comes along..you will just know it for yourself.. Sometimes you just feel like a stranger to your own mind. You fail to understand your own actions and words.. I have always felt that it the most saddest part of loneliness when you don’t understand yourself… but when the right time comes..you get that much needed push where you will be brought back on track and will start living your life with zest..when you start living that ‘someday’ you always have been waiting for..

Everyone has their own imperfections..but it is those small little things which make you what you are..we learn and unlearn a lot of things every day.. It is never too late to start afresh ..it is true that every new beginning starts from some other beginning’s end. But changes are always good..changes for betterment.. never say NO to them.. Never hesitate to say sorry and get it all sorted.. at the end of the day..we are all here for each other.. there is no existence all by oneself…not for long.. it is very true that we all need three things in life…something to do..something to look forward to and someone to love.. I agree totally.. If there is a reason to love..there is a reason for life beyond that as well..

Let’s make that difference today..don’t make thousand reasons to say why you cannot do something…try and get one reason why you can do something about it.. let’s not wait till tomorrow to say or show that you care..to say that ‘yes you have made a difference’ I just wish all the wonderful people out there find their ‘reason’ today… stay blessed!

PS: This post dedicated to my ‘Reason’..for bringing sunshine back into my life.. for being my safest corner in this unforgiving world.. thanks a zillion.. you are the BEST :)

“A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed...It feels an impulsion...this is the place to go now. But the sky knows the reasons and the patterns behind all clouds, and you will know it too, when you lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons.”

Ritu...change of seasons!!

I was a little late in watching this brillaint piece of art by Shyamaprasad Sir.. What a miss it would have been if at all I didn't take time out to get into the change of seasons :)'Ritu' is a stunningly well made movie.. which will take you through a whole lot of emotions at one go... and take you through the intensity of relationships of all kinds...

Rahulraj has always been my favourite..but yes this one album from him has given me a million more reasons to look upto the musician in him...Never thought that one 'just another' saturday would be made something unforgettable coz of the movie and the song 'Pularumo'... Malayalam songs have not lost their charm yet... I won't agree with those who say that...recently could get my hands on the song 'Mizhithammil' from the movie 'Minnaminnikkottam' (thanks to Manu..my musician friend and an awesome human being)..Biji Bal is another wow musician.. Talking about 'Ritu'..it is all about the changing seasons of life. All those transitions captured in one frame.. subtle.. gentle.. and poetic... there is no jazz.. there is nothing loud about the movie..it is as gentle as the waves in a river... those ripples in water.. it is like holding a mirror against your life and watching it through the frame... the very reflection of the changes that every person goes through..

'Pularumo' is haunting... one song which will touch your soul and make you experience love...passion and compassion... the pain...the feeling of belonging... it is just an amazing composition..Rafeeq Ahmed is a discovery for me...he has done a fab job with lyrics.. just brilliant! Gayathri chechi and Sujith are just beyond comparison...just the right amount of emotions in the way they have rendered their voices to make the song a complete experience..soul stirring and mesmerizing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=My9R-UibZ4g&feature

Seasons do change... do we?? Well... such a loaded question to ask..I have always felt it is a wonderful transition..how we pass through each phase of life...just as the way seasons change...Sometimes...days and years passed by like a flash of lightening..yet they crawled along so slowly as I lived them..sometimes we wish somethings never changed...just to preserve them the way they are...the way they have always been..we just wish..but I feel change is always good... depending on which direction are you going..as you move on you discover your inner self... the real you...Life too follows seasonal rhythms..after every gray of winter there is a spring which showers life into the earlier frozen soul...

Like the boatman in the movie says..."This tree which came with the flow of the river from some unknown place...still sheds its leaves thinking its autumn always..." yes it is all about our perceptions... how we view things..I have always longed for a magnifying lens that can view other people's perspective :) life would have been much more simpler then :) we need to navigate the seasons of life and heart...and as Kahlil Gibran says " And you would accept the seasons of your heart just as you have always accepted that seasons pass over your fields and you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief..."

"Let seasons have no fixed returns..at noon our sudden summer burns..and sunset is all snow..."

Touch of dew!!!

Some songs just make you fall in love with everything around you..you start feeling ‘well life aint bad after all’.. I am at that phase of life where I know… 'Future is not what it used to be…’ and it is a fabulous feeling..when life springs in some amazing surprises… and that all time low just gives way for some content smiles..

