“One more time we are strangers, but this time with memories.” This line that I came across of late got me thinking. It has been so long since I have visited this space. Sometimes it so happens that silence takes over and words no longer make sense to you. We all go through such phases of hibernation when you are totally withdrawn into your confined space where no one has access!
It is really something to think about how we make people who used to mean everything into a thing of times gone by. How we should learn to unlearn. How we can force ourselves to forget and what can we put in their place to fill up the void? The emotional journey your soul undergoes after every farewell teaches you more about yourself than the relationship did.. makes you realise what someone or something meant to you and how much you would want to go back to relive those memories with them around you, a piece of home you have never known before they came along!
Life has always taught me that when our very existence revolves around someone, it just does not stop even though what is left in their place is only the thought of someone who existed, who just left and never looked back! The person who knew your every day struggles …things which made you break down… and what made you smile… the person who saw the world and the people in it through your eyes and who knew how to bring you back to life and make you fall in love with it all over again… that person is no longer there. Happened to read this recently that one of the hardest things to do in life is to grieve the loss of someone who is still alive. True that ‘'there are memories that time does not erase... Forever does not make loss forgettable, only bearable!’'
Farewells of all kinds always carries within their souls so much heartaches..! Family.. friends.. partners.. irrespective of who left… the void remains and you never really stop knowing them in that way like how they once were. We all find ourselves standing in those unknown fields so lost that we cannot find our way back. Those memories that are revolving around the places you went ..the things said unsaid..the songs you listened ..the dreams shared.. remain! True that “It is not really letting go off the past that is the problem. It is coming into terms with letting go off a future that will never be.”
Quite often you are left knowing a lot more about love and what it can do, and the pain the void in your heart, or emptiness in the opposite chair can bring to you. We never really get to know whether the void will be filled by the person who made it.. or will someone else can match up to that and help you heal?! I have always been of the belief that you either love someone, in someway which is uniquely yours forever, or you never really have loved.
These amazing tracks soulfully depict these emotions of different kinds! ‘Laal Ishq’ from RamLeela, ‘Judaai’ from Badlapur and ‘Oh Rangrez’ from Bhaag Milkha Bhaag are just amazingly awesome compositions that make you experience a wide sea of emotions each time you listen to them. The sinking into an unknown space act, which only music can do that to you!
We all start as strangers. It’s incredible how with time, we realise that the storms within you calm down eventually, but we see the stars and the skies and dreams differently now and we can’t really choose whose farewell does that to us! Like Coelho says, “Because we managed to keep our heart open despite the pain… because the person who left did not take the sun with them or leave darkness in their place. They simply left!” Yes, we all start as strangers, but with every farewell comes a hidden hope and we become strangers of some sort again, but this time with memories!
“In your light I learn how to love” Rumi