Memories of a very dear friend whom I lost couple of years back made me write this post. He was the darling of everyone.. quiet... softspoken and amazingly brilliant... Since there were so many students we had in our school with his name.. us friends used to always refer to him as 'paavam'Sandeep. Yes thats what he was... in every way... we never met for like years after school till we once bumped into each other at an inter college fest... We had a thousand things to talk about.. and yeah I was so very happy for having met him... Again life took us in different directions and we never actually met...but we had a common link who kept us updated...One of those mornings at work.. I read this news about a bike accident... but least did I think that it could be someone whom I know who was swept away from this wonder world...one hard knock that was... one hard knock which kept reminding me never to take things or people for granted... sometimes when knowingly or unknowingly..you tend to take someone for granted... some kind of strange assurance that he/she is going to be there always with you.. so why make an extra effort..to stay in touch.. to call once in a while to ask how things are.. to share a smile..no.. instead we let things be.. then one day comes when reality bites and you know that you can never have them back in your life again...not even for a single moment.. they are gone once and for all.. and I have always felt that it is the most painful reality of life...that nothing is forever.. its what we want to be... 'forever'is just as long as you are there...
This one realisation I feel.. many of us need... which will hold us back before hurting someone else.. before saying things which you know you can never take back.. for not saying things which are meant to be said... again its about saying and doing things at the right time.. when its required...not when the moment has passed by... and your words and deeds just dont make a difference... Its true with every relationship.... relationship with family.. friends... colleagues... or even mere 'hi-bye' friends...
'Vida parayuka aano'' from the Malayalam movie Big B kind of absorbs the pain of seperation...from loved ones... a haunting track it has always been a favourite...This one post and the song specially I am dedicating to my dear friend... and his extremely sweet mom who made it to the biggest occasion of my life despite knowing that..coming there is just going to take her back to old days and make her miss him even more... But I know for a fact that.. I will be there in which ever way I can.. if that brings some smiles in their lives again...
Life (as I have written a million times before this...)happens only once...so live each and every moment to the fullest... not just breathe and exist but live with zest and vigour...
"It's a weird feeling.. you know the end of something great is coming..but you want to hold on..just for one more second..so that it can hurt a little more...