Some songs are like those dew drops you see in the morning..those drops that remind you of a fresh beginning… a new life… where you open your eyes to see a new sun rise..your revival.. This Malayalam song’ Pular manju pole’ from the album ‘En Jeevane’ is one such amazingly brilliant track. This particular song had caught my attention long long back.. and Sujatha’s stunning voice makes it as mesmerizing as it can get. Karthik has done 110% justice to the composition that is so very fresh and so full of life..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kuukl7r6YrU

Even though I always felt that the video could have made a little more better..the very soulful composition never let me judge the song as a whole. ‘Pular manju pole’ is a dew drop.. fresh.. lively... rejuvenating ..and reassuring…It takes you those unknown shores of life where you lose yourself to find love all over again..Like the famous Haley Bennett song..it’s your ‘way back into love..’it tells you that ‘unconditional’ love still exists and it is such a secure feeling..

The very beautiful feeling of loving someone.. feeling loved.. the feeling of longing… like Buddha once said “This life of separateness may be compared to a dream, a phantasm, a bubble, a shadow, a drop of dew, a flash of lightning.."It is an amazing feeling and this track will make you feel it all over again.. for in the dew of love..life finds its morning and is refreshed..you wake up to be in an unimagined world and its wonderful surprises..


“I must go seek some dew drops here.. And hang a pearl in every drop of tear shed..let there be love”

Rain yet again...!!!!

I am smiling..refreshed.. content.. alive and kicking! Thanks to ‘ Eeram’ and the adorably brilliant songs by the stunningly talented Taman. Again thanks to my ‘Encyclopedia Musica’ for getting me to his music :) you remain my favourite of all times..

I had just known Taman as ‘Krishna’, that cuddly spoilt brat in the Tamil movie ‘Boys’ and thought that he would have given up as an actor and vanished from the scene. When his friends..’Munna, Bobgaly,and Juju made it big in movie industry. :) But here he is making his mark in the whole wide world of music. ‘Eeram’ is fresh,rejuvenating, has a tint of romance.. and will make you fall in love with life yet again..

Shankar as a film maker has always brought into limelight the best of talents and he does it again with ‘Eeram’. It will remind you of the rain. It will fall into your lives as those drops of rain.. making you let go off those sun dried days and memories.. will get you back on track where you forget that ‘wandering mode’ and get back :)Music does wonders always!And yes this album has given me two more favourites.. Ranjith and Suchitra ..they are brilliant! Viveka has done a fab job with his wow lyrics.

The 3 tracks are amazingly composed. ‘ Mazhaye Mazhaye’ …’Saaral En’ and ‘Tharai Erangiya’ make you feel like getting drenched in rain… the first rain…while you are on the move.. when the droplets of rain fall on your face and you are just stretching back and travelling down the memory lane..with a fleeting glance to the much awaited ‘tomorrow’..

http://www.musicindiaonline.com/music/tamil/s/movie_name.11966

One album for the keeps .. One you will never regret buying :) my guarantee!! Lol. The tracks will bring back ‘LIFE’ to your routine and let your mind feel refreshed.. I totally agree with the poet when he said “Into each life some rain must fall..”And when it is raining..just let it rain..

This desert town I live always craves for rain.. I am reminded of those summers spent in the anticipation of the rain..and in the end of the wait when I hear the rain drops fall..my heart beats faster and my breathing slows. I have always felt that the sound of rain drops is the most comforting sound ever…Rain..so beautiful and healing.. soothing and soul stirring.. so let it rain.

“I don't believe in pessimism. If something doesn't come up the way you want, forge ahead. If you think it's going to rain, it will. ..”

Children of Heaven!!!!!

The title inspired from an Iranian movie which I heard is going to be made in Hindi soon by our very own Priyadarshan casting Darsheel Safari, the wonder kid from ‘Taare Zameen Par’. Was just trying to trace those faces down the memory lane. Kids have always amused me..kept my spirits alive..made me smile and made me believe that there is still some amount of goodness remaining in this unforgiving world.

I have always felt that they are God’s messengers from heaven and they try and spread his messages to all. I have been planning to adopt a lot many of them :) and the list seems to grow day by day. Children..they are divine..serene and heavenly. Some of them just get my eyes wet..every time I bump into one of those serene ones stretch their hands for those one rupee coins at traffic signals.. one of those days I decided to do my bit.. if at least one Kid could get something as precious as a safe future.. all it takes for us to compromise on some pizzas and burgers.. some cold coffees and some junk stuff.. it might really help them.

My association with CRY began then… I have never got an opportunity to see that kid who is my link with CRY.. one of those the society addresses with much insensitive terms.. I can never accommodate..The word ‘Mentally retarded’ or ‘Mentally Challenged’. It should be banned I feel..Someday I want to hold her close and tell her that she is not alone.. her dreams are dreams too..

