Lets talk about life. Yes, something as simple yet as deep as the term ‘life’. Not the kind of conversations that feel superficial and shallow, but the kind which will make you feel a little less lonely, heard and understood. Sudden changes in the usual, unexpected losses and untimely deaths always bring along with them a whole set of revelations and realizations.
There are these sinking moments…moments of fear, uncertainty and self pity which follows. Those dreadful moments, which suck you into the depths of some strange dark corners that you possibly didn’t know existed. You possibly feel like being swept off the ground by this quicksand effect, which totally shakes you up, and you feel your world crumbling down all around you. Ever felt this despair and helplessness of not knowing where, why, when and how?!
Then there are also these incredible moments of realizations about what actually matters and what ought to matter in the long run. Those stubborn moments of self-assurance and clarity we seek beyond the blurry horizons. Yes, that is the kind of emotions we are talking about. The demons which we fight every day and refuse to give in holding on to that one single thread of hope. That kind of magnificent strength that makes you a living, breathing, real example accepting and embracing life with all its surprises, jolts and reality checks every now and then.
Us humans, we always long for that something in our lives to fill the emptiness in our soul created by that aww so overwhelming unacknowledged loneliness. It could be a person, a thing, or just something that we do, to keep ourselves moving ahead despite of all the odds. I have learned that the little secret is to accept the fact that sometimes its not about figuring it all out at once, but to live through each day gracefully and repeat it every single day until you find that stability. True that sometimes its no mountain we conquer but ourselves. I have also started to believe that it is really important for us to accept the fact that every one else has a life beyond their understanding of our suffering and pain that we have to sometimes find solace, peace and answers within ourselves.So tread lightly on those difficult roads and don't be too harsh on yourself. Yes, the world might try to break you down, but wear your truth like your shield... and tread lightly!
Just few days back, I lost a dear friend to cardiac arrest and quite a few people to reality! Losses no matter in what form, create a void that only can be filled with hope, patience and a whole lot of love. There are these days when you miss that feeling of being held. If you ask me, the safest I have always felt is inside a hug. Hugs make you feel so safe, protected and taken care of. Something as simple as a hug can breathe life into a person I have known when I hugged my darling friend who eventually lost her fight to cancer.
There are few songs that kept me company through my dark days and nights. Music indeed holds the power within to heal all kinds of wounds and make you whole again. This also has been the phase where the mother in me has been suffocated beyond measure with the distance that has come in between the little piece of my soul and myself. Music has always been that loyal companion with me throughout this journey as my no judgment zone and rock of a constant. Music helps when your soul has aching voids and scars on it because we rubbed ourselves against certain experiences and people. It helped me find my light yet again. I really do hope, it will help you too no matter what you are enduring right now!
There was indeed never a night so dark or a heartache so deep that could defeat the miracle of another sunrise or a ray of hope! Here is borrowing Jidnya Pandya’s soulful ‘One less lonely night’ to wrap up my thoughts. “ Just wait back a little longer! The night is almost over; come, lets watch the sunrise together!”