Serene shades of love..!!!!!

I have always been fond of writing letters… long and small..letters of all kinds used to amuse me.. brighten up my days… used to insist to my people that they write to me… even if a small post card. I feel a handwritten note makes a lot of difference…its much more personal…direct.. and so close to life.. Someone so well said it “What a lot we lost when we stopped writing letters. You can't reread a phone call.”

Watched this movie ‘Welcome to Sajjanpur’ just for my love of letters… to see the protagonist who writes letters and lives his dreams through them… The magical track’ Ek meetha marz dene’ caught my attention the very first time I listened to it. Its been a while and I had almost forgotten about it…(Thanks to my red bull for the timely reminder about this and a lot of other things )

The song magically captures the purest form of love… love that is so divine..serene…and magical… where you love unconditionally… where you have the willingness to lose yourself in love expecting nothing in return..… you just let your mind wander in the lows and highs of the fabulous emotion with no tags attached… when you know it is not always ‘and they lived happily ever after’ and yet let love make its way into your soul..this track reminds me time and again… simple things are most often the most beautiful things…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRG1lQFKahc

Sometimes you love a person not only for what they are..but also for what you become loving them.. when you discover the best part of you in the other..Like the saying goes "Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again." I admire the serene assurance love brings along with it always..

Can’t agree more to the poet who said“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day…”

“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality…and groundless hope ..like unconditional love..is the only thing worth having…”

Sometimes you wish..you could...!!!!!

Sometimes in life you just start wishing ‘if at all I could…’be it be going back and correcting few mess ups… or bringing back the ones whom inevitable took away from us… or changing few things you had decided earlier..or just be with someone whom you were always longing to be with for the rest of your life…I hate mush..but yes life takes its twists and turns making you fall in and out of love…of all kinds…

Have been hooked on to this one song from the movie’Lamhaa’ like crazy. One amazing composition with fabulous lyrics so close to life… intense… soulful..and deep…. That’s the song ‘Madhno’ for you!it penetrates straight through your heart and touches your soul like a gentle breeze .. a careless whisper…Kshitij and Chinmayi have rendered the song so beautifully..it is one fab experience you would not want to miss out on…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tauxc47--Xo&feature=player_embedded#at=337

It happens quite often that you believe something to be ‘love’ and then feel lost one day.. when love actually makes its entry..it is true that only when you are lost can love find itself in you without losing its way..someone so well said it. It happens many a time that life showers you with all the things that you have always longed for… and you are not in a state to accept it with arms wide open… some things and people happen to you late..its when you let go…. Again I believe we can’t lose anything that we never can have….yet again..its a beautiful feeling to love unconditionally without having any expectations..you just love..and don’t care about the rest…when u let love have no fixed returns…

That’s when in the middle of an ordinary life… love starts giving you a fairy tale..like someone once told me… you can go on wishing…anything that you long for… but at the end of it all get back to reality and start living it for others…sometimes we refuse to accept that things would have been better otherwise… but we can be either happy that it happened or upset that why it happened so late… but being in love itself is utmost fulfillment..you feel complete..just the way you have always wanted to be..The song beautifully captures these emotions…

We are all prisoners in the glass house of dreams… of time.. of the moments that passed by..where you cannot travel back and change a few things..may be its not meant to be..but the very thought that it could have happened makes you content.. just knowing that you have something and someone to look forward to..whenever life gives you hard knocks… when ever reality bites..literally..its ok to believe when someone tells you that ‘I can bring the horizon for you..’..its totally fine to start believing in rebirths.. its ok to wish to be a shadow that never leaves..coz its all about love..and for those who believe no proof is needed… How I wish I could… ?!

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone..but I can tell you what it is for me..just so you know..there is a space in my soul only you can fill..just so you know.. I loved you then.. I guess I always will…”

Shooting stars…!!!!

As a child I have always believed in the magic of shooting stars… that if you make a wish when it falls it will come true… through out my growing up years and even today I secretly believe in that …and sometimes wish to be like a shooting star.. Like the poet who said.. “I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps "Oh look at that!" Then- whoosh, and I'm gone...and they'll never see anything like it ever again... and they won't be able to forget me ever.”