‘Taare Zameen Par’ was one amazingly sensible and brilliant movie which dealt with a much more sensitive issue in an extremely sensible way. ‘Ishaan’ is there among us… there are a million other kids like him. Those ones who really don’t have the privilege of being born in a family that can afford to ladder them reach those stars. The shining stars of their dreams and aspirations… With an amazingly soul stirring rendition by my all time favourite Shanker Mahadevan, the title track stands out from the rest of the tracks in the album. One movie for the collection of sensible movies. Aamir. You are just brilliant and I have immense respect for your talent. This one song for all those divine ones out there.. and for all those yet to be born!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-XAVPqbrxWc

Those serene sweet little ones who are as pure as those dew drops..those adorable bundles of joy and our hope for a better tomorrow..Let’s not let their dreams perish.. let those buds bloom..let those little tiny feet pitter patter its ways into the world of dreams and promises. Let them have in them..the urge to dream..the will to succeed and unlock the door to the promised world of wonders. Like the American author Kate Douglas said once..” Every child born into the world is a new thought of God, an ever fresh and radiant possibility”… Join the journey..do your bit today.. you can give colours to some one’s sunset sky too..

“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.”

PS: Thanks 'achayaa' for that chit chat.. you gave me a thought :) stay blessed!!

Until..!!!

You sometimes tend to take things totally for granted. Some things seem insignificant to you, but in real they actually turn your life around and make you realize that you should have taken a little more care… can remember a trillion such things that happened till date…Seems like today is that ‘someday’ when life till date start reflecting in front of eyes like a recap..

Never knew a cough that was bothering me for a long time would take the form of an interesting illness that will take my ‘breath’ away…literally…lol..never knew one such thing as ‘caste’ which I had only seen mentioned in my SSLC certificate will be a reason for letting go of the most priceless and precious thing of life..didn’t know that being too open and honest actually pays its price..small things do make a difference.. Sometimes one word that you really ‘care’ needs to be said at the right time. Never take that for granted...They say it’s a wonderful feeling when you lose all that you have this very moment and get them back..but to be brutally honest..it does not happen always..still you wish for it.. :) that’s the way of life

One song that reflects this emotion is ‘Kitni baatein’ from the stunningly brilliant movie ‘Lakshya’. One song that caught my attention the very first time I heard it as a caller tune in my kid bro’s phone … (Thanks Kanna for making me wait for you pick up the call…your proud sis :) lol )Still wondering how I missed it when I watched the movie!! Soothing.. soul stirring and touchy..that’s ‘Kitni baatein’ for you. The lyrics is just mesmerizing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NC8Oft5vfnw

No matter how careful you are .. at times you have this sense that you missed something ..there is this feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention . .. so listen to your mind..and just give voice to your thoughts.. don’t always hold back

I have always felt that “You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind….” Sometimes you need to learn what changes you need to make to turn your life around and then go for it.. rather than letting the life you dreamt of get washed away in the storm ..right in front of your eyes…!!!Indecision brings its own delays.. so just don’t keep it for another day… what you can do..or dream you can.. seize it this very moment..so that some days and years down the lane you don’t sit and take a sigh of regret for something you didn’t say or do..because not really all the treasures on earth can bring back one lost moment of your life.. so just go for it.. live in such a way that memories will be part of your happiness..

“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live….I find that the further I go back, the better things were, whether they happened or not..”

Longing…!!!!!

To long for something… its an amazing feeling… you never get tired of doing that..I have loved this too.. have always been fond of the silence of night.. the longing it brings along.. the hopes and dreams of a new sunrise that is covered in its unknown depths…where you set your mind at ease and let it flow…

Sometimes I feel that we are all prisoners in the glass house of dreams.. from where can see sunrises and sunsets and you live in the hope of being able to get into the world outside where you have always wanted to be…I have always wished for hope to be like stars.. the darker the night..the brighter they shine..and that you should live your life to the fullest that in the end..when it’s the sunset of your life…there will be nothing left for the inevitable to steal from you..

