Sunday, May 31, 2009

What if????!!!!

I am all of a sudden reminded of this Tamil movie 12B. It was actually speaking a movie with a different script but didn’t click well with the audience. It captures two ‘lives’ of the hero. One where he misses a bus and one where he actually gets into the bus. Yes the question there again is ‘what if?’ It is amusing to think how it would have been if things were otherwise.(Guess this surprise break from routine is really making me ‘Think’ lol)

Life does not always give you a choice. It seems at times that this life too short or rather too small for the word ‘hate’. I have discovered that when you are left with no choice you kind of disconnect yourself from what you truly want and all that is left is compromise. That is when you tend to pose this question to yourself. ‘What if things were otherwise?’ Like someone rightly said, “When you have to make a choice and you don’t make it, that is in itself a choice.” Some times you cant’ have what you are longing for even if you sacrifice everything else for it.

Some situations in life make you wish to go back to how it was before. To bring back those memories and moments. To walk through the same ways yet again and to dream those dreams once again. I am just wishing for something like the rewind button in a music player. Don’t feel the need of the ‘shift delete’ button anymore. If you could actually get there and change or correct things which led you to where you are this moment. Quite a realistic wish I see :)

Hariharan sir has always amazed me with his soul stirring voice. ‘kaash’ remains an all time favourite. This particular song did not get noticed when compared to the title track of the album. Mesmerizing is what I can call this track ‘Jhoom le’ from the album ‘Kaash”.

This one song for all those memories that I want to bring back ..those moments and those smiles…those smiles and tears..those hopes and dreams dreamt. Life indeed takes twists and turns. Sometimes you long to get back right there and might not really be able to do that. Doing so you kind of end up living these two rather strange ‘lives’ simultaneously and to end up in a state of bewilderment. But yes the truth is there is only this moment..there is only this..or else life is yours that you will make the most of it.. walk in the rain.. feel the breeze.. dream of dreaming yet again..

“Where ‘you’ used to be..there is a void in my world.. I see myself constantly walking around that during day time and falling in at night.. And I am glad then I didn’t know it all would end the way it all would go.. Am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. These words may stay forever in my heart locked inside..may be there are words locked inside you too.. May be I will never know.. what if???!!!”

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Let go..!!!

Sometimes it is always good to let go of certain things and certain people… But as some one rightly said once “ Letting go does not always mean giving up, but rather accepting the fact that there are things that cannot be…” You at times tend to ask the question ‘ Why not?’ but yes it doesn’t offer an answer always…This very moment is the only thing you have that is certain… so hold on to it.. rather than getting lost in the blurred picture of the thing called ‘ future’

The title track from ‘Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam’ was one such song. It has so beautifully captured the art of ‘letting go’. But still in the unknown corners of your mind, there are things that we never want to let go off, people we never want to leave behind and walk away…but at stays locked in there…safe and sound.. Ismail Durbar has so stunningly composed the entire album that is so soulful and full of life.

I have always felt that the logic to get to know people better is to trust them for who they are …but always we trust them for whom we want them to be and in the end we remain disheartened. It is when we let go.. We all are responsible..! Although we won’t be able to stop the worst from happening… we are all responsible for our attitude towards the misfortunes that darken our lives..We can choose to sit deserted or decide to rise from the loss and cherish the most precious gift we have …life itself!

“Here I stand.. seeing you walk away… on I will never have a place to call my very own.. That’s all right ‘life’ are my home…”

PS: Post dedicated specially to my priceless treasure..for always making me smile.. and for being there unconditionally! : )

Monday, May 11, 2009

To be..!!!

Change..!!!…life is all about changes. There comes a point when you feel this is it and am gonna be living in this way. But not yet…there comes an unexpected change…and again the circle goes on.

It feels strange at times. When you are taken off from all your much used ways and habits. Just a strange new world...!!! Where you are just by yourself…. trying to see how life has changed and how things around you have changed. Slowly but certainly you start getting used to the changes.. and move on with the flow. Sometimes you yearn for it..most of the times it comes to you. That is the very unique thing about the concept of change..

Sudden diversions are sometimes really good. It gives you a lot of time to be with yourself and understand the person in you. But still you tend to cling on to those memories and start breathing life..all over again…Everything around you seems to have changed..but you!

Sometimes you yearn for a whiff of fresh air. ‘Akale’ was one such masterpiece from my all time favourite Shyamaprasad Sir. The title track will do wonders to you. With a touch of Beethoven’s Symphony, the entire album has that divinity attached to it which will help you let go off everything else haunting you..just let your mind wander into the unknown heights and depths..
“ I didn’t ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that’s the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets..”