Friday, February 27, 2009

Life’s virtuous circle!!!!!

Some things are unreal to the core.. and some people too.. They are too good to believe that they actually exist. Was thinking about Paulo Coelho’s ‘Alchemist ‘ of the very very very few books I have read. Certain situations are like what the author details in his Santiago’s journey(the protagonist). You go around looking for that fortune everywhere else but your home and come back to realize that you have the thing you were looking for right there …from where you started.. By the end of the novel, he discovers that "treasure lies where your heart belongs", and that the treasure was the journey itself, the discoveries he made, and the wisdom he acquired.

Life goes in circles at times, and the journey gets quite interesting. Second time when you cross the path already trodden you tend to notice more, pay more attention to detail and ask yourself ..”Why didn’t I realize this was there then??” But the truth is it has always been there, just that we didn’t notice..

Some things and people whom you never gave enough attention to.. whom you took for granted…such realities start flashing in front of your eyes..People whom you knew came with the package.. Some real close ones and some very special some ones whom you were not paying the attention they deserved. Again I would like those special ones to know that it was just because they have become a comfortable trusted element in life and you know they are there no matter ways big and small!

This one song goes out for all those real thoughtful ones.. ‘Life in a metro’ was one movie that was amazing. Pritam as a composer reemphasized his presence in my favourites list with ‘In Dino’ song that will stay for another hundred years with its, meaningful lyrics and soul stirring rhythm.

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for..” One of the wonderful lessons life teaches us. I have always felt that one of the best things about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between the stage of asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened. You wake up and realize it was just a dream. But I would say we need to follow our dreams. It is never too late to dream a new dream!

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about the beautiful thing called love.. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along. Then, I’ll do my dreaming with my eyes wide open, and I'll do my looking back with my eyes closed”

Monday, February 23, 2009

‘Rahmania’ beckons!!!!!!!!

Was waiting for the moment… “and yes the Oscar goes to”… I was holding my breath.. was on my toes.. Screamed out of joy when I heard them take his name.. Was waiting for this day to write something about the much much much acclaimed..criticized…talked about movie and the legendary behind ‘Jai ho’. Many of us felt it is not his best composition…but for me it was the grand entry he had to the world of Oscars… making us all proud… yes he is priceless… not just a million or trillion… just priceless…blessed..and divine! Was fortunate enough to see him receive the award out there.. felt that I was right there…even though miles away.. felt like I won ..every music lover would have felt the same..

The movie was so well made.. again perceptions vary! For me if ARR is there…it just can’t go wrong. Kind of addiction I Music that haunts you.. music that grows in you influencing and touching every bit of that touches your that stands out ..that is ARR magic.

It is a dream…which I have been cherishing ever since I have heard his meet him once and then come what may… I will be fine. Those years of growing up listening to Roja..till present.. when I went and watched movies like ‘Yuvvraaj’ (sighhh) just for his music… no regrets but..A man who needs no introduction..a man of few words..but whose music speaks volumes.. have almost all his compositions which I keep listening to time and again..

"All my life I had a choice between hate and love. I chose love and I am here," said Rahman after receiving his second golden statuette…that’s the very unique thing about him.. ending his first acceptance speech in Tamil.. Saying that my mom is here I have her blessings.. this day and this award ceremony has given a million more reasons to look up to him..the astounding musician and the unbelievably amazing human being…

The world has known..India is not just about stinking slums and dark realities of life ..but yes we have people like you and we are priceless..There is a much brighter and better side to the choice you made in life..of choosing love over hatred.. hope all the people out there follow suit.. Keep composing..keep amazing the world for another million years to come..stay blessed!!! Touch Gold :)

“Whatever deceptions life may have in store for you, music itself is not going to let you down.. Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”

Friday, February 13, 2009

Elegy on existence!!!!!

"Soul one: Hey.. what happened to the thing which I gave you?

Soul two: Which thing?? That bloody reddish thing? That looked really weird I say

Soul one: Yes!!!

Soul two: I just left it there outside the dustbin..guess by this time it would be in pieces. I could see ants all around that..yuck! why?? Was it something that you needed?

Soul one:…that was my heart.."
And then silence prevailed…!!!!!!!!!!

“So in the dark I hide the heart that bleeds, And wait, and tend my agonizing seeds. In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart, bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees.”

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Shift ..delete!!!!

Like many of you out there even I am searching for the magic eraser which will forever erase those memories away. (Guess we have to wait much longer for such an invention)Those ones which we don’t need.. those memories which always make you feel like less of a person. ..We just don’t need them. And at times we get ruled over totally by our emotions and reason won’t be even near your vicinity. ..times when you see that willful slaughter of promises given and dreams dreamt of ..

I too ask this question many a time.. why do we punish ourselves for things which we have not done. But some people are moulded this way… you and me just forgive no matter what the damage has been.. forgetting never happens though.. Guess I am yet to master the art of ‘moving on’ be it be anything… manufacturing defect I

Wish things were that easy as it sounds like.. one click ..’shift’ and then the ‘delete’ button and you are fine. Guess it doesn’t happen like that always. ..but you know there is no harm in trying.. if at all now after all these years I am showing symptoms of improvement it is because of some real thoughtful some ones in my life.. those people who were always there no matter what.. can’t begin to thank them for all that they have done for me.. for listening without judging..for knowing without asking.. for accepting me just the way I am..

We all live out short little life in a trillion different ways.. why not make it worthwhile..rather than waiting for something in vain…a day lost is is never going to come back to you.. I am almost getting my PhD …have been researching in the literature of waiting for a long time now.. would not want anyone else to feel that way.. let that one doctorate be patented..all rights

Shaan is an amazingly talented singer.. this one song for all my people out there …seriously I am improving…and this is sign number and the biggest realisation of my life ' Some how a man's heart is either exceeding the speed limit, or getting parked in the wrong place..'

“As the days seem to go on endlessly, I await the 'someday' I've always been promised. That 'someday' when things are supposed to be perfect... the 'someday' when I find my place in this unforgiving world…”

Friday, February 6, 2009


What is the colour of darkness.. it aint black! It has those shades of insanity which can never be captured in any colour. I have no qualms in admitting that I was a scared child. Darkness always scared me. I loved colours.. and hated the darker side of this world.. tried seeing only the brighter side of darkness..those rays of light ..those rays of hope..that very thing called life beyond all these madness.

Many a time we shed tears for ones who are not worth it. …those people who never deserved even a second of your life.. whom you thought were the soul to your existence… Those people who take you to a different world where you have never been before and leave you all alone..stranded..lost..hurt…deserted.. And you fail to understand why??! But at last in the end reasons doesn’t not count at all.. is true..if there is a reason to love.. there is a reason for life beyond that as well…

Those moments that took away the colours of life..One last drop of tear for all those moments.. But they will never get to see this one last drop I shed.. they don’t deserve to.. It belongs to me and to those memories tearing me apart every second..let it be with me..when I collect those shattered pieces of hope..and decide to look ahead..and still dream of a safe tomorrow..
Shafqat and Fuzon needs no introduction.. this one song is for all those moments and people..for painting me with the colour of darkness. He who said “I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry...” captures to an extend what it feels like..

“So hold her closer when she cries, hold her closer when she feels. She needs a hand to hold, someone who will never let her go again. And hold him closer when he tries to hold the tears back from his eyes. Don't say goodbye.”