We should keep this spark alive.. the longing to live.. to smile..to love..to be loved..One song that has been haunting me…and which is so profound in its lyrics is ‘Shauk he’ from the movie ‘Guru’. It was used as Meenu’s (Vidya Balan’s)theme music in the movie and undoubtedly remains my favourite track from the album. Kudos to Soumya Rao, the exceptionally talented singer for her exceptionally brilliant singing!!! You are just fabulous..stay blessed!Gulzar sahib’s lyrics is divine it has that heavenly touch as ever!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZeOTYd2mSaE&feature

We are all here to ‘live’..not just to ‘exist’..Like Ayn Rand once said.. “Do not let the spark in your soul perish..in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach..The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is possible, it is real..its yours….” Instead of thinking about what we are missing let’s think about what we have that others are missing...life becomes much more pleasant that way..you feel blessed

Let's long for that spark..the spark of a dream in our lives..a new hope and a new sunrise..and when todays’ sun has set to sleep in the silence of another night..let me long to keep that spark of my dream alive..and close my eyes listening to the soulful song of my hope.... I long for!!!!

“Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light, I have loved the stars too fondly ..to be fearful of the night…”

Some ‘rainy’ thoughts..!!!!

Rain has always brought along with it some realizations and some memories.. It has been like that all these years. There is nothing fake about rain..it just shows things and people as they are..in their true natural self. This monsoon I got myself lucky enough to be staying at home… God’s and my own country ..lol : ) when I just looked outside my window and heard the rain my mind kept wandering looking for some answers which I know that I might never find…

As a kid I have always loved the rain…always wished that instead of raining cats and dogs..it rained pearls and crystals in everyone's lives..even now it doesn’t seem to have changed a bit. Hail stones is something which amuses me even now.. they just look amazing..from far though…still remember getting drenched in rain one day at Bangalore when I was getting back from a movie.. Hail stones were falling…and trust me it doesn’t feel so good when you are out in it.. some situations are such. You just feel that it might be so good to get there.. but yes when you actually get there…you realize that it was much better before.. things were fine as they were. This change was actually not required. But yes, another learning..another stepping stone for you…the only positive way of looking at it..

The rain, which had fallen quietly at first, is now pelting against the windowpanes, driven by a gentle wind..Sipping this piping hot tea and listening to the wonderful tunes rain is composing outside.. I am reminded of the fantabulous track by Ustad Sultan Khan..’ Kate nahin raat’. That was one ‘wow’ song which is soul stirring and will haunt you down the memory lane..Ustad has always amazed me with his unique voice and the way he creates magic with Sarangi..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7a7xrlu4kH8&feature

‘kate nahin raat’ is all about the pain of waiting.. the much clichéd..the much discussed..the much written about waiting..but there is something about the lyrics which is so close to your soul…the tune is simple yet serene..and the entire flow of the song will make you fall in love with it.. Someone said it right.. ““Waiting is a trap. There will always be reasons to wait. The truth is, there are only two things in life, reasons and results, and reasons simply don't count.”But yes feelings are not rational or logical..I love to wait : ) yet again rain just washes of my mask off ‘practicality’. The air is resonant with melody..love ..and pain....my words got their voice from the rain..

“There are stars who's light only reaches the earth long after they have fallen apart. There are people who's remembrance gives light in this world, long after they are gone..This light shines in our darkest nights on the road we must follow...and this rain keeps our soul alive..”

Conditions Apply!!!!!!

Is there something called ‘Unconditional’ in reality? Quite a loaded question! Some say that groundless hope like unconditional love is the only thing worth having even when you feel the sand under your feet is getting washed away every second... May be I belong to this category.. Some times it feels like the journey through a desert where you get carried away by the non-existent notion of an oasis… the more you get close to it..the more far it seems…but still you walk..thinking..someday sooner or later you will get there… “Hope certainly is not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well..but the certainty that something makes sense..no matter what the outcome might be..” so very true…

These days everything and everyone comes with a tag attached.. most of the times is so.. The one good thing about such situations is that you then try to make the most of what you have with you..coz you know sooner or later..it is going to be your ‘then’..I feel what we all fail to realize is the fact that life in itself is temporary and uncertain..We are all visitors to this place..this time..we are just passing through..If we start viewing everything this way..life can be made a celebration .. something worth living..

It is very easy to say “I quit, I give up.. when am all alone nothing is good enough for anyone else.. it seems this is the best way to be..When am by myself no one else can say Good Bye..” what is more important is to be like Kahlil Gibran once proposed “But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love.. let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.”