It happens some times that you feel deserted of all your hopes and dreams… you feel deprived of a gentle touch.. a soothing word that will set things alright…!!Loneliness then starts to cast a shadow in your life like an empty sky at night.. Sometimes things change and they are never the same again…all of a sudden you feel like a kid who has lost its way…that is the way with life..life moves on..change indeed is the only thing that is constant…

That is when you begin to long for that one star of hope somewhere in the corner… that one ray of hope which will make you start believing in your dreams once again..Where you start collecting those bits and pieces of your dreams and start living yet again…. Life then looks like a fairy tale…no matter how gloomy the day might be..you still find fresh blossoms all around..no matter how lost you feel..you still feel secure that someone is going to show you the way…no matter how low you feel..you just know that someone is going to life up your spirits…by just being there…

‘Iktara’ from the movie’ Wake up Sid’ has been a favourite like forever… the song beautifully captures the emotion where you realize the presence of that one star of hope in your life… which makes you move on.. and achieve that what you dream of..Kavitha Seth’s voice is magical…Amit Trivedi is a fabulous musician who has always brought along with him tons of surprises..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyauNfiMh7E

Jim Morrison, an American poet once said“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act-” “People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. Pain is meant to wake us up. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting the world destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to be yourself.” The song makes you realize this fact..Let’s all long for that one star of hope in our lives..let’s not stop believing in ourselves…let’s not give up..

PS: This post is dedicated to my shooting star who fell in my life as a surprise..the one who has promised to be my red bull for life :)

“For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.”

Life..love...and such ...!!!!

Some genres of music straight away penetrate your heart and touch your soul... Sufi is one such amazing genre that will make you wander in the highs and lows of the tunes and haunt you through days and nights...Rekha Bhardwaj, the stunningly brilliant singer with an unique voice has so well captured the haunting melancholy of Sufi music in her song 'Tere Ishq mein'

This one song has been there for years now and still feels so fresh and alive..I feel it is mainly coz of the beautiful emotion that it has captured so fabulously ...!The entire listening experience is so mesmerizing..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vh79HzXqplo

'Love' is that one thing which we can try to define forever and find a new meaning every time you try.. the shades of emotions that it is comprised of are much more than words can ever say...there is always a touch of yearning..you feel incomplete in the absence of the other..Someone once beautifully coined.."Fence me in...the world is too big out there and I don't like it without you.."'Tere Ishq mein' will make you experience love of all kinds... love where you want to lose yourself coz of separation.. the kind of separation the 'inevitable' brings in... the loneliness that gulps you down slowly in someone's absence.... the longing..the sense of belonging and such!!

I have always believed that 'You never leave someone behind...you always take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind..'To long for something..it is an amazing feeling..you can never get enough of it... He who said it was so right..."I didn't ask for it to be over..for again I never asked for it to begin..and yes that is way it is with life...as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance and even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets..."

Watching someone walk out of life should never make us cynical..."If the people we love are stolen from us , the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them.."

"You can shed tears that someone is gone..

or you can smile because they lived..

Your heart can be empty coz you can't see that someone..

or you can be full of the love you shared..

You can cry and close your mind..

be empty and turn your back..

or you can do what they would want..

smile..open your eyes..love..and go on..!!!!

Some New Year thoughts..!!!!!

New year always makes me feel so positive.. so much alive and kicking….it makes me believe that there is a new day awaiting me… a new year of hope… another year to live…to love ..laugh and give…to live each day with zest and try to be the best I can be..

Sometimes we all need that push to get it all right.. and to start it all over again… I feel we get to view things differently when we look into our own ways of dealing with things… the letter not written…those words not said…those few steps not taken … I always feel this is the time to right some wrongs…

Its never too late to say the magic word that sets things right instantly… specially to the ones whom we know we can’t do without.. the ones who are the reason for our existence… its never too late to say ‘ am sorry’…

This one song from the amazing Tamil movie ‘ Vinnai Thaandi Varuvaaya’ captures the emotion in an amazing way of its own.. it portrays those shades of love where you give in totally into each other without any inhibitions.. where there is no hesitance to say that I was wrong….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKcIuofZ3dU&feature

I have always continued to do what I have learned years ago..to forgive myself too and not just forgive others… for I feel its important for every human being should forgive one self as we live..coz we are bound to make mistakes at some stage… but once we realize that we have wronged… just forgive and say “if I had known better…I would have done better…”

There is no better time to make things better..to know better …to love a little more and to hate a little less… Wishing you all a very happy and prosperous new year… Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it all right...

