While you were sleeping...!

Title inspired from an article I happened to read in one of those weekend magazines in my desert city. Unlike the usual reads full of shallow materialism, this particular article spoke about Brianna, a nurse and Nate Lytle , a miracle survivor of a disastrous accident. How Brianna never guessed when she started her nursing shift that she would fall for a patient in coma…how she used to speak to Nate while he was unconscious and how she felt that one of a kind..strange connection with him… which happens only once in  a life time… when love gets eternal…

At a time when I was almost doubting the existence of anything ‘unconditional’ in this unforgiving world… God made me browse through the pages of that magazine..when yet again.. my beliefs about life..love..and the existence of that ‘someday’ when everything falls in place.. were rekindled. For that’s the way with life… the unique strange thing about it.. when we are almost on the verge of giving up.. life gives you something to hold on.. something to start living all over again. True that sometimes it’s better not to worry about not having someone by our side.. or to worry about not finding that unique kind of connect with anyone… instead… cherish each moment of being in love.. with life.. with all the good and bad it throws at you.. spend the rest of your life making memories.. happy..positive..serene ones...

Sometimes we all find love in the unlikeliest of circumstances.. when you start looking at life with a whole new perspective.. ‘Veyilaay oru naal’ from the Malayalam movie ‘Unnam’ is one such song which got to me when I had almost lost touch with my reflection…my blog. Didn’t want to wait till tomorrow to write about this track. Penned sacredly by Rafeeq Ahmed sir and given the soulful tune by Sri John P Varkey, ‘Veyilaay’ is a heavenly track which touched my soul…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOYmqPTPbf8

Though I could not appreciate or relate to the way the song has been used in the movie,  I just could not look through the soul of the fabulous melody which beautifully captures the most unconditional form of the divine emotion. Again another realization that.. quite often things are not exactly the same as they appear…shallow turns out to be deep and what appears to be the most intense thing..turns out to be nothing but chaff. It’s unfortunate that just like the song.. many of us look through he abundance we have in our lives… just not content..always looking for something else.. when some where during the course of search.. we lose ourselves… when we eventually realize what we have left behind is what we needed the most… what we crushed under our feet is what gave meaning to our existence…

While the song begins to play one more time in my phone… I close my eyes and wish that at some stage ..we all find that priceless unconditional love Nate got from Brianna…  as for my part, I wish to be that dew that melts away after watering your much dried soul.. when it rains ..wish to be that ray of light which would make you warm and  then fade away… wish to be that prayer which will keep you safe.. just to be that silent breathe that follows you where ever you go living your life. In a world I can be anything…I wish to be myself…! Yes, there is dew in my desert..

‘Who wants to live forever.. I would rather live my memories with you and breathe my last…If you are cold at night..let the promise of my love for you..cover you warm..’

PS: Thank you 'achayan' for the song Mp3. Priceless gift

Serene shades of love..!!!!!

I have always been fond of writing letters… long and small..letters of all kinds used to amuse me.. brighten up my days… used to insist to my people that they write to me… even if a small post card. I feel a handwritten note makes a lot of difference…its much more personal…direct.. and so close to life.. Someone so well said it “What a lot we lost when we stopped writing letters. You can't reread a phone call.”

Watched this movie ‘Welcome to Sajjanpur’ just for my love of letters… to see the protagonist who writes letters and lives his dreams through them… The magical track’ Ek meetha marz dene’ caught my attention the very first time I listened to it. Its been a while and I had almost forgotten about it…(Thanks to my red bull for the timely reminder about this and a lot of other things )

The song magically captures the purest form of love… love that is so divine..serene…and magical… where you love unconditionally… where you have the willingness to lose yourself in love expecting nothing in return..… you just let your mind wander in the lows and highs of the fabulous emotion with no tags attached… when you know it is not always ‘and they lived happily ever after’ and yet let love make its way into your soul..this track reminds me time and again… simple things are most often the most beautiful things…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRG1lQFKahc

Sometimes you love a person not only for what they are..but also for what you become loving them.. when you discover the best part of you in the other..Like the saying goes "Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again." I admire the serene assurance love brings along with it always..

Can’t agree more to the poet who said“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day…”

“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality…and groundless hope ..like unconditional love..is the only thing worth having…”

Sometimes you wish..you could...!!!!!

Sometimes in life you just start wishing ‘if at all I could…’be it be going back and correcting few mess ups… or bringing back the ones whom inevitable took away from us… or changing few things you had decided earlier..or just be with someone whom you were always longing to be with for the rest of your life…I hate mush..but yes life takes its twists and turns making you fall in and out of love…of all kinds…

Have been hooked on to this one song from the movie’Lamhaa’ like crazy. One amazing composition with fabulous lyrics so close to life… intense… soulful..and deep…. That’s the song ‘Madhno’ for you!it penetrates straight through your heart and touches your soul like a gentle breeze .. a careless whisper…Kshitij and Chinmayi have rendered the song so beautifully..it is one fab experience you would not want to miss out on…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tauxc47--Xo&feature=player_embedded#at=337

It happens quite often that you believe something to be ‘love’ and then feel lost one day.. when love actually makes its entry..it is true that only when you are lost can love find itself in you without losing its way..someone so well said it. It happens many a time that life showers you with all the things that you have always longed for… and you are not in a state to accept it with arms wide open… some things and people happen to you late..its when you let go…. Again I believe we can’t lose anything that we never can have….yet again..its a beautiful feeling to love unconditionally without having any expectations..you just love..and don’t care about the rest…when u let love have no fixed returns…

That’s when in the middle of an ordinary life… love starts giving you a fairy tale..like someone once told me… you can go on wishing…anything that you long for… but at the end of it all get back to reality and start living it for others…sometimes we refuse to accept that things would have been better otherwise… but we can be either happy that it happened or upset that why it happened so late… but being in love itself is utmost fulfillment..you feel complete..just the way you have always wanted to be..The song beautifully captures these emotions…

We are all prisoners in the glass house of dreams… of time.. of the moments that passed by..where you cannot travel back and change a few things..may be its not meant to be..but the very thought that it could have happened makes you content.. just knowing that you have something and someone to look forward to..whenever life gives you hard knocks… when ever reality bites..literally..its ok to believe when someone tells you that ‘I can bring the horizon for you..’..its totally fine to start believing in rebirths.. its ok to wish to be a shadow that never leaves..coz its all about love..and for those who believe no proof is needed… How I wish I could… ?!

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone..but I can tell you what it is for me..just so you know..there is a space in my soul only you can fill..just so you know.. I loved you then.. I guess I always will…”