‘Rehna Tu’ from the movie ‘Delhi 6’ has this magnificent lyrics that will haunt you day and night. Prasoon Joshi has done a fantabulous job as always and the music by ARR needs no introduction. This one song will remind you of the need to accept situations and people the way they are and about the magic of unconditional love. Like Tagore once said.. “If you want to enjoy the beauty of a flower..don’t pluck its petals..let it be..” ‘Rehna Tu’ is fabulous and will just ease your mind and let it float among the unknown skies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkbrQcjiy10&feature

Let there be no tags attached. Let love not come with a date of expiry.. It is a wonderful feeling..a weird one :) when you know that the end of something beautiful is coming but you still want to hold on.. for few more seconds so that it can hurt a little more..when you sit back and think after years.. when you are in the dawn of your journey called life..So let it rain love.. let this drizzle last in our dreams..as a soothing touch of relief in the wounds once made..

“You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday…or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday..for it was not into my ears you whispered but into my soul…I hold it true whatever befall”

What if????!!!!

I am all of a sudden reminded of this Tamil movie 12B. It was actually speaking a movie with a different script but didn’t click well with the audience. It captures two ‘lives’ of the hero. One where he misses a bus and one where he actually gets into the bus. Yes the question there again is ‘what if?’ It is amusing to think how it would have been if things were otherwise.(Guess this surprise break from routine is really making me ‘Think’ lol)

Life does not always give you a choice. It seems at times that this life too short or rather too small for the word ‘hate’. I have discovered that when you are left with no choice you kind of disconnect yourself from what you truly want and all that is left is compromise. That is when you tend to pose this question to yourself. ‘What if things were otherwise?’ Like someone rightly said, “When you have to make a choice and you don’t make it, that is in itself a choice.” Some times you cant’ have what you are longing for even if you sacrifice everything else for it.

Some situations in life make you wish to go back to how it was before. To bring back those memories and moments. To walk through the same ways yet again and to dream those dreams once again. I am just wishing for something like the rewind button in a music player. Don’t feel the need of the ‘shift delete’ button anymore. If you could actually get there and change or correct things which led you to where you are this moment. Quite a realistic wish I see :)

Hariharan sir has always amazed me with his soul stirring voice. ‘kaash’ remains an all time favourite. This particular song did not get noticed when compared to the title track of the album. Mesmerizing is what I can call this track ‘Jhoom le’ from the album ‘Kaash”.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEKibg7nhi0

This one song for all those memories that I want to bring back ..those moments and those smiles…those smiles and tears..those hopes and dreams dreamt. Life indeed takes twists and turns. Sometimes you long to get back right there and might not really be able to do that. Doing so you kind of end up living these two rather strange ‘lives’ simultaneously and to end up in a state of bewilderment. But yes the truth is there is only this moment..there is only this..or else life is yours that you will miss..so make the most of it.. walk in the rain.. feel the breeze.. dream of dreaming yet again..

“Where ‘you’ used to be..there is a void in my world.. I see myself constantly walking around that during day time and falling in at night.. And I am glad then I didn’t know it all would end the way it all would go.. Am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. These words may stay forever in my heart locked inside..may be there are words locked inside you too.. May be I will never know.. what if???!!!”

Let go..!!!

Sometimes it is always good to let go of certain things and certain people… But as some one rightly said once “ Letting go does not always mean giving up, but rather accepting the fact that there are things that cannot be…” You at times tend to ask the question ‘ Why not?’ but yes it doesn’t offer an answer always…This very moment is the only thing you have that is certain… so hold on to it.. rather than getting lost in the blurred picture of the thing called ‘ future’

The title track from ‘Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam’ was one such song. It has so beautifully captured the art of ‘letting go’. But still in the unknown corners of your mind, there are things that we never want to let go off, people we never want to leave behind and walk away…but at times..it stays locked in there…safe and sound.. Ismail Durbar has so stunningly composed the entire album that is so soulful and full of life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1YtQpePwUEg&feature

I have always felt that the logic to get to know people better is to trust them for who they are …but always we trust them for whom we want them to be and in the end we remain disheartened. It is when we let go.. We all are responsible..! Although we won’t be able to stop the worst from happening… we are all responsible for our attitude towards the misfortunes that darken our lives..We can choose to sit deserted or decide to rise from the loss and cherish the most precious gift we have …life itself!

“Here I stand.. seeing you walk away…Well..now on I will never have a place to call my very own.. That’s all right you..my ‘life’..you are my home…”

PS: Post dedicated specially to my priceless treasure..for always making me smile.. and for being there unconditionally! : )

To be..!!!

Change..!!!…life is all about changes. There comes a point when you feel this is it and am gonna be living in this way. But not yet…there comes an unexpected change…and again the circle goes on.

It feels strange at times. When you are taken off from all your much used ways and habits. Just a strange new world...!!! Where you are just by yourself…. trying to see how life has changed and how things around you have changed. Slowly but certainly you start getting used to the changes.. and move on with the flow. Sometimes you yearn for it..most of the times it comes to you. That is the very unique thing about the concept of change..