“You may be sorry that you spoke, sorry you stayed or went, sorry you won or lost, sorry so much was spent. But as you go through life, you'll find - you're never sorry you were kind…”

An ode to a divine voice!!!!!!

Sometimes you realize how much a person meant to you or has influenced you after they leave… one such thing happened when I heard about the sad demise of Swarnalatha.. one unique singer with divine magic in her voice…one amazingly brilliant singer who made every song of hers unforgettable with her golden touch.. undoubtedly an irreplaceable loss to the world of music!

Have been reading a lot of write ups about her life that was spent in silence.. giving herself totally into music..staying away from all the glitz and glamour…could not help but write about that one song which has been a favourite ever since I heard it first… one song which got her many accolades ..

‘Poraale ponnuthaayi’ from the Tamil movie ‘Karuthamma’which got her the National award for the best playback singer and a lot of other recognitions..composed by the Mozart of South ARR himself.. she has remained a favourite of musicians like him… best of her songs were for ARR and Raja sir..though not a million songs… the handful of songs that she rendered her voice for are for sure going to make her soul alive for the years to come.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IH0UNGxLF88

People may fade away..but the way they made you feel stays forever ..Swarnalatha was an amazing find... she will live forever through her marvelous renditions....the reality of separation then starts fading away like the mist on the window pane..music is without a doubt what feelings sound like... like how someone once said.."Music speaks what cannot be expressed..it soothes the mind and gives it rest...heals the heart and makes it whole... music flows from heaven to the soul..."can't get more real than this...

"We are all broken and wounded in this world..some choose to grow strong at the broken places..eventually we will come to know that music heals everything..and music is all there is... "

One of its kind..!!!!

Finally I am out of that 'hibernation' mode.. sometimes you just don't get into the right kind of mood to scribble your thoughts.. but this time around.. the hiatus was bit too long... I missed this space.. missed all those interactions too... my search for a song finally got me to one track from the movie ‘Supari’ the only place actually I actually liked Uday Chopra…

Some songs we get addicted to.. this one track I had in my i-pod for ages and finally had to delete it one day because the addiction was getting too much :) there is this peculiar kind of pain in this soulful track that will haunt you for a long time... "Tujhe chand chahiye" from the movie 'Supari' is one of the finest compositions by the fantabulous duo Vishal-Sekhar....the movie was dismissed badly by the audiences... but am sure even this track at least a few of you would have missed out on hearing too....here is it for those who have not..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQxLXcaIN2I&feature

Love ..!! that magical emotion which always has everyone mystified since ages…that beautiful bond that brings the world together..one amazing experience that will make us totally different people..when we start feeling that feel good pain.. the pain of all those unsaid words…when we find our soul in the other.. when we find the answers to all those million questions in the eyes of the one you love… when you feel there is nothing impossible..unachievable.. !! This passionate face of love is captured well in this track…where nothing else matters…

Like Gibran once said.. “To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night….To know the pain of too much tenderness…To be wounded by your own understanding of love..And to bleed willingly and joyfully…To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving…”this is what love does to you and me..so amazingly true…!!

When in love it always feels nothing is enough..there is this constant yearning which is like a flame that kindles the fire from within..where you let yourself melt in the sunshine of love..Sometimes I feel we are all prisoners in the crystal house of our dreams and hopes..The kind of love the song depicts conquers all the barriers in the world.. where you are all set to achieve the unachievable…Something in this song will ask you to live each day with zest and give yourself into love…and to keep the spark of longing within..

“I don’t want to live!I want to love first and live incidentally..and when we are living..right in the middle of an ordinary life..love gives us a fairy tale..”