Sudden diversions are sometimes really good. It gives you a lot of time to be with yourself and understand the person in you. But still you tend to cling on to those memories and start breathing life..all over again…Everything around you seems to have changed..but you!

Sometimes you yearn for a whiff of fresh air. ‘Akale’ was one such masterpiece from my all time favourite Shyamaprasad Sir. The title track will do wonders to you. With a touch of Beethoven’s Symphony, the entire album has that divinity attached to it which will help you let go off everything else haunting you..just let your mind wander into the unknown heights and depths..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQXciqVmjDg

“ I didn’t ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that’s the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets..”

Nouvelle Vie!!!

The title is just a reflection of the new craze that I have developed…this love for French as a language : ) Life has given me this 'surprise' break from all the madness and from all the daily to do lists…so thought would make the most of it and do something off the track…

Have been diving deep in to songs..movies and a lot more of it.. and having some realizations that have helped me move on..and face everything with my much clichéd 70 mm smile..I have learned to hold fast on to my dreams and hopes ..as someone once said..if dreams die..life is life a broken winged bird that cannot fly! It just seems hard at times.. but for every dark night there is a bright sunrise awaiting you.. and the things that you fear are just undefeatable not by their nature but by the way you look at it. The same old logic of seeing half glass empty/full : )

“Nouvelle Vie” means “New Life” and this particular song from the wonderfully made movie ‘Phir Milenge’, which gave out a fantabulous message, reminds us of the fact that it is never too late to start living a new life. There is always a new way to look at things…if you don’t have all the things you want ..you need to be grateful for those things as you don’t want them in your life actually. You can still do without : ) “Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”I agree to this two hundred percent!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XD71iDZtT0

Conquering any obstacle has always given me a secret joy. It has always meant pushing back a boundary line and adding on to one’s liberty. It just meant not to be dragged into silence and never let anyone define life for you but yourself. Knowing this, still most of us live life without making a stand, contented to blend into the background of self-rendering nothingness, and when looking back feel contented at our mediocre accomplishments. No one remembers the drops but the ocean…

“When you have come to the edge Of all light that you know And are about to drop off into the darkness Of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or You will be taught to fly”

Ending notes!!!

The title inspired from a show which used to appear in a Malayalam channel years back. The only serial I used to wait for just for the title track and then just get lost in the very feel of it. ‘Shamanathalam’ , directed by the much respected and talented one, Shyamaprasad Sir, was not just any other serial. It had this so close to life feel.. soul stirring music and BGM..

How I wish everyone could understand ‘Malayalam’ as a language just to understand the depth and intensity of this song and the out of the world lyrics. But music speaks this universal language which every soul can comprehend.. One song that captures the various seasons of your heart. Chithra chechi’s best non film song anytime. If not for Manu aka Chai D Celeb I would not have been reminded of this fantabulous song after so many years. Thanks a trillion Manu and thanks to those amazing memories.. Have been listening to this nonstop for almost four days now and still can't get enough of it...serene..divine..haunting..that is 'Manveenayil' for you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WM42tTVLciU

The whole flow of the song just makes it stand out from the rest of the many million songs that we hear and forget. There is not much jazz. Just the right amount of BGM that is required where the song and the lyrics are given priority and not the kind of magic ‘software’ plays these days.

One song which will bring you back to those memories which you would have believed that you have actually let go off.. but still are residing somewhere in the unknown depths of your soul..It actually feels like getting up from a long deep sleep and you still find yourself at a place from where you had once ‘moved on’..But when you try touching that reality once again you kind of realize that it was again nothing but just a dream..

“The tender word forgotten, The letter you did not write.. What moves me about? Perhaps this is our strange and haunting paradox..that we are fixed and certain only when we are in movement”

Celebration of motherhood!!!!

It is perhaps one of the most beautiful feelings in the world. It is a feeling that can only truly be understood by those that experience it…Someone once said.. “When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child…”

Started getting this feeling exactly a year before when I first saw her pitter patter her ways into my life. I felt so content…felt that.. well..now there is something that I have to take care of..pamper..nurture and see growing up…It has been said that we need just three things in life.. Something to do, something to look forward to and someone to love

One year went like one second…and today when I look back I have a lot of memories associated with her…more memories than I was a thousand year old…some awesome ones..some good ones…some not so good ones…but I hold each and every one of those so close to my heart.

It was a fantabulous journey and I am looking forward to many more years of growing up with her…Happy Birthday to you!! Yes Serenity is an year old today (28th March) and I am just feeling time and again like a mixed fruit jam…lol. Just would want to say a BIG thanks to all of you out there who have been bearing with my loud thinking all this while.. Thanks a trillion…

Karthik- For inspiring me to start ‘Serenity’ you will be my Encyclopedia musica for all the years to come
Ettan- For being that gentle breeze of my life all these years..stay blessed
Mejoettan- For keeping the music in me alive..
Sandipettan and Mamtachechi- For making me believe that unconditional love exists even now
Praji aka Luttu- For being my pillar of strength..my best friend for life
Manu aka Chaai D Celeb aka the thoughtful one- For keeping my spirits alive calling my posts ‘K’ serial …lol..You are one amazing friend
Gulfu aka my web guru- For all those html edits..comments and pep talks…thanks pal
My favourite butterfly- For stopping me from deleting ‘Serenity’ one of those days .. Love you for this and for many other reasons
Gopi aka the sweetest one- I don't believe you actually edited your about me on orkut and put up a note about 'Serenity' am still smiling with my eyes filled

Vaava... Maash..Govind kuttan, Rachi,Sonia, Tintu,Ratheesh ettan,chakku, and a lot many out there who have been religiously sending me feedback and suggestions..for always being the wind beneath my wings..A simple ‘THANKS’ is too small a word to express what it means to me. I have known that words can never replace feelings….

These songs go out for all of you..my angelic parents and for all the wonderful people out there..just a few picks from my favourite lists..

'Etho vaarmukilin' from the Malayalam movie 'Pookkaalam varavaayi'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AY0ZBjBvKyg

'Sutrum vizhisudar thaan' from the Tamil movie 'Kandukonden Kandukonden'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_bVG1fluw8

'Luka chupi' from the Hindi movie 'Rang De Basanti'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iB-PMhP7NRk

'Thendrale' from the Tamil movie 'Kaadhal Desam'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyBmG9ZZnLM

'Kannukku mayyazhaku' from the Tamil movie 'Puthiyamukham'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO9AemTUNb0

“Since I grew tired of the chase…..And search, I learned to find….
And since the wind blows in my face…I sail with every wind….”

Let there be rain!!!!

When you close your eyes and listen….drops of rain do speak volumes. I have always been madly in love with rain… It just feels awesome how it washes the dust of everyday life and how it breathes new life in to everything and everyone. It freshens up your spirit and the rain drops seem to play a sweet refrain. It paints a lot of amazing pictures in your mind…

It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. But there is an element of surprise to it…..like summer rains… It is a beautiful creation. Kind of brings out the mystery in you and me. Some songs and some people are like summer rain. They come into your life when you least expect them.

Like Tagore once said….“That I exist is a perpetual surprise which is life…”And I always have felt that the best things in life are always unexpected… for almost all the best things that came into my life were unexpected. And I believe that you will truly understand the essence of life when you allow the unexpected to happen…

This one song will fall into your life like those first few drops of rain.. The Tamil movie “May Maadham” was well made and all the songs were much talked about. But of all, “Yenmel Vizhunda” stands out just because of the very freshness it brings along with it and the very same volumes it speaks through the magnificent lyrics.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdFAbPbgHmY

“Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of the rocks are timeless raindrops… I am no Poet here; my pen's the spout where the rain water of my eyes run out.”

Off the track!!!!

Have heard a lot of songs which didn’t get the attention they deserved, and were kind of disappointing because of the way they have been shot. It is really unfortunate that the wow music and lyrics is seen as just another song. But yes… it did hit my senses hard. I then learnt the art of listening to the song alone and seeing through the video (with the logic ‘Ignorance is bliss’)

How I wish these ‘off track’ ones were visual wise well done. This post is simply for picking and choosing a few such songs and a dedication for ones who went ‘off the track’ knowingly or unknowingly and ended up in a different destination. “When all's said and done, all roads lead to the same end. So it's not so much which road you take, as how you take it..” so very true!

‘Swasame’ from the Tamil movie ‘Thenali’

This amazing composition from none other than ARR got its soul in SPB’s and Sadhana Sargam’s divine voices. But, can kind of justify the picturization, taking into consideration the fact that, the movie was a Comedy and yes Vijay Pa’s lyrics stands out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4pNqGc9s8w

‘Ini naanum naanille’ from the Tamil movie ‘ Hey nee romba azhaga irukken’

Still can’t’ believe I actually watched this nonsensical movie over a dozen times just and just for the music. The album was remarkable in way that it had about five composers. Srinivas Sir and Sujatha are as astounding as always.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnB7dy7LLeg

‘Malargale’ from the Tamil movie ‘Love Birds’
Another magical track from ARR, this song has always been in the all time favourites chart. Chithra chechi is my nightingale, my God mother and all that. Hariharan sir’s voice compliments the entire feel of the song. Can’t begin to compliment the fantabulous lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5Eki8yqOTs

These are the ones that just came to mind first. The list goes on, but as long as it is music..we listen…. :) :) :) :)

“I seldom end up where I wanted to go.. but I almost always end up where I need to be..”

Touch of breeze!!!!!

Some songs make you forget everything. It breathes new life into you. Some people have this magic in their voices. Hariharan ji has always amazed me with his soothing and charismatic voice. God has taken extra care while creating such souls. I would have missed this one royally till I got reminded of this song again by a thoughtful someone today.

1947 Earth was a much discussed well acclaimed movie. The songs I believe didn’t get the attention that they deserved. And am kind of feeling bad about the fact that despite of having almost all good collections of ARR .I just missed out on this one. But yes, atleast now. Lyrics is one thing which can’t be missed. Javed Akthar Sahab has always wowed us all with his just so close to life lyrics. Rejuvenating…so full of life…

Another remarkable musical score by ARR that has meaningful and powerful poetry, the nine astounding tracks in the album will just take you places and make you feel that Life aint all that bad at the end of it . It has that tint of vibrant notes which makes it soulful and reassuring. This one goes out to the thoughtful someone and the angel without wings but has a doubt of hallow..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwXdRxuOEQM&NR=1

Something in the song will just ask you to approach each day with zest…to love..to laugh and to live.. “No Winter lasts forever…no Spring skips its turn…And even Autumn is a second spring where every leaf is a flower” that just says it all. It is a gentle breeze which will keep up a kind of daylight in your mind, filling it with a steady and perpetual serenity.

“I seldom think about my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers...and with that breeze drying the tears in my cheeks I think about the gentle breeze in my life..”

One day for being ‘HER’!!!!!!!!!

It was only when one of my friends messaged me HAPPY WOMEN’S DAY did I realize that one Sunday when I was practically doing nothing but just diving deep into songs and a lot more of it was actually ‘one’ day to celebrate womanhood. The realization sunk in with many more messages..newspapers writing about so many of them..famous..not so famous..and a whole bunch out there who suddenly are glorified Ok..let me not sound like a feminist and say why only one day and all that..lol

The intention behind this post is simple..It is very very personal and just could not help writing it. ..lol..Just wanted to tell three wonderful women I know that they are way too special in a million unique ways. Rachi aka my angel from heaven, Tintu aka my VH1 and F.R.I.E.N.D.S freak, Sonia aka my best bully, confidant and my confession box. So.. my Women’s day eve was with them and was just very special.. (and am still smiling…)

Angels do exist. My angel has no wings but yes I doubt there is a hallow somewhere. “When angels visit us, we do not hear the rustle of wings, nor feel the feathery touch of the breast of a dove; but we know their presence by the love they spread in our hearts…” someone coined it right. I can feel it too..Rachi.. you are a wonderful sis. an amazing daughter and just the BEST wifey… an all rounder.. I look up to you for all that you are (but I still envy your eyes…lol) “For there is no friend like a sister, in calm or stormy weather, to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen whilst one stands…” and this is just you… love you so very much

Sipping my boring cappuccino (thanks to my messed up throat..sighhhh) and talking about almost everything under the sun, time and again I get reminded of the fact that these guys are just amazing. The best roomies I have ever had. Tintu and Sonia. I still wonder with my eyes wide open..what do we talk so much every day till 1.. 2 in the morning as though there is no tomorrow??!!! Well not of course about Women empowerment, but ya about the small little things that make our rented house a home and have given it a soul. Wishing you both nothing but the BEST …in whatever you do..where ever you go. “Even though we're changing and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends..”

This one goes out for you three and for all the wonderful women in the world…for all those who can dream that there is no such place called as far away.. ( all men please excuse..let me be a little biased here..lol) Directed by my Idol Maniratnam, this Tamil movie “Kannathil Muthamittal” was unbelievably amazing with its amazing story line and the wonderful aspects of womanhood that it had touched. Again , none other than the legend with his ‘Rahmania’ amazed millions with the album that still remains a favourite. Chinmayi you are my adorable darling and will remain so no matter how many singers will come..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKh4lsR5vIo&feature

PS: My favourite butterfly..Indu…this one for you too…much love

"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I will look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and follow them where they lead."